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    Can Bach

    Knh bach Thay,Ke t bao nam qua, khi song gan Thay, luc phai xaThay, nhng con biet rang luc nao Thay cung eu chamsoc, theo doi bc ng tu hanh, lam viec cua con.ieu o lam cho con rat an ui, du biet rang, song xaThay la mot thiet thoi rat ln.

    Hom nay, nhan dp au nam Nham Ngo, con muonviet len ay nhng cam ngh cua con e Thay oc, nhla mot mon qua nho dang len Thay. Neu co ieu naoxuc pham en c tnh khiem nhng cua Thay, conxin Thay hy xa cho con.

    Mot cach thanh that, con se viet ra nhng g ma conngh trong au oc non nt cua mnh. Du cho van t con

    vung dai, cau van cha dien at c het y muon giaibay, nhng vi tam thanh, con ch muon noi len motieu: o la con luon nhan thay rang Thay la mot v bons co tam long, co o lng khien con suot i knh trongva biet n Thay.

    Long thanh, va vi tam niem biet n oi vi s giaodng cua Thay, con xin cui au sat at anh le cbo tat Quan the Am gia ho Thay phap the khinh an,sc khoe c doi dao e mai mai la bong mat chech cho con, cho anh em chung xuat gia chung con, vacho nhng chau noi trong ngoi nha tam linh cua Thay.Ngoai ra, con cung cau mong viec kien tao tu vien KimSn c hoan man nh y muon cua Thay.

    Nam mo Chng Minh s Bo tat Ma ha tatHayward ngay 1 thang 12 nam 2001

    ` Can bai,

    Thch T-Lc

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    Toi c gap Thay toi vao khoang

    thng tuan thang 5 nam 1975 taitrai t nan Fort Chaffee, tieu bang Arkansas.Nam o, toi hai mi tuoi (tuoi trong giay

    t) va en at nc nay vi tat ca s tnh c,khong chu ch ma cung khong he toan tnhtrc. Noi mot cach khac, viec toi co mat mot

    x s vo cung xa la vi toi va sau nay toi nhanlam que hng th hai cua mnh, hoan toanvt ra ngoai moi s d oan, hieu biet va chuong cua toi. Phai chang la do nhan duyen aay? Trc o, toi a lu lac nhieu ni trongnhoc nhan, gian truan ke ca hiem ngheo khi

    trong tui khong co lay mot ong, trong au ockhong co g ngoai hoang mang va lo s. Vayma, ch trong nam ngay toi a vt ai dng,i het na vong trai at e en nh c niay? Co nghiep lc chi phoi khong? Co s sapxep nao t nhng kiep trc khong? Xin bangiup toi tra li nhng cau hoi kho khan nay.

    Cuoc i cua rieng toi khong la g ca bana. Ch nh mot hat cat nho nam b v gia samac cuoc i thoi. Xin ban ng ci khi nghetoi ke lai nhng chuyen rat la vun vat trong

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    tap sach mong nay. Nhng khi nh en nThay, ngha Ban, nhng hnh anh than thng

    cua nhng ngay trai t nan, may nam lamieu trong cuoc song tu hanh cua mnh c lnvn trong au. Nhieu luc, no khong chu namyen trong bo nh cua toi ma nh muon nhayra, muon vot len oi bieu tnh, phan oi, lamtoi khong chu noi, nen anh lieu mang, viet

    ra. Co viet ma chet, th cung phai viet ra choroi, ti au th ti!Nh vay la ban a cam thong cho toi roi.

    Toi xin mi ban i tham quan cuoc i cuatoi. Nh kieu i tham Disneyland mien namCali hay vn Nhat t hon ngay tai Hayward

    nay.

    BC AU CUA CHON DUNG THAN

    Co mot em nam ngu, toi cht git mnh.Tnh giac ra mot luc toi mi biet va co y thcro rang la mnh ang nam ngu trong trai tnan My, khi nhn thay toan mot mau trangcua tng voi. Khong phai la cai khong gianquen thuoc cua lo cot, kem gai, giao thong haocua mot x chien tranh, cung vi cai ket thucang buon vi bao nhieu oi kho, gian truancua mot chuyen i ay bat trac va vo nh. Toibiet, bat au t ay cuoc i mnh se oi khachoan toan, va toi bat au a le khi ngh enthan phan t co vo than gia chon que ngi.Toi khoc en lm ngi! Ngh en cha me, gia

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    nh, bay gi tat ca a nam ngoai tam tay cuamnh, cach xa ben kia b ai ng. Toi con

    qua tre e biet oan han. Nhng toi thay buonqua oi, nh the ai kia (hay nh menh eo le)a cp i nhng g toi het sc mong c choi mnh. Toi ch khoc lan o thoi, sang homsau toi bat au cuoc i t nan cua mnh - vakhong khoc lan nao na.

    Luc o, tai Hoa ky co bon trai t nan tat ca.Fort Chaffee, ni on bc chan lu lac cua toiva rat nhieu ngi na, la mot a iem nam trung tam nc My, von la mot trai lnh. Congviec an c to chc kha chu ao, co nha antap the, co ca ni sinh hoat cho ba con t nan,

    va may thay, cung co mot ni dung lam chonsinh hoat tam linh cho Phat t, ma ho atten la Buddhist Center, tam dch la Trung tamPhat giao. Ni nay, nguyen la mot hy vien nayc sa sang e dung lam cho sinh hoat tamlinh cho ong bao Phat t.

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    Tnh c, toi oc c mau tin ang tren bantin cua trai, can ngi en don dep ni o e

    lam ni le Phat cho ba con Phat t, tam goi lachua khong biet co c khong?. a tng laoan vien Gia nh Phat t que nha luc connho, bay gi lai khong co viec g lam, va chchua dng nh quen vi tai mnh lam. Toitm en, tnh nguyen lam viec quet don. o la

    ni chon va thi iem au tien toi c gapThay toi.Ban chang nen quen la luc o, toi a tng

    loi Trng Sn hn hai nam, nhng con banhlam. Da tht chac nch, mat may co chut phongsng, du cha day dan, va nang 120 pounds

    lan o. (Ch khong phai nh bay gi, sau hailan l dai namely nhan e t xuat gia valam trzu trz bat dac d, toi a cung dng20 pounds, tc la gan 10 ky lo da tht.) Hetnh ngoai i, viec au tien la toi trnh dienThay e nhan cong tac. Toi cha quen au,

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    ban a. Luc o, thay khoang 30 tuoi (cung tuoitrong giay t), trong rat th sinh. Va mi qua

    My theo dien du hoc ch trc o sau thangnen Thay con co ve Viet nam lam. Thay macquan mau trang, bo vat ho ben trong, ao nhatbnh, co dat cay but may, nhac trong dang dapcon Viet nam chay, rat gan vi hnh anh cuamot v tang s toi a tng gap lang toi. Toi

    thay cam men Thay lien. Toi lien tng ngay Thay mot chut hnh anh que hng ma giay ch con trong tr nh, trong m tng cuamnh. Cat giong Quang tr, nhng la giong cuake xa nha lau nen pha l l roi, Thay bao toi,cung vi hai ch Phat t, bat tay vao viec quet

    don. Giao viec xong, hoi han vai ba cau, Thaybo i au toi khong biet. Toi lam o mo hoinhng thay trong long rat vui. T nhien camthay quen thuoc nh toi a quen chon, quenviec roi.

    Sau khi don dep, oi bung, toi i lay cm

    nha an tap the roi tr lai lam tiep cho enhoan thanh cong viec. Vi tuoi hai mi, connha ngheo nhng t khi ong tay en viecnang, khong ng toi co the lam viec gioi vathuan thuc nh vay, ban a phuc toi cha?

    Ch vai ba sau ni o a tr thanh mot

    ngoi Niem Phat ng cho ngi t nan Vietnam. Tam hnh toi con gi c di ay, sau27 nam, se cho ban mot t khai niem, hnhanh ve ni nay. Anh Vu Tien Thuy tng la

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    hoa s Viet nam, a ve bc hnh c Bon Se th. Mot bo chuong mo nho va bc hnh Di

    a, Quan Am, The Ch ma Thay em theo tque nha thiet tr ngay trc v tr chnh, nhthe la chung toi co ban th Phat kha tm tatroi. Chung toi bat au co nhng buoi le caunguyen vao buoi toi, luc 6 gi. Toi khong nhla cac vat dung khac nh hng en, kinh sach

    t au ma co. Co le, t nhng Phat t mangtheo c va em en cung cho chua. Cha coviec g lam, tr nhng ngi co san von lieng

    Anh van, co the i lam tnh nguyen trong cacc quan t thien nh Red Cross, hay CatholicCharities, v.v.. con hau het la ngoi i tin tc

    than nhan, tien oan thi tiet cho cuoc icua mnh nh toi chang han. Phan khac, la loau cho than nhan nha, khong biet tng laitrc mat se nh the nao nen ai cung muon caunguyen, xin Phat ban cho mot chut an long, oili an ui. Nhng buoi tung kinh o rat am cung

    va nhiet thanh. Khong biet t luc nao, toi alen chc duy na, phu trach phan thnh chuongtrong cac thi kinh sang chieu vi Thay va moingi. Anh Nguyen Nhn, Tran Van Lap, tngla quan nhan Phat t, a quen vi kinh ke nengi viec thnh mo. Toi quen noi cho ban biet,la sau khi quet don xong, toi move in luon,ngha la, lam ieu con e toc. Cung that ci,(va va mi ay Quang e con choc que toi),toi ch tap anh may ch bang nh dng chthoi vay ma cung c lam th ky trong van

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    phong, lo viec ghi ten e Thay phuc nguyencau an cho Phat t.

    Trong khoang thi gian nay, tnh cam thay

    tro cha phat trien nhieu. Toi cha biet nhieug ve Thay, ma Thay cung khong hoi han g vegia the cua toi. Nhng co mot lan toi biet laThay tin tng mnh: Thay nh toi cao toc choThay.

    Toi cung ngng ngung lam va s set, ai

    ngai na. Nhng het cach roi, Thay bao thnghe li, vi lai a tng la lnh mu nau ma,nen toi c lam ung tinh than thi hanh trc,khieu nai sau cua quan oi. That ra, co g auma khieu nai. Hai thay tro vao trong phongtam tap the cua trai. Thay cung te nh, ch

    vao gi tra, rat vang ngi e lam cong viecnay. Thay a toi li dao lam, va ve toi caotoc t trc ra sau. Toi c di chuyen vong vong,Thay a tay ch ni nao, ve cao cho nao la toia li dao ti ni o. Phan th s l st da,

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    chay mau Thay th mnh mang toi. Phan thcha bao gi dung dao lam ca, toi c thay lung

    tung, s s trong long. Khong biet thay co bietkhong, ch sau khi xong xuoi, thay bao toi rangoai e Thay tam, toi coi nh thoat c mottai nan ln trong i!

    Thay la ngi sot sang, hang say trong khilam viec. Co le, mot phan tuoi con tre, phankhac Thay co kha nang, co kinh nghiem lamviec khi con que nha. Ch co may thang tri trai t nan ma Thay gay dng c mot slien lac rat chat che vi nhieu Phat t, sau nayho van con gi lien lac va ung ho Thay trongcac Phat s hoang phap.

    i song tam b trai t nan troi qua eueu. Ngoai viec sang chieu, hai thi kinh, toi cobon phan lam th ky van phong, kiem nhiemviec i lay cm nha an tap the ve cho quyThay, va toi a lam tron bon phan mot cachthuan thanh, khong thac mac. Con cac chuyen

    khac, tnh that ma noi, toi cung khong bietmnh MUON g na. Toi nghe ngi ta noi veviec i nh c, ri khoi trai, th can sponsor,ngi bao tr. Toi cung chang hieu g nhieu hnve i song nc My ngoai hnh anh trai cammau vang va ch California. o la hnh anh toi

    thay c khi con nho, khi hoc quyen Englishfor Today bac trung hoc. Va cau chuyen diay bat au thay oi moi d tnh cua toi.

    Nh ban a biet, toi co bon phan ghi ten

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    nhng ngi xin cau an, oan tu gia nh va,sau nay, co them phan cau sieu na. Hom o,

    co mot cap v chong tuoi trung nien, ma ve sautoi goi la chu thm Chanh, en xin lam le causieu. Toi co c hoi hoi tham, tm hieu, te ra chuthm va co mot ngi con trai mat mot nigan ao Guam. V em o la con trai oc nhatcua chu thm nen, mnh co the hieu, ho rat au

    kho. Toi cam ong that s khi nghe qua hoancanh o. Toi ngh, phai chi toi ma chet the echo em o c song th hay hn, v gia nhchu thm tranh c noi mat mat ngi than.Ch toi, ch co mot mnh th co an thua g vicuoc i au! Suy ngh o cung ch la non nt,

    vu v thoi. Dng nh Thay co i lam le tangcho gia nh v em o chon mot ngha athuoc thanh pho Ft. Smith, cach trai t nanchng vai chuc miles. Khi lam le cau sieu xong,Thay co noi s qua ve hoan canh va ngo li chiabuon. Roi Thay hoi moi ngi, co ai muon noi

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    ieu g khong. Ra ma toi dam xin phep noi!Toi noi mot hi. Bay gi th toi khong nh la

    mnh noi g nhng moi ngi, nhat la chu thmChanh khoc va to ve cam ong lam. Toi cungkhoc theo, long thay that buon tuy cha hieungha cua ao ly vo thng la g ca. Co mot acon trai qua x t do c roi, ma ch i tamb san ho cat da, nhiem trung roi chet, th hoi

    lam sao ma khong au n c. Toi that tnhmuon chia xe niem au o vi chu thm. Qua sviec o, lien he gia toi va gia nh chu thmthem gan gui. Do o, khi quyet nh nh c Phap, chu thm Chanh co y muon nhan toi lamcon nuoi va em theo qua Phap cho an hoc.

    Toi hi ng ngang va cung khong biet phaix s nh the nao na. Suy ngh vai ngay sauth toi tha vi Thay ve viec nay. Thay cungkhong ban ra, ban vao g, ch cho y kien chungchung thoi. Tuy vay, trong li khuyen bao, thaycho toi cam tng thay co oi chut cam men toi

    qua thi gian sinh hoat ben nhau. Roi thay giy, la sau khi ri trai t nan, sap xep xong moiviec Los Angeles, thay se ve San Franciscolap chua, tiep tuc chuyen hoc cua Thay. Toicung co trnh bay nhng suy ngh cua toi, trongo, co le phan chnh yeu la toi muon i tu. Cuoi

    cung, hai thay tro quyet nh se ve song SanFrancisco vi nhau. Toi ri trai t nan FortChaffee, cung vi anh Hai Nghien, vao ngay20 thang 12 nam 1975, trc Thay nam ngay.ung ngay le Giang sinh nam o, chng trnh

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    nh c ngi t nan Viet nam t au cuachnh phu Hoa Ky hoan tat. Cung vao ngay

    nay, tai thanh pho Cu Kim Sn toi thay tuyetri la ta tren ng, mot hnh anh rat ep.

    NH C - SAN FRANCISCO

    Khoang hai tuan le sau, thay xuong SanFrancisco, tam vi chung toi vai ngay trong

    mot can nha nam tren ng Fulton so 1880,va ng Masonic. Toi nh khong ro lam,nhng ch khoang tuan le, chung toi lai donve mot can apartment tren ng Hayes, canhmot ngoi chua Nhat ban. Luc nay, mi goi laon nh i song cua mnh.

    Bat au la viec hoc. Thay lien lac vi trnge hoc Anh van. Con toi th ngay nao, sau khicong phu xong la i hoc Anh van trng John

    Adams Adult School. Co mot viec ma toi lamquen, thanh nep. o la, trc khi i hoc thbo vao may cassette mot cuon bang kinh, bam

    nut cho may chay e thau bang, lam viec phathanh kinh sach. Khi ve, th tr mat kia, tieptuc cong viec. Sau nay, nhn cai may co thethau mot lan sau bang, chay cai ret, toi nhlai cai thu ban au cua mnh sao ma ngheonan, toi nghiep!

    Thi gian au, thay tro song vi nhau ratla gian d. Thay co nhng suy tnh trong viechoc, viec Phat s cua thay. Rieng toi, cha biettng lai cua mnh nh the nao, cho nen viecchnh la hoc Anh van. Ngoai ra, von thch oc

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    sach nen toi i qua th vien cua UC Berkeleyhang tuan e mn sach tieng Viet, oc suot

    ca ngay khi thi gi cho phep. Phai noi, trongthi iem nay, co kha nhieu ky niem gia thaytro ma toi nh mai trong long.

    Trc het, xin noi en viec hoc giao ly, quycu thien mon e chuan b cho con ng xuatgia cua mnh. Toi co y muon i tu t luc con

    trai t nan nhng cha biet chuyen tu hanhnh the nao. Co kho khan, tr ngai g khong.Thu that, toi hoan toan mu m, co ieu toithay thch i song tu hanh: n gian, vui tiva co ly tng. Toi nh, ban au, thay day toitap tan. Toi con gi t giay, tren o thay ghi

    nhng nhp mo va chuong e cho toi tap. Conco nghi thc Thu An buoi sang trong chua vaocac ngay ram va mong mot. Toi biet la thay locho toi. Nhng phai mat mot thi gian lau, toimi that s nhan ra ieu nay, ch luc o, toithay ngai ngung, khong may thoai mai trong

    cach ch day hi xa cua thay. Toi ch ebung qua loa nhng toi lai co the hoc c khinhn ngi khac x dung chuong mo hay hoatheo li tan tung trong cac buoi le. Thay cunge yen cho toi t hoc lay cho mnh. Ke ca viechoc nhng bai tap trong cuon Luat Sa Di. Thay

    day hai ba buoi g o, roi thoi. Thay bao: chuc oc, co g khong hieu th hoi, thay se chthem cho. Toi vang li va oc, het quyen nayen quyen khac, ke ca quyen ai Cng KinhLang Nghiem cua cu Tam Minh dch va chu

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    giai ma toi thay tren ke sach cua thay. Co hieuchut nh, rat thch thu, nhng cha nam c

    yeu ly cua kinh. ng nhien roi!Toi ke chuyen nay cho ban nghe. Tc ci

    lam nhng mi thay c s ngay th trongviec lap ch tren x Hiep chung quoc cua ca haithay tro. Hom o, thay dan toi i len UC SanFrancisco, campus nam tren ng Parnassus.Muc ch chnh la tm ni cho toi hoc mon ykhoa bac s, ma theo d tnh tren tri cua haithay tro, e mai mot toi ra trng se m benhxa mien ph ung theo kieu.. con nha viet nammnh! i tu la e cu nhan o the ma! Co auma de dang nh vay. Mac dau, sau nay toi co

    hoc th mot nam premed (d b y khoa) khivao ai hoc. Va cung luc o, ca thay va toi mibiet: x s nay, mnh muon la mot viec conthc hien c hay khong la mot viec khac.Phai noi, ca hai thay tro eu co nhng mongc rat ly tng cua Phat giao.

    Co mot hom, thay tro i ch Tau. Khi tr ve,toi thay co tam nem ngi ta vat bo ben ng.

    Vay ma toi dam xin thay cho toi vac tamnem o ve chua e dung, ton tien cua anna tn th. oan ng dai khoang 12 miles,toi ach vac tng oan, met th ngh, roi lai

    i tiep t 2 gi chieu cho en 6 gi toi mi veen chua. Toi dam noi, ay la mot trong nhngcong trnh v ai trong cuoc i tu hanh cuatoi o, ban a.

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    Con chuyen lam bao Hng ao na. Bannghe ma khong phuc toi th thoi. Luc nay, thay

    a chnh thc thanh lap Niem Phat ngT Quang roi. Co bang hieu han hoi, treo ca trc cua can nha so 1661 Fulton Street.Dng nh cung do ban tay bat ac d cuatoi ke ch th phai. Va thay at ten cho toi laThch Chn-Hue vi li giai thch: ay la ten

    ao, thay at cho chu, e con lam bao na. Toibiet anh may du ch bang hai ngon thoi macung tao c s tin tng oi vi thay. Thaygiao cho toi trach nhiem anh may, trnh baycac trang bao, ke ca ba. Con thay th viet baiva chay tien e in. Bao ra cai rup, nhat la ung

    thi han na. en noi, anh Nguyen Chanh tcla Luat s Nguyen Hu L. cung co li than phucang hoang: bao muon ra ung ky han th giaocho chu Long! Lam viec vui lam, ban i! Te racai tam cua mnh no cung ky lam. Khi lam viecg ma vui trong bung th lam bao nhieu cung

    c, bat ke song chet, ngay gi.Thay thng thc day sm. i tam xongla ra ngoi ban to viet bai. Ch thay viet ratln. Tren t giay kho 8 ri nhan 11, co xep le,thay viet tng bai. Cong nhan thay rat siengnang, eu an, mot c tnh toi co hoc ma

    khong c. Co le, nh i tu t nho nen thaysong rat co quy cu, ne nep. Cong them, thay conhiet tam muon phung s Phat phap. Ca haiieu o giup Thay lam viec khong biet met.Con phan toi, bo con mi ln nen cung em

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    het sc theo uoi cua thay.Thay viet phong khach,

    con toi lam viec ngay trongphong ngu cua mnh. Baygi la hai mi lam namtroi qua roi, thi ai cuaWindow 2000, toi tin chacban khong the nao tng

    tng ra c cach lamviec cua toi luc bay gi. Vacham, va xa nhng lai rat vui

    ve va phan khi. Dng nh co mot ong lcnao ben trong thuc ay mnh lam viec khongbiet moi met khi biet rang cong viec o la phuc

    vu cho moi ngi.Sc lam viec cua Thay rat ln, rat ben b.

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    Vao khoang mua he nam 2002, ai trongchung ta co dp ve tham tu vien Kim Sneu c chiem ngng may pho tng Phat

    rat ln c tam thi ton tr san au xe phatrc. Thu that, ban au toi cung khong maychu y, en khi co khoa tu hoc cho Tang Ni khaigiang vao gia thang 9, toi mi co dp nhn kyhn khi tng Phat Di Lac cao ln c ton trngay loi ra vao tu vien. Hnh dung t hoa, nu

    ci hoan hy cua pho kim than cho ta cam giacan toan, thanh than.i vao ben trong, ta lai thay tng Bon S

    tnh toa tren toa sen ln, cao en mi mayfeet at tren be cao. Hoi tng lai nhng xucong cua mnh khi ngam nhn may pho tng

    nay roi trom so sanh vi tam lng cua ngia chu tr nhng cong c ay, toi co the phatbieu ma khong s sai lam rang tat ca the hiennen ban tnh cua thay: tam lng that ln laova luon luon hoan hy.

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    Thay von tnh rong rai nhng oi vi toi thhi chat che, kho khan. Toi ngh, co the o la

    cach song, cach oi x cua thay oi vi tro. Vingi ngoai th rat de dai, nhng oi vi e txuat gia th nghiem khac, co luc en o lanhlung. Toi hieu ieu o va khong phien trach gthay ca. Ch xin a mot v du. vi thay hn5 nam, toi mi nhan c mon tien thng

    au tien thay t tay trao cho toi, vi li dan:thay cho chu e tieu. Tuy la toi cha bao gicam thay thieu thon ve phng dien vat chatkhi trong chua.

    Tien ay cung xin noi len long biet n oivi quy ao hu chua T Quang. Quy v a

    phu tr vi thay rat nhieu va hu hieu trongviec lo lang cho quy Thay yen tam tu hoc. chng mot phan li lac ln, trong o co toi.Toi ch co viec yentam tu tap, hoc hanhma thoi.

    Nhn cach hanh xcua Thay, toi biet ola ng xa loi cuma thay a hoc ct S Ong. Co lannghe thay ke chuyen

    rang: trong tu lanhcua s ong khi naocung co nho, tao ratngon nhng la e cung

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    dng on Tr Quang hayquy Thay ln t Sai gon

    ra chi. Con thay (hay cothe co s thuc na) chabao gi c han hanhhng nhng trai cayqu gia o! Tu tap chabao nhieu ma thu hng

    nhieu th ton phc c,s ong can dan nh vay!Toi nghe thay ke chuyenxa ma san sang chapnhan hoan canh hom nay cua mnh.

    o la chuyen cu, ban a. Ch bay gi, th

    thay oi khac rat nhieu oi vi nhng ngihuynh e cua toi. Co lan, toi nghe ke lai, thaya tng a cho mot s e cua toi hai mibon ngan o la i mua mot chiec xe mi lamphng tien di chuyen. Ban biet, lan o, toic bao nhieu khong? Ba tram thoi, ma toi a

    rat cam ong roi!Toan la nhng chuyen nho thoi, ch co dp

    nhn sau hn th thay thay co cach song ratrong rai, phong khoang. Hau het moi ngieu qu men khi co dp tiep xuc vi thay, nhatla quy cu ln tuoi. Thay cung ranh tam ly lam!

    Luc nao cung khen ngi quy cu va khuyen nenco gang i chua le Phat, lam viec phc c.Cung co nguyen do, ban a. Thay theo hanh

    cua cu Thien An. Hoa Thng Thien An, ngoai

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    nu ci rang r bat diet tren khuon mat, conco mot tam long rong rai giup cac ngoi chua

    va mi thanh lap. Nghe noi, moi khi c lienlac, hoa thng eu gi cung dng mot nganMy kim lien! Vao khoang nam 1980, mot nganla ln lam o. (Toi co tap theo, nhng ch enmc mot phan mi thoi, la gan xu roi.) Theogng cu Thien An, thay toi cung rat thong

    cam nhng kho khan buoi au cua nhngngi co tam bo e va san sang yem tr viecxay chua, lap hoi. Nhan co cam hng, thay aviet mot tap sach mong, bay ve cach lap mothoi Phat giao Hoa ky. Du tai lieu nay chahoan chnh lam nhng cung noi len c tam

    long tot cua thay oi vi nhng v Tang Ni vami chan t chan rao en x ngi.Trc khi thanh lap tu vien Kim Sn vai

    nam, thay co lam mot chuyen du hanh quanhieu tieu bang tren nc My gan may thang.

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    Suot thi gian o, thay ghe cac chua e thamvieng, dien giang, hng dan viec tu tap cho ba

    con Phat t. Co ni, sau nay tr thanh nhngao trang ln, co tam voc, va vng vang trongcac sinh hoat tam linh. Ai cung nhac en thayvi tam long biet n nhng g thay em encho ho.

    Co ieu nay, en nay, toi van con thac mac:khong biet v sao thay bat au phat tngcach ay 5 nam, ngha la khoang nam 1997.Co qu Ngai huynh e nao ranh ve tam ly haynhan chung, xin nghien cu th coi hien tngnay. Rieng toi, toi thay rat vui mng. Trongthay manh khoe, co da co tht han len. Toi

    khong lo thay ph v toi biet thay co tap khcong, i thien hanh rat thng. Vi lai, a tngsong vi thay t nam 1975, toi biet tang thaycung au co ln lam au. Roi toi cung co phanlo lang oi vi sc khoe cua thay qua may lantai nan, gap chuyen kho khan. ieu nay, ch co

    the hieu, la thay to ra rat an nhien trc baonhieu cong chuyen ang xay ra quanh thay.Ban co dp nhn thay dung ba, ac biet la mgoi, th ban hieu lien. Thay thi that ngonlanh, thng thc tron ven t mot tai nam choen may ngon rau ngo hay cai xanh. Mi ay,

    thay co cho toi biet: toi ngu con ngon lam, thayng lo lang g nhieu. Toi tin ieu o v biettnh thay, at lng xuong la ngu. Ngu sm vathc day sm, trong an lanh, thoai mai.

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    Co mot hom, toi qua chua T Quang. Ancm tra xong, thay bao toi ngoi xuong, cho

    thay hoi chuyen tu tap, sinh hoat Hayward.Thay ch cho toi may the tap the duc. Toi thayho then cho mnh! Tuoi con nho, vay ma omyeu, so vi thay con kem xa. Toi tap theo cachthay ch dan, mo hoi chay ra va thay khoe. Vamng trong long v biet thay con khoe hn

    mnh!Sach v co noi rang: tng t tam sinh, nh

    vay la do tam hoan hy ben trong ma hientng ay an, vui ti ben ngoai. Luc itham d ai hoi Phat giao ai Loan, toi codp chng kien ieu nay. Tren man anh ln

    hoi trng, chuyen vien a kheo leo ghep hnhhoa thng Tinh Van len tren man anh, co trixanh cao rong, may trang thenh thang, tao chotoi cam tng mnh ang dien kien Phat DiLac ra i o thoat chung sanh. Luc o, ngoi ai Bac ma toi ngh ve thay.

    Neu khong ke them chuyen nay na, chacse b trach la thieu sot. Thay rat de dai, en omat lap trng hay sai vi giao phap, motvai lan con b ch trch, phe bnh na. Ma onglc chnh la phat xuat t long t bi va hoan hycua thay. Co anh em vao tu vien tu tap, mot

    thi gian, sinh tat, lam phien long thay. Khive nha, thay cung tm c hoi ghe tham, khuyenln; lam luc, con san sang tha th va cho pheptr lai tu vien! Co ngi trach thay, khong

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    phan tot xau, hay d. That ra, cung kho mabiet chac c, the nao la pham phu, the nao

    la giac ngo. Thay ch bien ho mot cach chungchung. Thay bao, cung toi cho no, ngoai ith tao nghiep bang chi vo chua, du cha thanhThanh cung co c hoi bt lam chuyen phamphu, dai dot. Va thay c nuoi, c day: Chieunay, QHau ra ao at cho thay, thay cho tien,

    xuong pho an pizza. Sng cha!Co mot cau chuyen xay ra vao khoang nam

    1999, toi c chng kien. Va mac ket gia!Trong mot gii an to chc tu vien Kim Sn,thay trnh ai Tang xin cho mot huynh e cuatoi tho gii. V gii t co khuyet tat nen cung

    co y kien nay no. Co v hoan hy, co v khonghoan hy may. Va cung co v phan oi. Thay yenlang ngoi nghe moi li phan tran, phe phan.Cuoi cung, thay ch xin giai thch hoan canhcua v gii t o va san sang tuan theo quyetnh cua ch Ton c gii s. Toi ngoi nghe,

    khong dam co y kien g. Nghe trong li noi cuathay khong co buon phien, hn gian. Toi bietthay ch mong lam tron bon phan va muon ae t cua mnh len mot ni chon cao ca hn.a so hieu ieu o nen, sau cung, chap thuanyeu cau cua thay vi mot vai khuyen cao trong

    than tnh va thong cam.Thay thng noi vi anh em chung toi rang:Tranh chap vi nhau ch a en chia re, khoau. Nen co gang nhng nhn nhau mot chut

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    cho vui ve trong Tang chung. Song chung vinhau vai ba nam, khi ra lam viec, tr lai gapnhau con nhn mat nhau na. Co gang gikhong kh hai hoa, hoan hy. e chng minhieu o la tot, thay a ke chuyen rieng t cuathay. Khi t Hue vao hoc Pho a (a nang),roi Phat hoc vien Hue Nghiem (Sai gon), thaya lam quen vi nhieu thay khac, moi ngi

    mot tnh. Thay Liem Chnh th ao mao nhong cu, con thay Thien Tng th luon baybm, van nghe. Nao thay Toan Chau, thayTnh Dieu nh the nao thay eu ke ra, va thayket luan: moi ngi mot tnh, vay ma thay gic than tnh vi tat ca quy Thay, du khi a

    xa cach van quy men nhau. Cung xin ghi lai ay nh la nhng giong ch e tng nh engiac linh thng toa Thien Tng. Toi c gangui ca hai thay khi con chua T Quang. Saunay khi ve Hayward, toi cung thng lui ti.Gan nhat la gii an nam 2000 chua Quang

    Nghiem, trc khi thay Thien Tng vien tchchng 5 thang. Hai Thay ca tnh rat khac nhau,vay ma lai luon luon thng men va knh trongnhau, ban a. Thay toi ong vai tro cua ngianh nen luc nao cung nhng nhn. Co Phat sg chung trong vung, thay lai nhac toi: nh goi

    thnh thay Thien Tng en hop cho vui. Roikhi nhn vao chng trnh hop hay viec to chcle loc g, thay Thien Tng luon co mot caubat hu: thay Tnh T a chi lam nay, tui xinrut lui, xin mien. Nghe qua th dng nh co

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    giong bat man, trach moc. Nhng khi co viecth thay Thien Tng lai rat tch cc ong gop,

    nhat la bo mon van nghe. Khi thay a nhanviec th bat ke ngay em, lam cho en quen anluon. Viec xong roi, mai mot, trong mot buoihop khac, chung ta lai nghe cau noi o na, vathay lai nhan viec. C nh vay, ma tnh anhem cua hai Thay nh bat nc ay. Luon luon

    co s bao dung, tha th va cham soc cho nhau.Va chuyen di ay a xay ra vao mua Thunam 2002, thang 9 ngay 27. Hoa hoan lan trankhap mot vung quanh tu vien Kim Sn, suot bangay em. Trong thi gian o, hnh anh cuaThay nh mot ngi cha lo cho an con hien

    ra gia cuoc song tu hanh cua anh em chungtoi. Ben ngoai, trong thay van ung dung, bnhthan nhng toi biet, trong long Thay con co ratnhieu toan tnh, lo lang cho ai cuoc qua trachnhiem, qua tam long, qua hanh nguyen ln lao

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    cua Thay. Toi cung bon chon khong t, khi thayla chay cang ngay cang gan en tu vien. Ngoinha ai Bi va mi hoan thanh, trong o bietbao nhieu la cong cua ong gop cua an na thchu xa gan, la cong lao kho nhoc cua Thay va

    cac huynh e ang tu hoc tu vien.Bay gi trong hoan canh xay cat chua PhoT, nen toi rat hieu ieu o. Kho nhoc lam,kien nhan lam, mi co the xay dng c tonglam, ao trang em am, lam cho nng ta tamlinh cho ong bao Phat t. Trong long toi, th

    trc sau, van mong c, ai chung va huynhe tu vien Kim Sn co c ni chon yen one tu tap, chuyen hoa kho au, hoan thanh cnguyen cao ca cua ngi xuat gia. Yeu to chnh,theo y toi, van la co an c mi lac nghiep,nay la chay ngat tri, lam sao ma khong lo

    lang c. Cuoi cung, v s an toan chung, moingi c khuyen cao tam thi ri khoi tuvien. Buoi toi o, toi van con nh ro: co tronghoan nan mi biet thng nhau hn, that ungnh vay. Tren co Thay, co S Thuc, di co anh

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    em, tat ca a cung chung sat canh vi nhau.Ngi lai, lo gi viec lien lac vi nhan vien

    cu hoa. Ke ra i, cham soc, an ui nhau cho quacn khon kho. Thay khong chu i! Anh em eulo lang cho sc khoe cua Thay va keu toi tmcach tha thnh vi Thay. Toi hieu va tontrong tam trang cua thay nen khong dam noig, ch chay i tm Thay, xem Thay co ch bao

    g khong. Khong thay Thay au ca, th ra, cuoicung, thng an con, Thay cung a len xe rai cho yen long ai chung!

    Mot so anh em lai tu vien, rat hang hai vacan am. Mot so quy Thay xuong u am tnhdng (ma toi thng nhat la S Thuc, tng

    la i My tham chi, hoa ra, lai cung chung chiaxe lo lang, hoan nan vi Thay). Toi va mot soanh em khac xuong San Martin, ch c hoi tiep

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    te cho nhau. em o, sau khi le Phat, ngoi yen,toi lang le e dong nc mat chay dai. Buon cung

    co, nhng vui nhieu hn v thay rang: qua bienco nay, tnh Thay Tro, Huynh e van luon luonkhang kht, du qua thi gian, du hoan canhnao, Tu Vien Kim Sn van la mai nha chung amcung, vui ti cho tat ca chung toi.

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    Ban i, luc nay co c khoe khong?Nh gi gn sc khoe, i chua, an

    chay thng nhe.Khoang thang ri na, toi se nhan them

    mot e t xuat gia. Du a may lan nhan ngitan tu en vi cua thien, vay ma lan nay, toivan con gap mot so kho khan, c thay lo lotrong long. T o, toi mi tham tha va nghen bao nhieu cong kho nhoc cua thay toi trongviec nuoi chung, o tang, trong o co toi.

    Ngan ng co cau: Co nuoi con mi biet longcha me. Cau noi ay gian d ma lai co y nghavo cung neu chung ta co tng trai qua tnhcanh va hoan canh o. Khi nuoi con, chu cckho, met nhoc, chung ta mi nhan ra bao noikho khan va hy sinh ma cha me trai qua enuoi dng chung ta khon ln.

    Trong ao cung vay, ban a. Ngi bon snhan e t e hng dan, ch day, ao tao cho

    thanh bac xuat gia co ch kh, cung nh nuoicon cai ln len trong gia nh. Toi i t nan, tco vo than, c gap Thay. Va t khi co y nhxuat gia, theo Thay hoc ao, toi xem nh mnha bc qua mot cuoc i khac ma trong o,

    3

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    toi nhan Thay nh cha, nhng v thay, s cokhac nh cha me, moi ngi trong ao trang

    tu tap la anh ch em trong gia nh mi cuamnh. Cung t o, co rat nhieu ky niem vuibuon, suot gan ba mi nam nay. Co ieu, phaimat gan mot phan t the ky, toi mi hieu ro yngha cau ngan ng tren khi mnh bat au co

    bon phan nuoi chung xuat

    gia, lo tng ba an, giacngu cho cai gia nh nhocua mnh. Bao nhieu sviec trai qua, khien baonhieu suy ngh mi naysinh, roi t o, mi co c

    hoi nhn lai quang nga qua la luc con c tuhoc ben Thay. Mi thaymnh, luc o sao ma daidot, nong noi qua!

    Cau chuyen di ay

    se cho ban vai khai niem ve cuoc i lam ieucua toi. (O la la! Ban nen nh, la nam o toia hai mi tuoi, tng an cm lnh roi o nhe!)Khong biet khi phat minh ra may ien thoaiong Bell co tien oan c noi ngac nhien vaboi roi tot cung ma co lan ngi s dung phat

    minh cua ong a gap phai. o la thi gian chua, lam ieu cua toi. Toi khong nh ro ly donao khien toi bat mot ng day ien thoairieng cho mnh. Co le, ham lien lac vi banbe, ma ien thoai cua chua th trong phong

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    thay, ra vao s dung cung thay bat tien nen toixin Thay cho bat rieng mot ng day khac,

    vi mot cai ien thoai rat xinh xan nam ngaytren ban hoc cua mnh. Toi khong nh ro, cole vao mot buoi chieu, chuong ien thoai reng,toi cam ong lien hp len nghe. Toi rat ngacnhien va lung tung tra li v ben kia la tiengnoi cua thay, goi t phong rieng! Thay nho

    nhe cho toi biet tin d: Thay Tam B. Texasva mi qua i v tai nan xe co. Thay TB cogiong tung kinh rat hay va toi rat quy men.Nay Thay a cho toi biet tin bang phng tienma toi mi co nay khong biet co phai la cachgi y cho toi m gut tam t hay khong? Cung

    bi t trc en nay, thay tro cha c camthong, gan gui nhau cho lam, t khi co dp tamtnh chuyen rieng vi nhau. Trong sinh hoathang ngay, thay tro thng ch trao oi vonven vai ba cau la thoi. T khi nhan cu ienthoai bat ng ay, toi luon suy ngh ve viec lam

    nay cua Thay; no xoay sau trong long moi khingh en - s viec xay ra a nh mot cong antheo toi gan hai chuc nam, ban a! Ban au, tuynhan ra c rang Thay a kheo la dp maha co, tm cach m ra con ng cam thongtnh thay tro nhng toi ang vao au la tuoi20, toi con vo t lam. Toi khong biet phai hanhx nh the nao e xch gan lai vi Thay nh yThay muon. Toi van gi thai o ton knh Thaynh xa ngha la van gi mot khoang cach giathay tro. Nh the tnh s e chang co dp c

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    am them khong khac g cn gio ong van tieptuc lua qua khung ca! Roi thi gian troi qua,

    toi lam tron bon phan cua ngi hoc tro vaThay cung tien rat xa tren con ng phung sPhat Phap. Thay tro co nhng ky niem rat vui,rat tng ac khi noi en tnh trang sinh hoatcua Phat giao. Co nhng luc ngoi ben nhau, anpotato chip va uong nc ngot gia mot chon

    xa la nh khi i tm at e lap tu vien. Tamhnh chup Santa Rosa co Thay, toi vi hai vchong anh ch Nguyen Thuan va Dieu Chau matoi van con gi ay. Roi nhng luc i chi chTau, khu pho Nhat hay vieng canh cau GoldenGate vi thay Tr Chn, vi cu Giac Nhien,

    vi nhng ao hu cac tieu bang ve thamchua T Quang. Bao nhieu la niem vui. Nhatla khi d ai hoi Hoang Phap Denver, hophanh chua Viet Nam, Los Angeles, khong khvui nh hoi, trong long toi thay rat thoai mai,thch thu. Nhng nhng luc ch con hai thay

    tro, mat oi mat, th rat t khi noi chuyen lau,dai hay boc lo chut tam s vi nhau. Co luc,ngoi mot mnh trong em vang, toi a at cauhoi: sao la vay, is there something wrong?

    Phai mat gan mi nam sau, luc hoc giao lyDuy Bieu vi s ong Nhat Hanh, toi mi nhan

    ra ieu nay ro net hn. Trc het, toi hieu conngi vi ca tanh cua mnh. Tanh toi t noi.Ch noi khi co e tai ro rang. Vi lai, a cday rang: bt noi chng nao tot chng nay. Noinhieu hao sc, ch lam tam them loan ma thoi.

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    ung theo sach v nha thien, nhng cung lamot cach vng mac, phai khong ban? ay la

    khuyet iem cua toi.Toi quan niem rang, a la thay tro th hoan

    nan hay an lac eu co nhau. Cau: nhat t vis, ban t vi s cua nha Nho do ba toi day chokhi con nho, a lam kim ch nam cho viec ththay cua toi. Co the mnh khong can noi vinhau nhieu ma co the hieu sau c ngi oithoai mi tot. Ly tng la nh vay, ban a,nhng trong thc te, toi a hieu Thay cmay phan? Ai ma biet c! Cai kho khan la cho nay. Va cung v vay ma co the bao nhieuieu hieu lam, buon phien a xay ra.

    Tam ly con ngi rat phc tap. Nen chi,ngi ta a tng noi: Hoa ho hoa b nan hoacot. Tri nhn tri dien bat tri tam. Chung ta cothe thay be ngoai moi ngi nhng ben trong

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    than tam con ngi lam sao biet c khi chungta cha co tr tue giac ngo cua bac ai nhan.

    Do o, khi nhan them mot ngi xin xuat gianhap chung, toi thng can nhac, phan van.

    Van biet, ngi ta ma c an vui, hanh phucth au can mnh an ui, hng dan. Ho co khokhan mi tm en vi mnh th, tren nguyentac va theo le thng, mnh nen m rong vong

    tay e on chao ho, san se vi ho niem tinyeu cua mnh. Tuy vay, ben canh ho, mnh conco trach nhiem vi nhng ngi khac; nen chngai, phc c cua mnh con thieu, cha camhoa c ho va ho co the em lai kho khancho ca chung, luc o th phien lam! o cung

    la le thng, cho nen, mnh em niem tin vaoPhat Phap ma nhan ho vao chung. Mnh hetsc thanh that mong c ho se vt qua khokhan va tm c niem vui trong i song ngian, an lac cua ngi xuat gia. Mnh tin la cos gia ho cua ch v Ho phap Thien than cho

    cong tac nuoi chung o Tang cua mnh. Mnhcung co phan phan khi va tin tng vao luatNhan Qua, rang, trong cay lanh th se hai ctrai ngot.

    ay cung la niem tin va cach thc toi hocc t Thay toi. Thay toi thng day rang: ho

    ang kho; mnh khong cu ho th ho tiep tuckho. Con nh, mnh dang tay giup ho trongtnh thng cua Phat th t nhat, ho con coc mot chut c hoi thoat kho. Mnh c lami va Phat phap nhiem mau lam, lam luc bat

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    kha t ngh, vi tr oc pham phu mnh chahieu het au. Co the, ho ma bc chan c

    vao ngoi nha ao, se thanh Phat trc mnho. Toi cung nhan thay nh vay nen manh danma lam. Qua kinh nghiem ca nhan, toi thayieu Thay day rat ung. Co mot so gia nh,tr nen rat thuan thanh vi ao, ma trc kia,ho au co biet g ve Phat phap au. Nh mot

    buoi le cau sieu cho than nhan vi ao trang,nghe c mot bai giang Phat phap, sau o,ho phat tam hng Phat, lam lanh, an chayva bat au thay oi nep song. oi vi ngixuat gia cung vay, co the, nhan duyen song vihuynh e trong li kinh tieng mo, ho se tm

    c anh sang T Bi, Giai Thoat cua ao Phat.Thanh that ma noi,toi cha trai qua kinhnghiem nay v ban au,ch co mot thay mot tro.

    Ve sau, khi thay nhan

    them nhng e t xuatgia khac, nh co TTnh,hay TMinh, TChn changhan, th toi chang co chutt hiem nao, v mot phanban tanh khong thch

    tranh chap, phan khac,toi a vao ai hoc, aco chu hng rieng, nenkhong co hoan canh tiepxuc nhieu vi anh em. Toi

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    a chon c phap mon nen c thang ngtien ti, khong muon can thiep vao chuyen

    cua ngi khac. Toi nh, ch hoc chung motlp Phat phap vao sang chu nhat do Thayday. Anh em oi ai hai hoa, vui ve vi nhau.Toi rut ta c kinh nghiem di ay. Trchet, a co tam tu hanh th mnh nen chamchu vao viec sa oi cho chnh ban than mnh.

    Khi a co quyet ch nh vay th chac chan,chung ta khong co d th gi e dom ngo, tmloi cua ngi khac au. Ch rieng chuyen tmhieu bien chuyen tam thc cua mnh thoi tha mat rat nhieu th gian roi. Co mot dao, toingoi tnh niem hang em e th i sau vao noi

    tam, tm hieu nghiep lc nao a anh hng isong cua mnh. Hai chng sach noi ve Nghieptrong quyen c Phat Va Phat Phap a giup

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    toi rat nhieu. Toi that s to mo va muon biet:mnh la ai? T o, toi mac thien ha muon lam

    g th lam, toi danh th gi e tnh niem hangem. Ui chao, luc o, toi mi thay bao nhieula tap kh nhieu i nhieu kiep con ong laitrong tam thc cua mnh (danh t goi la, trong

    A lai da thc o, ban a). Thay ma s. S roith lo tu tap, khong dam phe bnh, ch trch

    ngi khac. C nh vay ma toi quen cmoi ngi chung quanh, ch lo hoan tat bonphan cua mnh va chuyen tam vao viec hanhtr, tu tap. Thc tap mot thi gian, tnh thngthay phat khi trong long. Toi thay, thng coThanh Tnh qua, va quy men Co na v chnh

    co Thanh Tnh la ngi a t tay may cai ayloc nc cho toi khi toi tho gii Sa Di. Mon oo toi van con gi ay nh la mot ky niem quygia du Co a ve vi Phat. Toi biet n Co. Bana co dp nhn thay oi ban tay S co cha?Cong queo va khang khiu. Vi so tuoi that

    thap co lai hy, co mot long mot da vi viec tutap, chuyen tam niem Phat hang ngay, la mottrong nhng ngi theo Thay, song tu vienlau nhat. Ve phng dien ren luyen sc khoe,tap the duc hang ngay, S Co co the lam gngcho toi na o! Toi xin tam thi ket luan, khia co s tu tap th mnh se biet mnh ro hn,va t o, biet n, knh trong moi ngi chungquanh, ke ca huynh e ong mon cua mnh. Stranh cai trong Tam cua mnh cham dt ay.Nh co giao ly hng dan qua li day cua ch

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    To: Noi can khac niem chi cong. Ngoai hoangbat tranh chi c. T o cong c phat sinh,

    mnh vng tam tien bc tren con ng Giacngo.

    Trong thi gian nay, toi cung thay c motieu khac na. o la dieu dung cua Tam. Nobao trum tat ca, rong rai bao la khong nganme. Toi co lam bai ke:

    em hom qua ngoi nghe hi thLang yen nhn tr lai ben trongBa ngan the gii thong dongong tay nam bac au khong la nha?

    Mnh ng dai bam vu vao can nha nho

    hep cua the gian. Cung ng dai ong bt tammnh, v lam nh the, mnh khong the thayc nhng ieu Vui, ieu ep khac. Cha keen, vn hoa muon mau muon sac cua vu truHoa Nghiem, trong o, nhn that ky, ta ch lamot thanh phan nho ma thoi. Hay m rong

    Tam Thc e on nhan tnh huynh e bao la,e thay van vat ong nhat the va mnh camnhan t do, thanh thi trong tng hi th cuamnh.

    en ay, ban co thac mac: ay loc nc lacai g ma oi vi ngi xuat gia lai quy nh

    vay? oan tren, toi co noi, khi xin tho gii,ngi xuat gia can co mot ay loc nc. Hai bahom trc toi em ra e kiem soat coi cai ayloc nc va cai toa cu cua mnh co con trongtnh trang tot khong. ay la mot trong nhng

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    mon tuy than cua ngi tu hanh o, ban a.Theo nguyen tac, i xa th can no e khi uong

    nc doc ng, ngi xuat gia phai dung vatnay e loc nc, tranh ton hai en nhng loaicon trung trong nc. Thi ai bay gi thco the chung ta khong can en ay loc nc vnc ngot th a co ban trong quan, trong tiem,con nc phong ten cung a c loc roi. Tuy

    vay, cai quy ay la nam trong y ngha baove moi loai phat xuat t tam T Bi cua ngitu hanh. Khi tho nhan ay loc nc, gii t ocbai ke:

    Thien tai l thuy nangHo sanh hanh t cu

    Xuat nhap thng i dungPhng hp Bo tat ao.

    Ngha la, ay la cai ay loc nc, la dung cue bao ho sanh mang, thc hanh long t bi. Ravao, con thng dung e ng hp vi hanh Bo

    tat em tam long thng xot hang ngh en lich cho moi loai. o la mot cach nhac nh chongi tu can thc hanh hanh T Bi trong isong hang ngay cua mnh.

    Tr lai hoan canh sinh hoat chung cua ngixuat gia. Ai cung vay, thi gian au, khoang

    hai nam, th rat sieng nang, cham lo cong viec.Nh o, ma tam hon cua ho lang lai, tm can on. Qua thi gian de thng o, ho batau d chng, d hi. Nao la, phan b, so o,tranh cai vi ngi khac khi thay mnh co cai

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    g o e so sanh. Chang qua, o cung la bannga tam thng cua the gian ma thoi. Ch tiec,

    v tu hoc cha thanh cong nen vong tng cuaho van con sanh khi.

    Bay gi, co gang nh lai, nhac lai va vietlai may ieu nay e xet en noi kho nhoc manhng v Thay a ganh chu cho hoc tro, trongo co Thay toi. Co le, ban se nhac toi: biet cnh vay la qu roi, c yen tam i, thay Vientrng khong trach moc g au ma! Th anhroi, Thay khong trach moc g au, bang chngla tnh ngha thay tro van con trong sang, ama va vao ngay Tet nao Thay cung cho bao l xca. Nhng phan lam e t, ngh en kho nhoc

    cua Thay, a lo lang cho mnh, cho huynh ecua mnh, trai qua bao nhieu nam, th khongkhoi ban than trong da, nc mat chay daixuong ma, ban a.

    Thay toi hn toi ung mi tuoi. Toi vaqua cai tuoi nhoc nhan cua kiep ngi, th Thay

    cung tron hoa giap au tien. Ke nh, mnh cungu co chut tr khon e ngh en n thay, nghaban, nhn sau vao cai le song chet, thc h cuai song. Sao ma truan chuyen, sao ma gia tamqua oi, cho kiep song nhan sinh. Bai th cuaTran T Ngang, cho ta hnh anh nay:

    Tien bat kien co nhanHau bat tri lai giaNiem thien a chi du duoc thng nhien chi le ha

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    (Ai ngi trc a quaAi ngi sau cha ti

    Ngh tri at vo cungMot mnh tuon giong le)

    Vay ma trong canh hon mang cua tri at,quay cuong cua nghiep lc bao i, mnh laic gap Thay e nh n te o. Khong phai

    la ngau nhien au, ban a. Ban a chu thua vacho phep toi tuy nghi tien dung cam xuc vasuy t cua mnh oi vi tieu e nay cha?

    Qua bao nam chu ng gio ma, san go cuathien ng tu vien a bat au h roi. Ai lo tubo, ai lo sa sang? Thay. Mot S chu sot sang

    ra ho cho nc trong, nc mat, vo tnh sieuo may con ca. Ai cau nguyen cho ca cyen long ve coi Phat? Thay. Cong trnh xaydng tu vien con dai, biet bao la tam huyetcua Thay, cong lao cua huynh e c hien radi bong mat cua cay

    canh, qua nhng photng uy nghi gia nuirng Madonna. Thaya mang tren vai,trong long nhng ut, trach nhiem o.

    em nam, gac taylen tran ngh en anngha, tnh thng cuaThay danh cho mnh,toi thay am long va

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    sung sng. Du mnh khong ong gop c gln lao cho Phat Phap nhng cung cha lam g

    ho then, xau xa cho Thay phai ban tam. o lacha muon noi, mnh a co lan c chia se viThay nhng giay phut kho khan hay buon kho.Hom nhan tin S Ong vien tch Viet Namvao nam o, Thay rat buon. Toi a nghe tiengThay sut sui trong phong, ni gan cai may ien

    thoai o, va cam nhan rang, tieng khoc cuaThay cung la noi buon cua mnh.

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    Ban ng ngac nhien khi nghe toi tietlo ieu nay: Toi trom oan, thay toi

    cung co luc chan i! Ban ng voi ket luan(jump to the conclusion) nghe! Nguy hiem lamo, ban i. Mi nghe qua ieu g, cha biet atgiap g ca ma a voi ket luan th rat de amnh en cho sai lam, ho o. Toi co y ngh nhvay la do xet lai chnh ban than toi cung

    co luc chan i! Chan i de s luon, tngnh neu co c chiec gay phu thuy nh trongchuyen co tch nao o giup mnh bien matkhoi the gii nay th biet may. Tam trango en vi toi, cach ay khoang mi, milam nam, khi chanh long ngh en cuoc song

    au thng, gia tam cua coi nhan sinh. Mayman thay, toi a hoc c phng phap bienau thng thanh sc song, nen con song soten hom nay. Va Thay toi con gioi hn toinhieu.

    Nam o, Thay toi noi mau giang ho tam

    thi ong ca Niem Phat ng, len ng vandu khap nc My. Luc o, toi ang trong aihoc, miet mai vi sach v, nen chang biet g.Ch nghe ke lai thoi. Thay cung thay Tr Tue,lam ban ong hanh len chiec xe nho, ta ta

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    i het tieu bang nay en tieu bang khac. Ninao co chua th dng lai, ngh vai hom e dien

    giang Phat phap, sinh hoat vi Phat t, roi laii na. Con ng thien ly dai mot mach tcac chua tan mien ong bac nh Connecticut,

    Virginia cho en chua Vien Giac OklahomaCity, cac vung sn da thuoc tieu bang Utah,cho en thanh pho Phoenix nong chay ngi

    Khoang hn mot nam sau Thay mi quay veben cu San Francisco.Trong chuyen vien du o, co 7 thang, Thay

    dng chan e giup Hoi Phat giao Connecticut.Chung ta hay nghe bac Tam Trinh ghi lai diay: Phat t sinh hoat eu an, hanh phuc

    di s hng dan cua thay Tnh T rat vuitnh. The nhng sau le Vu Lan (Thay cbay thang) v nhu cau Phat s Cali, Thayphai tr ve chua T Quang San Francisso(trch trong Tng Niem Hoa Thng ThchThien Tr, trang 69).

    Ngoai chuyen i xuyen bang lch s ke tren,con co mot lan Thay ve tu vien Tangpulou etai xuat gia theo truyen thong Nguyen thuy.Chac mau noi loan cua tuoi th lai bng lennen Thay mi co the ngh en ieu nay! Thayi lam chu tieu tr lai, ma chang can lam le

    xuong toc lan na! Cau ngai Tangpulou truyengii phap cua he phai Nam tong Mien ien ethc tap trong vong ba thang. Chac Ngai abiet ro than the, s nghiep cua Thay, nen

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    Ngai truyen thang gii Cu tuc, va ac cach choThay trong phong ang hoang. Nhng nhng

    chu ieu khac khong biet nh vay nen oi xvi Thay nh lnh mi. Thay phai chap tac,don dep, quet tc vao buoi sang, va khi ombnh bat i khat thc, Thay cung phai theo saunhng chu ieu v thanh nien, mi xuong toctrc o khoang thang ri! Khi ve lai chua

    T Quang, Thay ke cho chung toi nghe chuyennay, va Thay cam thay rat exciting, khoailam. o la ve phng dien tam ly cua motngi co i song noi tam ci m. Toi nghe noi,on Tr Quang cung thng thch ngoi anh ctng vi may chu ieu. Chi cho vui ma! Vi

    noi tam vng manh, quy Ngai au con vngvao chuyen trc sau ma phan biet tuoi tri vatuoi ha na.

    Rong ruoi tren oan ng dai va trongthi gian lang thang o, toi tin chac Thay aco nhieu suy t, nh hng cho nhng Phat s

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    trc mat va tng lai. Dang dap qui mo cuaTu vien Kim Sn chac a bat au tng hnh

    trong khoang thi gian nay. Tuy c gan guivi Thay nhng muon hieu Thay, mnh cungphai tm hieu mot chut ca tnh cua Thay cungnh hoan canh va a li a gop phan anhhng en. Thay thuoc tuyp ngi hoat ong,co them chut chat van nghe trong huyet quan.

    Ban tnh cua Thay la hoan hy, rong rai, lamluc bat can i ke t luc chon x Quang Trkho can soi a lam ni sinh trng. Co the noi,ng ve mat tam ly va xa hoi, toi chia xe vahoc Thay trong mot vai phng dien: hoancanh ngheo va thai o song buong xa. Trong

    gia nh cua toi, moi ngay khong u mieng an.An xong buoi toi, cha biet ba mai co con ugao e nau khong, th con tranh chap vi thegian lam g cho met sc, hao hi!

    Nhac en chuyen nay, toi cung muon ke choban nghe va luon tien, cung cac huynh e

    cua toi ve cai gu van nghe cua Thay toi.Bay gi, co phong trao nhac rap, nhac rap go. Toi co chu tam lang nghe ma that tnhchang hieu g ca, khong co mot chut cam xuc,thch thu nao, no nothing! Nhng vi mot emkhoang 15, 16 tuoi th thch lam. Luc lac cai

    au, nhe nhang hat theo, oi khi tren tay conthem cai boom box na th thay chang khacg ngai Michael Jackson tren san khau! o lacai th hieu thng thc cua tng the he. Thehe Thay - va the he ong trang la vi toi -

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    cung co cai khac biet nh vay. Y nh moi lan,toi nghe Thay m nhac Ngoc Cam va Nguyen

    Hu Thiet phong ben, th toi cung dng dngchang co cam xuc g. Luc mi vao chua, goutcua toi van con la Thanh Tuyen-Che Linh vanhac cua lnh, noi ve nhng ngi lnh i hanhquan nui rng, xong pha gia lan ten muian hay nhng bai viet e xoa du noi co n

    cua ngi trai the he khoac ao chinh nhan. Vitoi, du la ngi mien Trung, con phai co themmot chut tan co giao duyen vi giong hat MinhCanh, Minh Phung, My Chau na th mi utnh tiet, mui v cua van nghe.

    Cung may la toi khong thay kho chu ve

    ieu o, ngha la cung biet ton trong oi chuts thch cua ngi khac. Nhac Thay thch,Thay c nghe. o la chuyen rieng t cua moingi du la thay tro, cha con, anh em i na,mnh cung nen ton trong nhau. Toi phai ch,tren di 20 nam, mi c thng thc hoa

    trai, chien li pham nay. Khi nghe ban BanTay Mau Nhiem thien ng tu vien KimSn do cac huynh e trnh bay trong mot buoisinh hoat thien tra, toi bong git mnh, camnhan sau xa cai tam long va hanh nguyen cuaThay! Noi thiet cho ban nghe, luc o toi mi co

    mot chut tam phuc, khau phuc qua vai oandi ay:Tay nay thap uoc len ngTay nay a loi ve nguon yeu thng

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    Tay nay dng lai que hng

    Tay nay nam lay cng thng to tien.Dien giai them mot chut cho vui, ban nghe.

    o von la tieng noi gian d trong cuoc songbnh thng nay mang y ngha cua nhng liao ly, li khuyen ham xuc. c Phat a day:Hay t mnh thap uoc len ma i. Bay gi nghe

    Thay keu goi tay nay thap uoc len ng.Hay nhat la ch len ng, ma theo toi hieu,o la tam nguyen cua Thay oi vi tat ca anhem chung toi. o la li keu goi cua c Bon St hn hai ngan nam tram nam trc oi vinhng v Thanh e t, cac v Ty kheo nguyen

    dang hien cuoc song cho hanh nguyen o sanh.Cau th hai la Tay nay a loi ve nguon yeuthng cung co y ngha em ao T Bi en vimoi ngi.

    Tiep theo o la banChiec Ao Thay Trao

    cung mang mot giongxa nhng ro rang laa c viet ra trongva cho hoan canh hientai. T hao la mnhphan nao hieu ro Thay

    v mot phan mnh cocai may man c viThay trong mot thigian dai hn cac huynh

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    e khac, va phan khac toi hieu con ngi cuaThay. Phai chang Thay va mnh t nhieu cung

    chung hoan canh chat vat khi con th, cungmanh at cat ron chon nhau nhan ai nhngthap phan khon kho?

    a viet ve nhac th cung phai noi luon veth, cho u cap. Toi cung khong phuc thThay cho lam, ban a. Mot phan v toi khongbiet lam th, phan khac chac cung v chu quan.Cung may, toi khong dam che bai, phe phan gca. Toi ch am tham thng thc vi tat ca slanh nhat cua mnh. Vui nhat la thi gian lambao Hng ao, Nguon Song. Luc Thay aqua mot bai th e ang bao, toi thng gi

    tam bnh ang tuyet oi khi lam bon phancua mnh. anh may, layout, roi thoi. Khongkhen che, thats it! Vay ma, y th tren cungtham t t, nam nay qua nam khac. Roi enluc toi sc thay th Thay cung khong en oinao! Hay th chac la khong hay bang o Phu,

    Bach C D hay Huyen Khong (on Hoi Chu),Du T Le, nhng bao rang d th cung toicho Thay. Thay la ngi tu, lam th, ch la edien at phan nao noi tam, cam xuc cua mnh.Hieu c nh vay th ta cam thong c lienva thay, t ra, mnh cung co them c mot so

    bai th rat ao v gia cuoc i nay. Mi bancung toi oc bai Kim Sn Coi Tnh di ay:Kim Sn coi tnh trai nguon thNui ngu chung may bien i ch

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    Co thu len ngoi cung que nguyet

    a knh ap gio quet tri m.Bnh minh lo dien chim hat caKhong gian nang am roi Ta baThi gian hen c ve vo truTnh toa bo oan ta vi ta.Canh vang ai nao bao tch lieu

    Trang thanh nha ngoc dang yeu kieuChuong ngan tnh mong dai muon kiepao vang goi tron giot thng yeu.Gac mai tran tam nhe coi longN i vay tra tra cho xongKim Sn coi tnh vui ngay thangT tai an nhien bc ngc dong.

    Ca oan tren, coi nh la bonus, buoc hoa,ban nghe. Toi ch xin chia xe vi ban hai caucuoi cung ma thoi. Hay lam, ban a. Ban maa co lan ve tham tu vien Kim Sn th hieungay, khoi can noi nhieu. Tu vien co canh tr

    yen tnh, mat me, ung la coi tnh. Tang Ni,ai chung cung tu tap, song an vui trong nhngthang ngay trc mat.

    Con cau cuoi la noi en nhng ngi xuatgia, v co ch bc ngc dong, vi mong c sauxa nhat cua Thay. Thay mong tat ca huynh e

    chung toi co the at c tnh trang an nhient tai trong cuoc song cua ngi tu hanh. Khoch khong phai de nhng o mi chnh thc lacu canh cuoi cung ma ngi xuat gia, tu tap

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    nham ti. at cho c tam an nhien gia moitnh huong cua cuoc i e lam rang r tong

    mon, bao n thay to.Thc the, anh em xuat gia chung toi c

    nuoi dng trong tinh than o. Bat au t Song Giac Hai, kien lap ao trang t Quang Tr,cho en bay gi to nh Giac Hai tai VanGia, Khanh Hoa, do s thuc toi, Hoa thngTnh Dieu ke the tru tr. Theo toi c biet,bay gi, ngoi To nh qua ban tay xay dngcua s thuc, a tr thanh chon tong lam epe. Mot so huynh e cua toi a trng thanhva ra lam Phat s quanh vung. Mot so khacc mi sang ong gop Phat s Hoa ky. Cac

    the he ke tiep ang c nuoi dng, e khiln len lai phat nguyen len ng lam viecPhat, an cm chua, em ban tay mau nhiemgiup moi ngi.

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    Nh a noi tren, toi nhan thay mnhkhong co tham quyen e ban luan ve th.

    Nhng co ngi, tng la phap hu, ma cungco ten trong hoi Tao an na, nen chac la uieu kien e nhan xet ve th cua Thay. o lani s Nh Minh. ieu la la toi thay th cua nis Nh Minh rat hay, rat tha thiet, ay nhnghnh anh t bi, cu kho trong ao Phat. Chac

    la But nha lai khong thieng roi! Toi rat thchkhi c Ni s oc cho nghe nhng bai thtrong khi i cu tr ong bao bao lut. ay, miban cung oc bai th Ni S viet tang cho Thaytoi, nha th Sn C, ta e la:

    NGUYEN THEO GNG LANHTr ve lang cu nh ThayRuong ong ti tot vn ay cay xanhTren ng phung s chung sanhThay la gng sang v nhan quen mnhT Quang chieu coi vo minh

    Kim Sn sang toa hanh lanh tri TayViet nam Quang tr que ThayNha trang Giac hai dang Thay nam xaDu cho sm nang chieu maDu cho gian kho Thay khong nan longBo e m giong nay mamTruyen ang chanh phap noi dong Thch CaMai kia trong coi Ta baDau chan hoang phap Thay a chu duThay em anh sang chn nhThay mang hat giong ao t rai gieo

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    Que hng du co kho ngheoCo Thay dan loi nguyen theo gng lanh

    (Long Hng, Quang Tr 1992)

    o, con ngi cua mnh oi khi ay chuquan nh vay, ban a. Mnh phai co chanhniem, gi tnh khach quan, mi co the co cnhng nhan xet ung an ve ngi khac. oi

    vi Thay, toi ch mi e cap ca tnh va aohanh cua mot v Thay ch cha noi en oc tochc, tai xay dng cua mot bac Tang trng.ieu nay xin danh cho dp khac.

    A, ban lai hoc c cai tnh oi hoi t baogi vay? a nghe ve nhac, ve th roi, lai con

    muon biet ve van na. Ve phng dien nay,Thay toi cung co viet va xuat ban vai cuonsach roi, ma trong o cuon Hoa Hieu An Vuihay Quan The Am tap I va II a c inva pho bien rong rai trong quan chung Phatt. Con tai lieu Phat Phap hay Sinh Hoat cuaPhat Giao tai Hoa Ky th rat nhieu, nhat la tailieu danh cho viec tu tap Thien Quan.

    Mnh tm hieu t t nhe. Cuon Hoa HieuAn Vui c viet ra, noi ung hn la s uc ketnhng bai viet ngan cua Thay tren bao Hngao va Nguon Song. Trong o, oi tng ma

    Thay nham ti la i song gia nh. Thay laybut hieu la Kha Hy, tc la co the vui ve, co thetm thay s an lanh trong i song cua mnh.Thay a ra nhng th du ien hnh, nhngchuyen rat thc te co the xay ra trong cuoc

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    song, ngay trc mat cua moi ngi. Vi kinhnghiem thc tap, va Thien va Tnh, Thay

    khuyen moi ngi song trong s tng knh,hoan hy vi nhau.

    Ngoai ra theo toi biet, tap tai lieu ve viecThanh Lap va Sinh Hoat mot Hoi Phat Giaotai Hoa Ky la bo cam nang au tay Thay viete giup cac Chua, cac Hoi mot so y kien canthiet trong viec to chc va ieu hanh tronggiai oan cha co v tru tr. Noi dung tap tailieu a ra mot so van e nh hanh chanh,phap ly va tam ly quan chung ma v Tru Trcan nam vng e tranh nhng kho khan khilam viec Phat. Nhng gi nh nhat la mi ay

    trong khoa An C mot thang tu vien, Thaygiang lien tuc sau bai giang ve e tai nay. Toico duyen len tham tu vien va d buoi giang autien. Ngoi nghe ma nh thay bao nhieu hnhanh xa xa tuan t hien ve trong tam nao. Tnhng luc Thay, mot mnh, lai xe i Sacramento

    e hng dan Phat t tu tap, giup y kien vigiao s ang Thong Tr, bac Cam, anh Chienlap hoi Phat giao Sacto, chua Kim Quang.Cho en nhng luc Thay xuong San Diego, nima toi se en vao thang ti ay, e hng dantu hoc cho Phat t. T o, Hoi Phat giao San

    Diego, chua Van Hanh t t thanh hnh. Quabao nhieu nam tan tuy, het long trong vai trotrng t Nh Lai, Thay giup rat nhieuhoi Phat giao a phng.

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    Cung ngoi di at vi huynh e chungquanh, nhn len toi thay, tren kia, Thay cam

    viet mau ghi xuong bang nhng hieu biet, suyt cua Thay e chia xe, trao truyen cho anhau hoc chung toi. Thay Quang Phc, va minhan trach nhiem tru tr mot ngoi chua tantieu bang North Carolina se lanh hoi themc nhng g cho viec thc hien trong trach

    mi? Thay Linh Nhan, muon hoc tap, trau doithem kien thc chuyen mon e lam Phat s saunay, se on nhan ieu g mi la va hu dungcho d tnh trong tng lai? Hay S co ThanhQuang, va t xa ve tham chon cu, cung muonao luyen, tu dng them kinh nghiem e tiep

    tuc vai tro lanh ao tinh than a phng xa,chac chan se hoc hoi c rat nhieu. Con naola thay Nhuan Hai, thay Quang Bao, QuangKien, chac ai cung co phan ca.

    Tr lai cau chuyen cu th sau mot chuyeni xa nh the, mot chuyen i ma theo toi can

    thiet e Thay th thach ngh lc, trau doi kienvan, ke ca viecren luyen thelc cho viectm mot hngi. Cuoi cung,

    Thay dng bcgiang ho va trve khi iem:San Francisco.

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    Thay a nh c hng i cho mnh va battay lam viec tr lai. Thay giao cho toi lp Phat

    Phap hang tuan vao toi th sau, va Thay danhnhieu th gi i tm at ai e lap tu vien KimSn. en ngay hom nay, thang 8 nam 2004,du viec kien tao tu vien cha hoan thanh vienman nhng, toi tin chac rang Kim Sn, ngonLinh Thu ma Thay a mng tng ra mot lo

    trnh e en c trong chuyen vien hanh maymi nam truc mi thc la niem vui cua Thay,mot niem vui co that.

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    Bay gi Thay ang au? Toi lan tay

    tm v tr phong nh cua tu vien NamHai Quan Am tren tam ban o khong sao ghilai het a the menh mong cua nc My malong bang khuang ngh ve Thay. Ngap trantrong ky c chieu nay la hnh anh so chieu viong lao tha hng, ngot mot i ngi, cheoo a khach sang song. Hay, la s gi lai viay u y ngha, bong dang bac nong phu ngayngay cam cui tren tha ruong sau, mong emlai niem vui cho con cai trong bat cm ay vaomua gat mi.

    Ngay tu vien Lien Tr ra i mien cc

    ong tieu bang Alabama la nhng luc co themviec e Thay phai e mat, lo toan. Cong vieccua nha Phat luc nao cung nh tiep tuc maen, nh may bay nh gio thoi moi ngay vav the ma vai tro phung s cua ngi tang s x ngi a khien Thay toi lay lam niem vuitrong suot mot i hanh hoat.

    Toi cha kp en tu vien Lien Tr e le Phat,tham vieng huynh e ang phu trach Phat s ay, th Thay a gay dng them tu vien NamHai Quan Am mien nam tieu bang Florida.

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    Nh vay, tnh en nay, gia nam 2012, thigian Thay va ung bay mi, trc sau, Thay

    a phat trien moi gieng ao mach t tay sangong, t bac xuong nam : Chua T Quang, (SanFrancisco), Tu vien Kim Sn (Watsonville),chua Thon Yen (Gilroy), Tu vien Lien Tr(Alabama), va Tu vien Nam Hai Quan Am Florida.

    Ngoai ra, Thay cung nhan li co van, giphng v chng minh cho khong t c s Phatgiao t tieu bang Connecticut mien ong Hoaky, tai mien Trung My nh tu vien Phc Minh,chua thay Trung Nghiem, hay ngc len hngtay bac la Seattle, tieu bang Washington.

    ang ke na la nhng ong gop cua Thaytrong sang kien xay dng va phat trien nhngtap the tu hoc quy tu nhng oi tng tre tuoi,hap thu giao duc Tay phng c hng dantu tap theo phng phap mi vi phan thc tapthien quan, thien ca, chon cach song gan gui

    vi thien nhien, trong o tang than Si Nang

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    Nam California, Sinh Thc Virginia cxem la nhng ien hnh cua phng thc tu

    tap mi.Tham thoat a ba mi bay nam ke t ngay

    ri trai t nan Fort Chaffee trong nhiem vuhng dan tinh than cho ngi Phat t va vetiep tuc Phat s tai mien Bac California, Thaylam viec trong hang say, hoan hy, ma thanhqua at c c xem la s nghiep hiem cocua mot cao tang. S viec nao hnh thanh makhong co nguyen nhan lam nen va ong lcthuc ay. Ban a, toi thng nhan xet nh vayke ca khi nhn lai ca nhan mnh. Rieng Thay,c giao duc t luc mi vao Chua lam ieu, va

    c trao cho hoai bao lam mot tang s xngang nh trong kinh day: tac Nh lai s, hanhNh lai s, Thay a thc thi c li Thayday anh em chung toi trong nhng buoi hocPhat phap tai chua: Ngi xuat gia phai layviec hoang phap li sanh lam muc ch cao ca

    cho i mnh. ung nh vay: Hoang phap th

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    Hng, Nguyen Thanh, Dieu T, Nh Nguyenam trach. Co mat trong bc chuyen mnh

    ln manh nay co ca nhng Thay ma luc o conc liet vao hang tang s tre nh cac ThayHanh Tuan, Minh Hoi bay gi eu c lietvao hang giao pham cao cap cua cac Giao hoica roi.

    Mi ay gap lai On Tr Vien trong mot tang

    le mien nam California, On con nh va noi: Luc o, mnh vui nh ngay hoi, T Lc h roici ha ha. Ngi My co noi good old days,va giong ci cua On a thong dch rat chnhxac cau noi o! Rieng toi khi nh ti ay longlai t nhu long, ni nao co hoa hp, ni o co

    an vui, hanh phuc.Nng theo a phat trien o, Thay cung sot

    sang i giang day nhieu ni, m ra nhng lphoc Phat cho ai chung, thanh lap nhieu c sphung t tren nen tang cua ngi i bc au.Nhan ay, toi muon cung cac ban ghi lai sinh

    hoat cua mot lp Phat Phap hang tuan vao toith sau chua T Quang e ban thay y hnghoang phap li sanh va kha nang to chc, ieuhanh cua Thay, v tang s gi trong trach baygi. Ngoai ra, toi cung muon ghi lai vi longbiet n sau xa cua mot ngi hau hoc oi vi

    moi giup cua quy Bac chua T Quang. Hnhanh au tien hien ra trong tam tr la bac MaiThanh Tuyen, hoi trng ng thi. Chungta a trai qua nhieu hoan canh thuan nghch

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    khac nhau tai cac ngoi chua do Hoi ieu hanh.Nhng, ay, Thay Tru tr co c o, co kha

    nang ieu hanh Phat s, sinh hoat trong chua,con quy Bac th vi ao tam thuan thanh, sansang hp tac cho li ao, vui i, th khongco chuyen g ang tiec xay ra ca. Ke o, la bacThien Knh, cu Tam Huy, cu c Hanh, nhngngi a khuat bong t lau, hay van con ong

    gop Phat s la anh Quang Tue (Huynh KhacMinh), anh ch Le Thc Lan-Thuyen V, eu lanhng ao hu rat than thng cua Chua matoi a nhan c s bao boc, thng men.

    Bi the, cac lp Phat phap tai chua dientien that tuyet vi. Thay va quy Thay ang lu

    tru trong chua, nh on Quang Nghiem, thayThien Tng, vi so von kinh nghiem t Phathoc vien Hue Nghiem cung nh cac chua Phoa (a Nang), Bao Quoc (Hue) eu tr thanhnhng giang s trong lp. Mai ti khi Thayhang mau giang ho len ng qua may chuc

    tieu bang, Thay mi giao lai viec to chc lpcho toi. Sau khoang ba nam, cung nhau theo hoc

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    An Vui, ch dan va gi y mot so sinh hoattam linh can thiet lay t kinh nghiem cua mot

    vai gia nh, nh co tu hoc Phat phap ma vtqua c nhng kho khan, gi vng mai amgia nh.

    Cong tac hoang phap cua Thay khong thuhep trong ai chung Phat t ma con hng ennhng muc tieu thiet thc vi i song gii

    xuat gia va viec ao tao tang tai. Hang namTu vien Kim Sn to chc gay quy qua nhngbuoi cm chay e giup phng tien cho motso tang ni ang theo hoc cac ai hoc tai My,

    An o, ai loan.Con tiep tuc ke le na th en bao gi chac

    lau lam, mi noi het c, ban a. Thi gianth sap en ngay le Khanh Tho roi, va nha inang ch ban thao, nen toi ch xin ghi lai motieu kha ac biet cua Thay. ac biet vtoi KHONG the noi theo va toi khong the hieuc y ngha cua viec nay neu khong xem ay

    la viec Thay a hoan thanh tuyet vi viec lamcua mnh bang cach thng xuyen on tap kinhnghiem cua chnh mnh. o la sau khi say savi viec giang Phat phap tren ai truyen hnhhay phat thanh, bai giang c thay QuangTrc ghi am, Thay ve phong, be quan ong

    ca nam nghe lai, t au en cuoi. Toi oan,chac KHONG sot cau nao va mi lan la motchuc, viec eu dien ra nh the! Thay to ra rathai long vi cong viec hoang phap tren. ahn hai mi nam roi, cong viec o van tiep

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    tuc eu an moi tuan, hnh nh, bay gi alen en hai, ba buoi mot tuan. Roi viec sang

    bang dia cac e tai noi chuyen ve Phat phap,hang ngan, co the hn na, phan phat khapni trong cac dp le. Toi het sc kham phuc,khong phai ch rieng Thay, ma con vi cacthay Quang Trc, Quang Kien, Quang MinhHoang, va nhng ngi cong tac vi Thay na.

    Toi noi nho ban nghe, toi cha BAO GInghe mot bai giang nao cua Thay qua dang nay.Nhng toi TON TRONG s thch cua Thay, quahai lan rut ta kinh nghiem:

    1. Lan o, Thay mi bat au mot chngtrnh tren truyen hnh, chac la phan khi lam.ung vao thi iem toi len tu vien Kim Sn,Thay keu toi vao phong. Thay m may va baotoi xem chng trnh mi ra lo cua Thay. Toingoi trc gian may, mat nhn vao man anh,long c ngh: chac co D AN g ac biet hayay. Nhng, hi i, khong phai la ieu toi

    trong i, ma ch la bai giang hang tuan Thaymi hoan tat sang nay thoi! Chng trnh ngangon, chng tren di 30 phut, vay ma Thay ehet tam t, nghe lui nghe ti, en khi nao valong th mi thoi!

    2. Co lan, toi i giang mot tieu bang xa,gap mot cu ba ke chuyen nghe bai giang cuaThay. Cu ba cung rat say sa, thch thu, va vocung tran trong bai giang Phat phap. Cu connh ca nhng v du Thay a ra. Roi nhieu

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    ngi khac con chobiet, nh chng

    trnh Phat phapo ma gia nh hohieu them ve aoPhat, biet an chay,gi gn li an tiengnoi vi nhau. Th

    ra, viec lam thietthc cua Thay cungmang lai rat nhieuli ch cho nhieungi ma trc aytoi cha ngh ti.

    Khi c biet toi la e t cua Thay, ho noi,nh toi chuyen li cam n en Thay khi codp. Toi tham cam phuc trong long.

    Hom nay, nhan ngay Khanh Tho bay mituoi cua Thay, toi kiem nghiem lai e thaycong trnh hoang phap hn ba mi nam qua

    cua Thay ni x ngi that rat ln lao va ayy ngha. Rieng toi, du thi gian co qua i, hoancanh trong i song moi ngay moi khac, longton knh va biet n giao dng cua Thay oivi mnh luon rang r trong long. Vi toi, nThay, Ngha Ban, Tnh ong Mon, luon luon,

    la mot gia tai tinh than va tnh cam vo cungquy bau ma toi co gang bao ve, gn gi chomnh, kiep nay va mai mai ve sau.

    Hayward, ngay 24 thang 8 nam 2012.

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    Tieu Sai S VIEN GIAC, Khai Sn Tonh Giac Hai,Van Gia, Khanh Hoa do HT Thch Tnh T, Vien trng Tuvien Kim Sn bien soan.

    ai s phap danh Tam Tr, hieu Chieu Nhien, t VienGiac, thedanh laTran ai Quang. ai s thuoc i th

    43, dong Lam Te, phap phai Lieu Quan. ai s sinh nam1911, Giap Ty, tai lang Dng No, huyen PhuVang, tnhTha Thien Hue. Than phu ai s lacu Tran ai Dat,phap danh Tam Ngovathan mau lacu baNguyen ThMu, phap danh Tam My. Song than cua ai s labac hientai, c hanh, tham tn Tam Bao vaanh hng lenghi

    Nho giao.ai s nhtha hng an c, phuc am sau day cua

    ong ba, dong ho vasong than nen tam tr sang r, thongtuevt bac, hoc au nho, t duy, t tng conhieusang tao. Thuthieu thi, ai s athch thu, say me

    kien thc khoa hoc vatrao lu cach menh, tien hoa, tantao cua cac xahoi Tay phng. Bang vao kien thc rongmo, maai s kham phara c tinh ba, van minhtam linh cua Phat Phap. ocung labc ngoac, nguyen

    phu ban

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    nhan thay oi toan dien cuoc i cua ai s. Ych xuat giatu Phat cua ai s phat khi cc manh hoi mi 17 tuoi.Song phai i en 10 nam sau, ai s mi hoan thanh ynguyen. V phu than ai s bbao benh qua i, nen Ngaiphai phung menh mau than i lam trng ga Xe la, lanhlng phu me nuoi dng hai em trai vaba em gai i hoc.

    en nam inh Su (1937), ai s va 27 tuoi, mau

    than cung theo than phu man phan vacac em alnkhon, thanh at begia thatNgai mang ych xuat tran tlau, en cau tho phap xuat gia vi ToBch Khong tai chuaBao Quoc, Hue.

    Nam Tan T (1941), sau bon nam hanh ieu, chap

    tac valam quen vi nep song thien gia, Ngai achng toc s chon la ung an cho ban than tren con ngcau ao vaai s c Bon s cho tho Sa Di gii.

    Nam Mau Ty(1948), trong ai gii an tai chua BaoQuoc do Hoathng Thch Tnh Khiet lam an au Hoathng, ai s c tho TyKheo vaBotat gii.

    Sau khi man khoa tai Phat hoc ng Bao Quoc, cac vong mon len ng i hoang hoa khap ni theo yeu cauPhat s cua tng a phng. Rieng ai s xin lai phatnguyen nhap that ba nam, hau cung cothem ao lc vacong hanh trc khi ra phung hanh vai trohoang phap

    cua Giao hoi.Nam Giap Ngo (1954), Giao hoi Tang giaTrung Viet e

    cai s am ng chc vu Giam oc Phat hoc ng

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    Khanh Hoa vacung trong thi gian nay, Ngai c Hoathng Phc HuevaBon s laNgai Bch Khong giaotrach nhiem Tru tr chua Hai c tai Nha Trang.

    Nam 1956, Ngai acung ch Ton c trong Giao Hoi,bien chua Hai c thanh Phat hoc vien Trung Phan, niong vai troquan trong trong viec ao tao Tang tai chocong tac chan hng Phat giao nc nha.

    Tiep theo bc chuyen quan trong ay, Ngai lai theoyeu cau Phat s i hoang hoa ni vung cao nguyen Trungphan. Ni nay, Ngai athanh lap vaieu hanh trng BoeTueQuang, aLat, cung vi thien s Thch Nhat Hanh.

    t lau sau, ai s lai tiep tuc lap trng Phat hoc cho

    Tang Ni sinh tai Tonh Linh Sn tai quan Van Ninh, tnhKhanh Hoa. Gia hai thi gian van hanh Phat s hu cho, ai s gap C sNh Nhien ang tu hanh ni mot amtranh nho. ai s c c sgii thieu cac a danh amban sac Phat giao nh lang Xuan T, nui Ong S, nui Phoavatan mat chng kien canh non nc hu tnh, xomthon yen a, sn bao thuy boc. ai s quyet nh chon ninay lam ai tong lam vakhai sn lap chua Giac Hai edng bc tnh tu vatiep Tang ochung.

    Nam Bnh Than (1956), chua Giac Hai athc strnen ni tu hoc vaan c kiet ha thng xuyen cua ch

    Tang trong tnh huyen. Chua Giac Hai khong bao lau atrthanh mot gialam thang tch cua Giao Hoi vatrnenmot tu vien uy nghiem, ung nh tam nguyen ai s hangom ap.

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    Nam QuyMao (1963) sau phap nan, Giao hoi Phatgiao Viet nam Thong nhat c thanh lap. ai s ctien cgichc Th KyTong vu Hoang Phap trc thuocVien Hoa ao tai thuoSai Gon. ong thi ai s cungthng vegiang day tai Phat hoc vien Hai c Trung phanvaNi vien Dieu Quang Nha Trang.

    Miet mai vi nhiem vu Phat giao trong ai, ai s van

    khong quen t ren luyen than tam theo khuon mau thiengia vadubat cgiai oan, hoan canh nao vaau,cac etcua Ngai cung luon hoc c nhng phong cachrieng biet, hoa nhakhiem ton vagiau long thng yeu ochung, li ch nhieu ngi.

    Thi gian ketiep olaNgai chuyen tam dch kinh,trc tac vanhiep hoa ochung.Ves nghiep van chng, Ngai adch, trc tac va

    axuat ban:- TBi ao Trang Sam Phap (Lng Hoang Sam)

    tron bo10 quyen.

    - ai tha Kim Cang kinh luan.- Dch valuan giai pham kinh PhoMon.- Kinh Bao Tch, vatrc tac gom co:1. Quan het tng.

    2. Tm hieu Quan theAm Botat.3. Lch sphong canh chua Giac Hai.

    4. Khuyen niem Phat.5. Hanh trang cua Thien s vaThi nhan.

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    Vemat giao dng Tang Ni, ai s rat tch cc vanhiettnh. ai s coday cac etxuat gia vi nhng li tamhuyet:

    Mot ngi tu duxa thay to, song van cogii luat, cophng phap thien tnh soi dan, lam thay. Va, yeu chmoti tu hanh laphai giac ngochan tam, thoat ly sinh t. Vaitrohanh ao lalay viec nuoi dng gii xuat gia, lay tam

    tbi, tr tuelam s nghiep can ban cua mot i tu hanh.olali day quyhn bat cmot thg tran quytren thegian nay. ocung lali di giao cua ai S oi vi mon o,cac gii xuat gia khap moi ni vamoi thi ai. ai sbiet trc s ra i cua mnh vaan nhien thtch vao sangngay 14 thang 7 nam Bnh Thn (1976) tai tonh GiacHai, Khanh Hoa. Tho 65 tuoi vi 35 ha lap.

    Nguyen ve Cc lac t lauRoi ta tr lai kiep sau o iHoa than co mat khap niChuyen luan dieu phap di tri tram luan.

    olabut tch, laai hanh, ai nguyen cua ai s VienGiac.

    Moi lan chiem nghiem li thayTnh thng co mat ngap ay tim conMoi lan trang sang au non

    Thoang nghe trong gio vo tron phap than.Nam mot Lam Techanh tong, tthap tam the, khai

    sn Giac Hai t, t Vien Giac, hieu Chieu Nhien giac linhai s./-

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    Hayward, December 1, 2001Dear Thay,

    All these years when I was with you or when I wasfar away from you, I knew you always cared aboutme, paid attention and followed up on my work.

    I am very touched by your care and I know thatliving far from you is a misfortune for me.

    Today, the first day of the New Year, the year of theHorse, I would like to write this letter to express mygratitude to you. I hope that it will not offend youbecause of your humbleness. Please forgive me if I

    do.Even with limited words, I sincerely would like toshare what I think about you. I think you are agrand teacher. I respect and honor you for the restof my life for your generosity and your grand heart.

    With my deepest sincere gratitude of your teaching, I

    pray to the Avalokiteshvara Compassion Bodhisattvato grant you great health, so you can be our coolshadow to protect me, my spiritual brothers, sistersand children. I also pray that the construction ofKim Son Monastery is completed as you wish.

    Namo Witness Maha Bodhisattva.

    Respectfully

    Thich Tu Luc

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    Immet my teacher in May 1975 at Fort Chaffee,Arkansas.I was 20 years old then. I arrived in the US without

    any planning, it was just a fluke. In another word, thefact that I landed in this far away and strange land

    and later adopted it as my second country was a

    complete accident. I never dreamed of it nor planned

    for it. Isnt that my karma? Before this event; at times,

    I experienced moments of hardship, difficulty, and

    poverty and nothing but fear in my head. However, onlyin five days I crossed the grand ocean and went around

    half circle of the earth to reside in this country. Was

    that my karma? Was that my destination from previous

    lives? Please help me answer these difficult questions.

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    I know that my life is insignificant; it is just like a

    little piece of sand in the desert. Please dont laugh

    at me when you read about these little stories.However, to pay tribute to my teachers and friends

    in commemorating the days we spent at the Refugee

    camp, I decided to write these little stories. Hope you

    understand and enjoy reading my life story, like you

    visit Disneyland in Southern California or the Japanese

    garden in Hayward.

    THE BEGINNING OF MY REFUGE IN THIS NEW LAND

    One day in the middle of the night, I woke up

    staring at the white painted wall and then realized that

    I was at a Refugee camp in the US. It was no longer

    the familiar places of barb wire, tents and streets of awar torn country. I then remembered the sad and tragic

    ending following by a trip full of famine, difficulties and

    with no destination; I knew my life would be totally

    different from now on. Tears ran down my cheeks when

    I thought of my misfortunate destiny in this far away

    land. I cried until I could not cry anymore. I was sohurt thinking of my parents, my family who are now in

    the other side of the ocean and out of my reach. I was

    too young to feel hatred and anger; however I was so

    depressed because I felt as if someone took away what

    I wanted so much in my life. However, I cried only that

    one time. Next morning I started my refugee life andnever cried again.

    There were four Refugee Camps in the US at that

    time. Fort Chaffee was at the Central of the US and it

    was a military camp. This camp was quite nice; it had

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    a dining hall, a recreation room and a place for our

    spiritual practice which was called the Buddhist Center.

    One day I saw an advertisement looking for

    volunteers to sweep and clean the Buddhist Center

    (you can call the pagoda.) While in Vietnam, I was

    a member of the Buddhist Youth; at the camp I had

    nothing to do, so I volunteered to clean the pagoda.

    That was the time and place that I first met my teacher.

    Do you know that at that time I was much stronger

    than now? I just spent two years in the jungle of Long

    Mountain. My muscles were firm and I weighed 120

    lbs, not like now only 100 lbs. I offered 20 lbs to the

    three Jewels (The Buddha, the Dharma and the Sangha)

    after being an abbot and twice accepting monastic

    students.

    I remembered clearly that when I presented myself

    to accept my tasks. Thay was very young; he was onlyabout 30 years old then. He just arrived 6 months

    before as an exchange student so he still looked very

    Vietnamese. He wore a pair of white pants and a

    Buddhist shirt. He looked very much as other monks

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    that I used to see in my village. This figure gave me

    comfort. I liked him right away. With his non-pure

    Quang Tris accents, because he was far from homefor a while, Thay gave directions to two lay Buddhist

    ladies and me to clean up the pagoda. He asked us

    few questions and left I had no idea where he went.

    I worked hard, sweat poured out. After a while, I got

    hungry so I went to the dining hall to get some food

    and returned to finish my work. Do you know that evenI was only 20 years old and came from a poor family

    but I never had done hard work before? I was surprised

    that I could do this hard work so well this time. I hope

    I impressed you...

    Few days later, this place became a Meditation

    Hall for the Vietnamese Refugees. I hope the pictureshown below that I saved for 27 years gave you an

    idea of what this place looked like. The experienced

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    Vietnamese painter Vu Tien Thuy painted the picture

    of the Buddha for the shrine. At the center of the

    Meditation Hall, we had a small set of the woodenand brass bells, the combined picture of Amitabha

    Buddha, Avalokiteshvara Bodhisattva and The Chi

    (English name???) Bodhisattva that Thay brought with

    him from Vietnam.

    We started our praying ceremonies every night at 6

    pm. I do not remember the source of incense, candlesand sutras; my guess is that those came from the

    Buddhist practitioners who offered them to the pagoda.

    Most refugees did not speak English well so they could

    not work at places like the Red Cross and the Catholic

    Charities; therefore they went to the pagoda to pray

    asking for some peace of mind and consolation. Thosepraying and chanting sessions were very warm and

    sincere. Before I knew it, I became the bell inviter during

    the chanting sessions. Mr. Nguyen Nhon (Tran Van Lap)

    who was a Buddhist veteran became the inviter of the

    wooden bell. I almost forgot to tell you that right after

    finish cleaning up the place, I moved into the pagodato be a novice (with hair.) I became the typist, using

    only two fingers, for Thay. I typed the names of folks

    who wanted to pray for safety. Recently Mr. Quang De

    teased me of my two finger typing method. It was kind

    of funny.

    During this time, my relationship with Thay wasnot bonded yet. I did not know much about him, and

    he did not know anything about my family situation.

    However, I think he trusted me because one time he

    asked me to shave his head.

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    I was clumsy but I could not get out of it. Thay

    asked me to do the job so I had to. Also I used to be

    in the army and practiced under the spirit of do first,ask for forgiveness later. Anyway, there is nothing to

    be forgiven. Thay was considerate, he chose the quiet

    time in the middle of the afternoon and we went into

    the public bathroom. Thay gave me a raiser and told

    me to shave his head from front to back. I never used a

    raiser before so I was really scared of cutting his head.However, I shaved his head following his hand as he

    pointed to various areas of his head. When the shaving

    was done, Thay told me to leave so he could take a

    bath. I wondered if he knew that I was so relieved as if

    I escaped a bad accident.

    There were only a few months in the refugee camp,but Thay had built wonderful close relationships with

    many Buddhist practitioners who later supported him

    when they left camp. I think because Thay was energetic,

    young, and experienced as a Buddhist teacher.

    My temporary life at the refugee camp went by

    quite smoothly. Besides the two regular daily prayingsessions, my duties included being a secretary and a

    food deliverer for the monks. Beyond this, I did not

    know anything else. I did not know what I wanted

    to do. I heard people saying that to leave the camp

    and reside somewhere permanently, one will need

    to have a sponsor. I knew only two things about theUnited States: the picture of an Orange and the word

    California. I saw these in the English for Today book

    while I was in high school. The following story changed

    my life totally.

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    As a secretary, my job was to write down the names

    of the Buddhist practitioners who wanted to pray for

    safety or to pray for their relatives who passed away.One day, a middle-age couple, came and asked to pray

    for their son who died near Guam. Later I called them

    Uncle and Aunt Chanh. Losing a child was no doubt

    painful; the pain was tenfold for them because he was

    their only son. Out of naivety, I thought to myself, I

    wished if I could have died in place of their son to savethem from their suffering. I was only by myself; no one

    would have missed me.

    After the memorial service for Uncle and Aunt

    Chanhs son, Thay said a little bit about their situation,

    and asked if anyone wanted to say anything. For some

    reason, I dared to share my thoughts. I no longer canremember what I said, but I said without stopping.

    Everyone was touched, especially Uncle and Aunt

    Chanh, they cried. I cried with them. I felt real sad

    though I did not know anything about the law of

    impermanence. Who would not suffer if their only son

    died after all hardship to enter a free land? Apparentlyhe got a cut from a coral while swimming in the ocean,

    the cut became infected and he died. I really felt their

    suffering. They were touched by my care and our

    relationship grew. When they received permission to

    migrate to France, they wanted to adopt me as their

    son to go to France with them.I was surprised. After a couple of days, I told Thay

    about this. Thay did not comment directly. However,

    through the discussion, I felt that Thay cared about

    me. He also told me that after leaving the camp, he

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    planned to go to Los Angeles and then move to San

    Francisco to reside and continue his education. I shared

    with him some of my thoughts, and mainly that I wouldlike to live a monastic life. Thay and I decided that we

    will live together in San Francisco. On December 20,

    1975, Mr. Hai Nghien and I left Fort Chaffee Refugee

    camp, five days before Thay. The first US governments

    settlement plan was completed on Christmas day that

    year. Especially on that day, in San Francisco I saw alight snow fall. It was so beautiful!

    SETTLEMENT IN SAN FRANCISCO

    In about two weeks, Thay arrived in San Francisco

    and stayed with us for a couple of days at 1880 Fulton,

    corner of Masonic. About a week later, we moved to an

    apartment on Hayes street, near a Japanese pagoda.

    We settled in here pretty well.

    We started our education. Thay went to school to

    study English. I went to John Adams Adult School to

    study English. I had my routine, every day before going

    to school, I did my job of sutra publishing by putting a

    blank cassette tape and a sutra cassette in the copying

    machine, pushed a button for the recording. In the

    afternoon, when returned, I turned over the cassette

    tapes and pushed the recording button again. Now

    days when I saw a copying machine that can copy 6

    CDs at a time. I thought of the poor old days. So pity...

    Our beginning days together were very simple. Thay

    focused on his education and sharing of the Buddhist

    Dharma. My main task was to study English. I also like

    to read, so every week I went to UC Berkeley library to

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    borrow some Vietnamese books and read them when I

    had time. I fondly remember this period of time living

    with Thay.

    Even though I had the idea of becoming a monk

    since I was at camp, I had no idea how this would

    be like. How difficult would it be? What kind of road

    blocks would I have to pass? I just knew that I liked the

    spiritual and simple monastic life style. Now, I will tell

    you about the preparation process for me to becominga monk. The first thing Thay taught me was how to

    chant. I still kept the piece of paper that Thay wrote

    how to use the wooden and brass bells. We also had

    Appreciation Ceremonies on the first and middle of

    every month. It took me a while to appreciate Thays

    teaching; at first I felt awkward learning with Thay andfelt that Thays teaching was such an old style. Thay

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    I would like to tell you another nave story. I think

    you would laugh when you read this. One day Thay

    took me to UC San Francisco on Parnassus Street toapply for me to study medicine


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