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Tbilisi 2018

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Salva berianiZe

mariam mexriSvili

qristine paxomova

gamocemis redaqtori

marine markozaSvili

teqnikuri redaqtori

aleqsandre kuzanaSvili

qalaq Tbilisis municipalitetis meria

ISBN 978-9941-9543-0-6

© debiuti. Tbilisi 2018

gamomcemloba

`sveti +~giorgi kobiaSvili, `Ramis qalaqi~, tilo,Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia

4 debiuti 5poezia

tranzistori

didi babua(iseTi didi, iseTi Zveli, rogorc markesis didi deda an famuqis dideda `mdumar saxlidan~)did taxtze wevs,gulze tranzistoriT...tranzistori virusiviT avrcelebs xmebs, ambebs, faqtebs...xandaxan musikac wveTavs...yvelaferi didia:taxtic, babuac, tranzistoric, ambebic (musika _ yvelaferze didi)...mxolod didi babuas gulze acocebuli bavSvia namceca...babuas guliscema tranzistoris xrialSi ar ismis

giorgi esebua

ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti

da bavSvs eSinia didi samyaros didi ambebis, didi xmauris...babua wamiT wydeba did ambebs da efereba (wamiT xmauri wydeba da ifareba)...babuas cxovrebis mTavari ambavi _ kriala bavSvi uecrad xels stacebs tranzistors, Zirs daanarcxebs...didi xmauris samyaro marcxdeba...tranzistori imsxvreva...xmebi mainc aRwevs, magram _ ukve daxSuli, ukve _ Soridan, ukve _ SiSiniT(mere _ aRarc eg)... babuas naRvlianad eRimeba _ ToTom gaacura...didi xmauris samyaro gacurda da darCa saxli...did babuas da pawia SvilTaSvils erTmaneTis guliscema esmiT...simyudrovea...yavarze _ musika wvimis...

werilidan

...sad iyuJebi Cems did, TeTr saxlSi,romelic dawves?!(mec, masTan erTad _ dabadebamde)...

6 debiuti 7poezia

nabijebis Cqami maxsovs safexurebze _ monayolidan...sizmris sarkmlidan SemoWrili cxeli sxivebi...rbili logini, albaT, gCuqnis saCemo sizmrebs...ra gesizmreba Cems uCemo saZinebelSi?!Sen CemiT cxovrob, Cem magivrad, uCemo saxlSi...Seni da Cemi dis sarkeSi gailandeba,albaT, da, iqneb, dRiurebSic iwerdes leqsebsda cremlebiviT ubrwyinavdes dedaCemis lurji sayure...ezodan, albaT, yvela Citi gadaixvewa,damwvar xeebiT gawvalebuli...ar iparebi RamRamobiT Ria sarkmlidan Ria zRvisaken?!gyofnis haeri?!

iSxaniCems moZRvars

iSxnis gumbaTi _ Caqceuli... xavsgadavlili...me ar vicodi, ra unda megrZno _is Cemi iyo da aRarc iyo da mainc iyo...xavsi icavda _ daujdomeli, Semdgari qvaze...qvad iqca gulic... mere _ daimsxvra...mzis sxivebi eSvebodnen sakurTxevelSi,nafreskalebze,da bevri, bevri TeTri mtredi...saydris dardian simyudroves, gumbaTis Rrma lurjs,cis silurjes nagumbaTarSira aamRvrevda?!

aqtiori

fergadasuli, Rvinisferi Zveli fardebis Cumi Serxeva arSemdgari aplodismenti...da msaxiobic arSemdgari,CaCerebuli acvenil parkets,

8 debiuti 9poezia

teqsts daviwyebuls moacodvilebs...daRlili scena fiandazad gaefineba, susti WraWuniT gamoajavrebs, gaaRimebs, guls moufonebskidev erT hamlets...sul igivea...igaviviT...sul igivea...`icvleba mxolod anturaJi, qargebi Zleben~... wriala wlebi...ai, dabrunda...fergadasuli, Rvinisferi, Zveli fardebi Cumi SerxeviT esalmebian...acvenil parkets isev Zveli anaTebs rampa,mzesaviT Zveli...civi, mwvelia daRlil scenis da msaxiobis Zveli romani...sul igivea...igaviviT...sul igivea...

`ucnobis~ Semdeg vaxtang javaxaZes

arasdros yofila ucxo ase saintereso _javaxaZis wignSi cxovrobs, bindisas seirnobs xolme mTvaresTan xelkaviT

da, ras uyveba, mxolod man da mTvarem ician...wignSi Zlieri qaria _ furcel-furcel...folorc-folorc...foTol-foTol...rogor gaaTbobda axali palto...Zveli acvia...sul Sorsaa da fers ver gaarCev _dramatulad Savi?bayayebiT savse Waobis?samefo lurji (rogorc, albaT, dedamisis Tvalebi)?!qudi (odnav acdenili nakerebiT) cilindrs hgavs, magram cilindri araa,rogorc Tavad hgavs kacs, magram angelozia(rac yvelam icis, magram aravin imCnevs)...Soridanac Cans... Soridan _ ufroc...qari Zlierdeba,Zveli, sada, jer isev eleganturi paltos kalTas aufrialebs _sarCuli, Turme, daZenZilia,rogorc, albaT, misi guli _ amdeni dardiT ganaZoZebuli...`tavernebis ndomani~ niRabia.paltos tavernaSic ar ixdis, Tumca aq cxela...aryis oxSivarSi Rvinos Camoisxams da purs Caiwobs...RvinoSi cremli CaewveTeba (yvela xedavs, magram aravin imCnevs)... agrildeba tavernaSi...gayuCdebian...

10 debiuti 11poezia

gareT _ qaric...paltos feri samefo lurjia, rogorc dedamisis Tvalebi...

RvinobisTve

RvinobisTvis pirvel susxSi vayenebT Rvinos.yurZnis tirilia, cremlia, tkivilia, sisxlia es wveni _saidumlo (garda)cvalebis(garda cvalebis, ucvaleblobis saidumloc _`iyo~... `iqneba~) _yurZnis sikvdili Sobaa Rvinis...vwuravT... dRe iwureba... guli mewureba _ mama mxrebSia awuruli RvinobisTvis susxSi...sisxliviT moJonavs Rvinis wveTida frenas iwyebs...iarad maCndeba Sxefixelisgulze...gulzec _iara _ es pirveli RvinobisTvea babuas mere...ubabuaod dayenebuli pirveli Rvino...

giorgi caciaSvili

saqarTvelos daviT aRmaSeneblis saxelobis erovnuli Tavdacvis akademia

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datotil mtevnebs ugemuri elferi dahkravs,

gemo ar uCanT, ayvavebul mindvris yvavilebs.

Semodgomaa maisis da ivnisis nacvlad,

da qari arCevs Rrublis nacvlad wvimis amindebs.

arigebs xurdas gadaRlili quCis Raribi,

sofeli bavSvebs amouvlebs moxuc CurCxelas,

qari aRvivebs uSedegod anTebul sanTlebs,

ase grZeldeba gulis cema gauCereblad.

Semyures sxvazed, fiqri miaqvT iRblian fatebs,

bavSvebis TiTebs, natitineb aTasgvar ambebs,

saRamos zRvaze, aivanze, mowmendil caze,

maklixar gulSi, maklixar sulSi, maklixar tanze...

12 debiuti 13poezia

varskvlavTa Suqis, gaqrobis simartivemde,

amouwurav meyvarebi mzis am maragis,

da sxva survili ar arsebobs darCenil meSi,

icxovre CemSi, sulis nacvlad aw da maradis...

* * *esTetikuri moralis aporia,

marabus lemuris Tvalebze abodebs.

fridrixis brZolaSi napovni apaTia:

dediko bavSvebis akvanTan abolebs.

entelexia mes iklavs sakuTars,

brZolaSi maxinj suls irCeven bavSvebi.

satanas aseTi wyevlac ki ar uTqvams,

TviTon avuwyeT scena da taSebi.

qalwulma wyarosTan Camuxla duenia,

biWebi Wamen da glejen akordebs,

musikis mosmena fsiqikis duelia,

melanqonias riTmebs rom ayolebs.

oTkuTxeds bermundi moergo beWedad,

maT daTmes urCi da ucnobi statusi,

adamianebs ra gindaT genderad?

vin moviwvio lile Tu strausi?!

ramdeni, ramdeni momravlda avguri,

qalaqSi uCemod da veRar gasula.

Tavze dagvecema yoveli aguri,

amdeni SenebiT wlebi rom gasula.

qarTuli miwaze ra darCa miTxariT?

qorwilSi mefes rom urvaTi auwyes,

is siyvaruliT Tu dabrmavdeba,

jariskacs brZolaSi frontze vin gauZRves?!

zeca da naTeli sibnelem moicva,

codvebi fluidebs qolgebad miedo,

nervebi fiqrebis kidesTan tirian,

tirsaRa gvaklia, cirki varT ieso.

me male momiwevs sikvdilTan randevu,

male mestumreba tyvia an katana,

yovelTvis miyvarda miwac da maisic,

ubralod Znelia amdenis atana...

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hei, Tqven bnelno da usinaTlo sulianebo,momdgarno Cemi qveynis msubuq sazRvrebTan,hei, Tqven bilwi politikiT gasuqebulno, zurgze momjdarno sadgisebiT goliaTebTan,

14 debiuti 15poezia

SemoikribeT rom wamarTvaT mcire walkoti,me ki patara, sakuTari mSvildis anabar,romeli erTi SegaCeroT TeTri isrebiT,romeli erTi moiqceviT Rirs an Tanabrad?am gaxeuli guadruciT vnebianebo,gamoZaxiliT da TvalebSi vercxlis ferebiT, icodeT, veras ver damaklebT Tavis qalebo,verc SebralebiT, verc cemiT da verc moferebiT..hei, Tqven, codvis gerbiano barbarosebo,TeTri isrebi ar meleva sinaTlis fonze,RvTiuri niWis damxobis kalatozebo, avgarozebo,fetiSebiT anTebul qonze. momTabareno, mkvlelno Cemi sulis kulturis,libidos xamo, uSiSaro meamitebo,me siyvaruliT mimavali siyvarulisken,miyvardes mteri Tu moyvasi ver gavimeto. sad daikarge, Cemo imedo?!gabede Cemi moZraobis mimarTuleba, Tu es crurwmena marTalia ar daibedo,am Cemi abjris gaxurebis gasagrileblad. gasagiJeblad gamoqvabuls vin amoavsebs?ferTa kontrasti aferadebs vnebaTa Relvas, inaTebs CemSic rogorc mcvelis definicia, Caaqrobs Svildi, Tanac mSvidi, am qars da elvas.

daCi beriZe

saqarTvelos daviT aRmaSeneblis saxelobis erovnuli Tavdacvis akademia

* * *Zvirfaso, vici Znelia dacda,

vici lodini amZimebs wuTebs

da yovel jerze sicivis gancda,

roca yurmilis dakidva miwevs.

TiTebze viTvli gawelil dReebs,

kvirebs, dekadad qceuli Ramis,

vesaubrebi fanjridan xeebs

Svili uSvilo, ulmobel xanis.

dardob da vdardob, fiqrob da vfiqrob,

nuTu dagvCagravs usisxlo Jami?!

karebze momdgar siCumes viqrobT,

modi, davlioT, Zvirfaso, Sxami....

16 debiuti 17poezia

gamiucxovdi

axla vaTeTrebT mogonebebscivi xelebiT;vcdilobT, gavaTboTmartooba Ria ferebiT. Cven Soris xidis aSenebavcadeT imediT, magram gaxsnazeaRarc erTi aRar mivediT. Cven uCvenobiT gavucxovdiTerTmaneTisTvis;ar gavimeteT siamaye erTmaerTisTvis.

bedTan arSemdgari dialogi

da Tu alkoholi CemSi metia dasuli daavadda mwvave poeziiT, mivxvdi, megobaro, es rom bedia dariTmebs avuyvebi CemSi poetiviT.

roca alkoholi CemSi metia dafiltvi Sevsebuli mware nafazebiT, vxvdebi, megobaro, es gzac Cemia daxSirad ar mivlia swori naxazebiT. da Tu, alkoholi CemSi metia daCemi alter-ego aris paTologi, Cemo megobaro, esec bedia dabedTan ar gamova Cemi dialogi.

ali da mecixovne

qorebs dagirekav cixe-godlebidan, gulze mogxvdebi da rkina Cagadneba. koSkis galavnebze cecxlad movdgebi da mzeras avidevneb frTamal Savardnebad. waval mtris banakSi rogorc mparavi daabjargaxevebuls mjiRebs gaWmevineb. vnebas davitaceb sulTnis karavidan da pirsisxlianTa mklavebs gaWrevineb. mecixovneebi isrebs damiSenen, Tvals ver momwyveten saTofurebidan, yvelas gasakvirad Senve mogiSveleb, cxel rZes gazidineb irmis furebidan. Cageketinebi, nuRar gamomiSveb, erTxel safereblad gamemetebi da savsemTvareobas nawnavs CamogiSli, cixe gadavides deda svetebidan.

naTia mWedliSvili

iakob gogebaSvilis saxelobis Telavis saxelmwifo universiteti

18 debiuti 19poezia

TiTqos gauSala bavli baziermaise amovarda mTvare aRsavlidan,mec xom moviqnie suli maZiebladsanam bediswera Sens gzas maswavlida ugzo xetebisgan mec xom gavnaxevrdisanam bediRbali Sens Tavs gadamyrida,sanam mag Tvalebis fskerze Cammarxavdi,sanam aRmadgendi cecxlis samarxidan, mTvare areula SenTan namyofiviT, TiTqos mTel qveyanas nakocns anaxvebdes, lamis cas Seawydes mwife nayofiviTda Sens danaxvaze vnebiT ganaxevrdes... mec xom mTvaresaviT kocniT CamomiRerogor gagimagrde, saiT gagerido, sanam guliscixis qongurs CamomirRvev, lamis mTvaresaviT gumbaTs davekido.

* * *wamleke, amrie, amamRvrie, damfufqe, damlie, damabnie. madarde, gambadre, gamaxare, matire, maRvare, damaxane. mamzeve, masxive, mabrdRviale, damxvate, damgvale, matiele, mawvime, maTove, maRvarTqafe, gamyine, mabrwyine, maqaTqaTe. damadne da sivrces SemaRvare, moxvedi da Tavi Semayvare...

* * *ar gnaxav, sxvasTan gigule, damifrTiane dardebi. erTxel mgeliviT giymuvleb, sigiJis gzaze davdgebi.

rogorc afxazi vaJkaci, cxens Seviguleb saparavs, tye tye bermuxebs davkawri, daRestnis mTebSi gadaval.

kldeze avlesav satevars, fxa-piriT cerze avisvam. gulSi ar ici dateva, Zala gaqvs badri mTvarisa.

vici, wamoxval gamwyrali, ro uRranebSi meZio. mipovo Wkvaze Samcdari, axloSi gadmomewio.

SevimarTebi jixviviT, nabijis Cqami mwvdebodes, cxenma daiwyos Wixvini, yornebi iwewebodnen.

moxvide xeli damavlo, urCobas veRar vbedavde.

20 debiuti 21poezia

Tvals gvaridebdes samyaro, marto ufali gvxedavdes.

* * *netai omSi menaxe, xmaldaxmal dagWidebodi, ar damenaxa eg saxe, gulzed ar damkidebodi. netai omSi menaxe, SunTa ageRo mwvervali, iqac Sen yofiliyavi, Cemi sve-bedis mwerali. gaRma _ gamoRma gaegoTCveni far-xmalis JRerani. Sens ferxTiT daCoqiliyoCemi TavkerZa merani. dageWer ar mogekali, amorZalebis rjulzeda, zed dagcemodi orbiviTemag boboqar gulzeda. netai, omSi menaxe, amorZalebis mdevrada, iqac Sen SegeyrebodiCemi sve-bedis mwerlada.

anonimuri werili ana varSaniZes igive wvimofils

Senze ician sxva gogonebma,rom ar arsebob,xar momavlidan, xar mogonebada Cems garSemotrialeb, rogorc zRvis haeri damavseb siCumiT,wvima, romelic cas gaerida,Tanac biWuri…da Semodgomis mziT mimofenils,gxvdeba zamTarTanTovli. ar giyvars da wvimofili,xvdebi,damTavrda Seni sezoni. casTan fifqebi

papuna fircxalaiSvili

ilias saxelmwifo universiteti

22 debiuti 23poezia

dgebian mgzavris msgavsad. vin aris? (Sen dafiqrdebi) leqss, rom agzavnisda zRvis simlaSis am maragiTacversad mixval xval,me sxva biWi var, sxva qalaqidanda Sen miyvarxar!

dabruneba

unda damTavrdes, unda morCes, unda wavide,sadac aravin melodeba, sadac saxliaTxeli kedlebiT, sakuTar Tavs sadac davitev,sadac viqnebi bednieri, sadac naRvlianfiqrebs ar mivcem gasaqans da sadac fiqrebitalRis xmaurSi iZireba. aRar SemoaqvsSiSi qars, wvimas _ sicelqe da kargad viqnebi.kargad viqnebi. ar iqneba, rac garSemoa.unda wavide, unda morCes, unda damTavrdes:awmyo, warsuli, yvelaferi, rasac mivtiri.unda wavide, sanam wasvlis nebas damrTaven.unda wavide, sanam guli gaskda kvirtiviT.unda wavide, sadac misvla aris motivi.unda wavide, sanam wvims da sanam qaria.unda wavide laCariviT, Cumad, loTiviT.unda wavide, sadac sxvebi aRar arian.unda wavide, gavecalo mtvrian mimikebs.

unda wavide, sadac Rames TeTri feri aqvs,sadac aravin damxvdeba da sadac mimiRebsCemive Tavi, sadac civi aris keria.unda wavide…

naxevrad egoisturi

oTaxs ayuCebs muqi fardebi,RamiT wvims, xolo aSkara dRisiTxdeba, rom mainc imas bardebi,vinc verasodes iqneba Rirsi -Seni mkrTali da susti xelebis,mkerdis, romelic sicocxlis avzebsZalian gavs da ar memRerebada yru musika Cems sxeuls avsebs.daemsgavseba sxeuls zamTari,da zamTars civa RamiT da ZilSi,da uSenobiT avdris amtani,da uSenobis namdvili Rirsi, -viwyeb qariviT sadRac xetials,qariviT sulis gaTboba mindada gametebiT Tavs swiravs mindors,visac am qarze mZime bedi aqvs.amindebs bavSvis TvaliT vicodeb,da vusmen CemTvis Cums da ucnaurs da rom wvimebis ena vicode,leqsad vTargmnidi srulyofil xmaurs…

24 debiuti 25poezia

da me da qari, erTi srulebiT,vibneviT tyeSi da icis qarma,rom geZeb, sadac ar megulebi,rom Seni naxvis imedi ar maqvs.da mainc geZeb... da gTxov, SemodioTaxSi, roca Sens codvebs amxel,da gaqvs ufleba erTxel `CemoTi~mommarTo, erTxel Seexo am xels,mxolod da mxolod frTxilad, kankaliT.bolo leqss, anu sul pirvel amborsgigzavni. gareT wvima da qari,wvima da qari yvelafers ambobs.

* * *Tovli movida da sxvebic movlen,Tovli xom marto arasdros modis...davasaCuqreb mpovnelis mpovnels,vals gadavuxdi valmoxdil lodins.sul gavaTeTreb Tmasa da leqsebs,poeziazec arafers vityvi,cru dapireba iqneba esec,da bolos ase, sul ori sityviT:agixsni yvela fifqsa da aminds,gaCuqeb mfeTqav casa da gundas.da amis Semdeg, iqneb amenTosguli, an gulze, an raRac gulTanmainc... da Tovli movida, movlen...

oliko maTikoSvili

iakob gogebaSvilis saxelobis Telavis saxelmwifo universiteti

wamodi, erTad SemoviaroT mTeli msoflio, zRva da xmeleTi, wamodi, yvela kuTxe vixiloT, leqsad vaqcioT kaxeT-hereTi. yanwiT vadidiT RmerTi maRali, vinc dagviloca miwa da wyaliwamodi qveynad sikeTe vTesoT, ar dagvekargos arc erTi wami. wamo, gulebi farCad gavSaloTiqneb bavSvoba vinmem dagviTmos, yvela qarTveli poeti vnaxoT, maTi leqsebiT guli gaviTboT. wamodi erTad veaxloT ganjassad martosuli kvdeboda tato, samSoblos fiqrSi suli sdioda, leqsebi iyo mis gverdiT marto. wamodi, erTad virbinoT mTebze, maRal mwvervalebs SevaxoT fexi,

26 debiuti 27poezia

bardnala vnaxoT, lados savaneiqneb leqsebis dagveces mexi. wamodi, axla mainc gamomye, iqneb rogorme sulic gagiTbo, Tu vera bedav, guli ara gaqvs, wamodi, Cemi unda dagiTmo.

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kvlavac miyvarxar, magram naTqvams aRar aqvs fasiam molodinSi galeula dReni mravalni, Seni dabrunebis imeds gulSi mouklavs Tavida damikargavs yoveli gza Sensken savali. kvlavac miyvarxar, yofas uSenos aRar aqvs azri, sevdis dinebas guli orad gauxleCia, maT erTmaneTi daukargavT, magram ar mjera rom im naxevars guli marTla gadaeCvia. gadageCvie?! _ veRar vguob Cems aseT yofas, brbos Sereuli davabijeb malulad, uxmod, guli ki mainc dakarguls eZebsguli im Tavis naxevars uxmobs.

irakli WikaiZe

saqarTvelos teqnikuri universiteti

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mze TiTqos axteba, axteba Cems sarTuls, anaTebs arasdros da Tavis sinaTlisorive xels uwvdis danarCen fanjrebs, sxva aivans _ ra xdeba, ra xdeba, ra xdeba?!ho, rogor feradac ar unda daiwyosdila Cvens oTaxSi, gaCndeba mizezi, mizezi, romelic yvela fiqrs CaaxSobs, mizezi, romliTac yvelafers ibezreb. da ase brZolaSi, uZiro xelCarTul, alageb xarisxis mixedviT kavSirebs. parteris pirveli rigidan SemarTul nabijiT, ukusvliT marSireb, marSireb... fiqrebi fiqrad da ra xSirad gindeba, CitiviT Semojde viRacis Tokebze. da yvela simaRle, romelic giwvevda, korpussac ver wvdeba, anu im doneze _ gamaRldi, gamaRldi (an sxvebi daeSvnen),

28 debiuti 29poezia

sxvaoba Tu ari, arc ise didia. wyals atan yvelafers _ sixaruls, kaeSans, kidixar, kidixar, Tumc mainc ver Srebi. radganac mze TiTqos axteba sarTulebs, Crdilebi Sens fanjrebs mklavebze iwvenen. umzeo dReebi fonebad darTuli, (arTuleb). sicive, sicive, sicive...

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sezonebiviT rom icvleba garSemo xalxi, rom uxameb Sens xasiaTs _ amindebs msgavsad, did procesias CamorCenil, dabneul bavSviscamde awvdenil Tvalebidan, cremlebiT savseiRvreba fiqri _ martoobis erTguli xasa, amdeni weli SemorCenil totebze foTlad, suliT Sekeril xorcis naWers, rom adeb fass daaravin ar gyavs, vinc TavisiT gadawyvets mosvlas. dagados xeli, Tund mxarze an daRlil beWebze, da mousminos guliscemas, oRond zurgidan, umisamarTod gesaubros tyeze da Rreze, an terorizmze, an zamTris susxze, andac Tu ginda, gadaiTvalo Sen xelaxla weroTa ricxvi, sad da ramdeni azri ar aqvs, oRond ifrinon. axla kedlisken SebrunebiT dadgomas vcdidi, Semaxsenebdi aTamde da vinc ki ixilos... cudad mxvdeboda sul yovelTvis is gagrZeleba,

xedvis wertilebs, rogor vicvliT mere da mere. mTel gzis manZilze aravisTan yvelas eZeb dasabolood ki siwynarea, vera da vera... ho, sezonebi xalxis msgavsad icvleba am dros, roca zixar da yvelafrisgan arafers eli. roca gzebisken Sebrunebas dadgomas lamob, fexze da ara _ feri aris axla suyvela, geTamaSeba uferul da ucnaur TamaSs, midi-modian da icvlian mimikebs, pozebs. mogvanan, erTi xelis mosmiT, ugulo naxats, cudad SerCeul uRimRamo fonebs da tonebs. sezonebiviT, rom vicvlebiT damyveba gancda, roca uxameb xasiaTebs qarebis qrolvas, suliT Sekeril xorcis naWers rom adeb fass daaravin ar gyavs, vinc TavisiT gadawyvets mosvlas.

30 debiuti 31poezia

konstantine iamaniZe

ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti

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ca lurji, frinvelTa galia, zRva mSvidi sizmrebiT orsuli. Cems oTaxs aTasi kari aqvs da mainc am karTan mosuli _ aravin minaxavs wlebia. viRlebi da vnatrob aisebs, Citebi cis fskerze wvebianda frTaTa farfatiT avseben _ cas. lurj frinvelTa galias, zRvasaviT mRvries da Soreuls. Cems Tavsac aTasi kari aqvs, aTasi Sara da morevSi _ moyolil meTevzes magonebs, vinc scada da CemTan movida. viT dardiT avsebul vagonebs _ clis ca da ra mSvidad, Soridan

miwaze Sav Citebs anarcxebsda mRvrie zRva glovobs menaves, aTasi kari maqvs saxlamde da bolo karia Senamde.

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usinaTloa da Cem garda verafers xedavs. mis wamwamebze saqanela davkide guSin. vaqanavebdi. Rrublebamde daweul zecas. sulis simReras umRerian dRes Toliebi.

gaaRe kari! qaris sunTqva rom esmas yurebs. Cemo Zvirfaso, meZaxi da miyvebi locviT _ sinaTles, radgan usinaTlo TvalebiT umzer _ yovel mwuxrs. miyvarxar, miyvarxar, gkocni.

dilaa, yava finjaniT da yvavils langarze_ xelis cecebiT miuCine alagi TmebSi. damCemda, fardas gadavwev da Tvalebs vaceceb, rom Sens mzeraSi Camaluli mze davinaxo.

Cveuli dila, aivani, Tevzebi, kata. Seni Tvalebi fanjrebia Camomsxvreuli. da Txovna: _ xeli ar Semaxo, CemiT gavivli. Zvirfaso Cemo, mxolod Tavis damSvidebaa.

32 debiuti 33poezia

usinaTloa da Cems garda verafers xedavs. da ase, yovel saRamos da yovel ganTiads _ muxlebTan vijen, veferebi. ufero zecas _ sulis simReras umRerian dRes Toliebi.

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furclebze CaniSnul Sens kocnebs vasworeb:_ sworia, _ Secdoma, _ Secdoma, _ Secdoma. mgonia amindis prognozebs vecnobida Turme amindis prognozi mecnoba.

geZaxi. Soria… _ ramdeni viare!quCebi ixdian sevdas da gpatiobkocnebiT daWrili ukocnel iarebs. vCurCuleb:_ adios!_ adios!_ adios!

kabebis mejlisis dasawyiss _ stakato. sunTqav da damTavrda pirveli aria,

saxlidan garbixar, amindTan mRalatob. _ qaria!_ frialeb. _ frialeb. _ qaria!

furcelze CaniSnul Sens kocnebs _ RmerTebo!vasworeb. _ sworia, _ sworia, _ sworia. nabijebs uCqareb Saras da meryeob, radganac Zvirfaso, Cemamde Soria…

* * *gindoda wasvlisTvis gepovna sababi, waxvedi, Cagixsnes Rilebi mkerdamdeda veWvianobdi mere Sens saflavze, roca sxvis mitanil yvavilebs vxedavdi.

guliviT mereva sevda da saiTac _ mivmarTav gonebas, maxrCoben eWvebi. me suli Senamde mivyide SaiTans, Sen suli Cemamde momxvie beWebze.

pirveli TovliviT TeTri maqvs xelebi, qari Slis zurgs ukan damalul mimozas.

34 debiuti 35poezia

movdivar uRonod, Tan xveleb-xvelebiT, amindi Sesafer xasiaTs mimosavs.

eZebdi wasvlisTvis sababs da aqamde, ar mqonda eWvebi, axla ki yelamde. me veWvianobdi didxans Sens saflavze, roca sxvis mitanil yvavilebs vxedavdi.

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da roca giSvebdi qarebiT daRlili, da SeniT daRlili vumzerdi kamarebs. da axla ase var kiTxvis da Zaxilis _ niSanis SuaSi mdgari da makmare.

amdeni dardi, Tu mosvla, Tu lodini da Seni xilvisas gaCenil Rimilebs _ gaficeb, wadi da arasdros mobrunde. da roca mamali ganTiads iyivlebs _

gadmovdgam furclebze Caweril darCenebsda danarCenebs gavatan Toliebs zRvisken da lamazi grZnobebis narCenebs _ vyidi. saxsovrad melanqolikebs.

giorgi kobiaSvili, `rodesac sxva gza ar gaqvs,~ tilo,Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia

36 debiuti 37poezia

bravo, Tqvens xelebs

bravo, bravo, Tqvens xelebs birJaze rom amogxdaT uRirsi suli,bravo, bravo, Tqvens mSoblebs kacad gzrdidnen da waarTviT guli.bravo, bravo, melodrama aris wagebuliwvima Cumia da kari Caketili,vaSa, Cinovniko, yofas morgebulobirJa, kacoba da yeli moRerili.bravo, bravo, Tqvens xelebsWuWyian xelebiT hyidiT qveyanasmiwas, lurj zecas, mindors da velebs,rogor tkioda, netav, genaxaT.ra dauSave, Cemo Svilo, axal Taobas an raRas ebrZvi mama-papaTa velebs nabrZolarsSvili gagyidis, Tu gagyidis, mama dagindobs,

mirza burZeniZe

samcxe-javaxeTis saxelmwifo universiteti

Svili gagyidis, Tu gagyidis, arad dagindobsfexze hkidia Seni xma da Seni yvirili,Tvalze cremlebiT momavali viTomda gindobsarada, xmaa `Cemi dedac“, karis jaxuniT,es yvelaferi blefia, morCa, es aris...

geniosebi

geniosia yvela kaci, vinc tangos cekvavs, mewyvile mdedris yvela TiTi icis zepirad. geniosia yvela kaci, vinc cekvas gegmavs, scenaze mdgarma Seismina tango erT rigad. geniosia yvela kaci, vinc saxes malavs, mxolod man icis sarkis fasi, arc ise kargad, Tumca gamosdis, yalbis mzeras scenasTan flangavsda geniosis iersaxe gadahkravs avdrad. genia ar ars, logika da filosofia, arc tangos cekva, mdedris niWze rom ageb pasuxsda arc is, vinac WkuiT cxadyofs filologias. xalxis winaSe cekva uwevs amorful avsuls. ho, Zalian kargad TamaSobs Cveni genia, avsulis rolsac da TviTnakmar umankoebas, es yovelive darbaziTurT mSvenieria, Tumca iq tovebs am rolsac da ukeTurobas. geniosia yvela kaci, vinc icis tangos _ namdvili cekva, tiriliT rom wamwamebs urevs,

38 debiuti 39poezia

geniosia, ho, geniaa, Cemo kargo, vinc mzeris mxares ulmoblad TvalebSi ucqers. hoda, Tqven viTom naturis geniosebo, wadiT axla da tangos cekva Cumad iswavleT_ mdedris gareSe. genioso geniosebo, isec cotaa tangos wreze mosiarule. da roca ityviT: `me vbrZandebi genis genia~ iyaviT tangos mocekvave Sizofreniki. es yovelive yvelafriTurT gadamdebia, da tangos mTvlelma daganaxoT mze mofrenili.

Tamar babuciZe

ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti

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gamofena davxure SenTvis, aurelio, vxvdebi gamvlel-gamomvlels carieli kedlebiT, araferi ar dagrCa CemSi aureveli, TeTri sicarielis simfonia grZeldeba. aRar dagelodebiT me da Cemi samyaro, vRebav Senfer roials sxvebis Tvalis ferebad, ar warmogidgenia iseT qaoss vamyareb, Sen ki ara, xandaxan Cemi Tavic mereva. vyri zRvis qafSi naxatebs qviSis Senobebidan, Sens Senaxvas ver vbedav, vxedav rogor eRvrebi _ talRebs saRebavidan da Zaxili gemidan: _ `moeride. eride, rasac bolo eReba. `uSenobiT SemReba sunTqvis ukmarisobam, sivrcis ukmarisobam da haerze ra giTxra. dardi?! egrec ar varga sul mTlad umagisoba, Tvals ar momaSorebdi rom SegeZlos wakiTxva.

40 debiuti 41poezia

gamofena davxure SenTvis, aurelio, mTvaresaviT vivsebi ase drogamoSvebiT, SemrCa Rame sasmelad vcdilob, ar damelios, Tavs ver vSveli, saSvelad RmerTic CemgareSea. Zala damrCa imdeni qviSis nagebobidan, zecis TaRSi ver Seval da zRvis karSi veSvebi, Cems naxatebs napirze CemTan erTad moitans, xvalis cudi amindi da qarebi SeSlili. ar dascdeba aravis sayveduri imaze, me rom gza mivatove da metyvian saCivars, curva geswavlebina mainc naSromebisTvis, iqneb gadaerCina mlaSe talRis motivebs _ (g a m o f e n i s d a x u r v a!)da am TeTr siCumeSi, zRvian qafSi rom moCansniJarebSi xmaurobs saidumlo portebis, mxolod Sen Tu SeamCnev zRvaSi rogor ixrCoba, gverdiT sxva naxatebTan Cemi avtoportretic. (gamofena davxure SenTvis, aurelio).

* * *arsaidan-arsaiT, winaparTa gzidan var, mogonebis xurjini zurgze Semomdebia, modi! aRar vvargivar Ramis gadamzidavad, unda mogimarago gulis Cemodnebidan. xelSi Semomdnobia zamTris TeTri kabebi, netav ar ikadrebdes CemSi yinvis reisebs, saTqmeli maqvs imdeni, Tavs ver Seikavebdi,

datovebdi yvelafers. SenTan minda me ise. bnela, lampionebi poetebSi ar dganan, . moeWide xels sanam gulis gaskda nadebi, dneba Ramis kabebi svel TvalebSi radganac, yelSi amomivida bedis maskaradebi. arsaidan-arsaiT winaparTa gzidan var, geli ise aRarsad, rom ar elodebian, modi! aRar vargivar Ramis gadamzidavad, unda mogimarago gulis Cemodnebidan.

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suls erTianad amovTqvav xolme, rac SeiZleba morCes male damSvidi var mere im oTaxiviT, wiTel fardebSi, rom imaleba.

liandagebze vrCebi malebad, vrCebi gamebi, oqtava, noti. sxva saubari unda gameba, bedTan da ase ar davrCenodi.

saxuravebze vgevar airebs, yvelafers Tavi rom mivaneboT, Sen Semcvli?! _ vera, veranairad. Cemi adgili _ roialebTan.

42 debiuti 43poezia

SeminarCune da ise waval, tkivilebs TiTqos ukve gaevlo, yvela SemxvedrSi sul saxlebs dgamenda me rauSavs vdgamde aivnebs. yvelafers Tavi rom davaneboT, mimiReb? _ vera, veranairad...

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Semoqmedebam damimartova, iwvian leqsis TeTri verxvebida Cems fiqr-nakveb klaviaturas, amosunTqvaSi erTxel exeba. ucxo xelebis mJReri Sexvedra, SeSlili qari maclis mantias, iqneb TvalebSi Semogexeda, me veraferma gamamartiva. vgavar SemTxveviT momxdar SemTxvevasda ulirikod gazrdil lirikoss. warsuli tkbilad Semomexvevamagram jer unda Semomirigos. am dromde kvamlma ar mimatova, iwvian leqsis TeTri verxvebida Cems fiqr-nakveb klaviaturas, amosunTqvaSi erTxel vexebi.

vitali kilasonia

baTumis SoTa rusTavelis saxelobis saxelmwifo universiteti

nugeSi xurdebSi

Rirebul naxatebs mCuqnian xurdebSi, mZivebis asxmas mziT uWiravs nugeSi, qali ki gulwasul pepelas waagavs, kaci ki Tavs uyris im grZnobas da nagavs. nugeSi iqceva moqceul filtvebSi, abruebs am sxeuls da Tbili nugeSi, waagavs im Triaqs, guSin rom gasinje, gemo SeigrZeni da mere gafiltre. ginda rom gafrinde, magram ver frindebi, frTebi gaqvs an TiTqos codvebi gamZimebs. mainc ar Cerdebi, uazrod mpirdebi _ nafexurs rom iTvli da gasul nabijebs. xurdebi magiJebs da kidev qalebigverdiT rom midian maRali quslebiT, icode, ver waval, ver dagemalebi,

44 debiuti 45poezia

am leqsiT mkiTxulob da Cumad yuCdebi. me dRes daginiSnav Sexvedras rCeulad, vCerdebi uxmod da ver gagcvli xurdebSi, Tvalebis magivrad xelSi darxeulan, mzis totni da kidev _ foTlebi ubeSi.

isev ise var

isev ise, siTboSi _ tkbili zamTarSi _ mkacri. nayivlar mdumarebiT Cems frTebsac gavcri. uSfoTvelia uZiloba, magram ra vuyo Tuki Tavisi amosunTqva me ar gamiyo. isev ise var, rogorc uwin, oRond var axla, roca striqonebs vwerdi, vSlidi, wavSale anda, ai, aq gicdi saburvelSi, bneleTSi, qarSi, dro nafexurebs da kidev Tovls maleve waSlis. isev ise varT me da qari, Zlier SevewyveT, braziania da momdure is Cemze metad, poeziaze saubari axla davuwye da mimatova Cems fiqrebTan amayad, kentad. gamozafxulda da darabebs lewavs maisi, axla is qaric Cemgan ufro metad Soria, zamTarma fiqri uSenobiT ukve ar icisda zmanebebiT eSureba akvatorias.

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iyo sicocxlis dakargvis SiSi, guli wisqvilis qvasaviT gacvda, ar masvenebda tkivili ZilSi, viT orsuls bavSvis dakargvis gancda. Camesma sulis kivilis eqo, sazari rogorc bRavili xarTa, aRar msurs: sulSi tkivili vqeqo, arc araferi simSvidis garda.

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mZimed maxvelebs codvebs guSindels da guliscemas ise axSirebs, rom sikvdils, rogor ar SevuSinde, roca sicocxlec ase maSinebs.

kaxa wignaZe

saqarTvelos erovnuli universiteti

46 debiuti 47poezia

dganan fiqrebi gulis baqanTan. amdeni fiqriT gulic davbuge, elmavaliviT swrafad gaqandaCemi bavSvoba da siWabuke. gavxundi, rogorc Zveli Sineli, arafers veli ukve imedad, ra mZimea da ra saSineli _ cxovrebam ase rom gamimeta. mZimed maxvelebs codvebs guSindels da guliscemas ise axSirebs, rom sikvdils, rogor ar SevuSinde, roca sicocxlec ase maSinebs.

babuas

dagrCa mamis naSenebi oda, kaklis xe da ori Ziri komSi, gulSi albaT qariSxali hqroda, roca mama waiyvanes omSi. yovel Rames aTenebdi TeTrad, maSin gZulda bavSvur zizRiT qerCi, fiqriT iyav mamaSenTan erTad, samSoblos rom amoudga gverdSi. male brZolis moitanes macne, tyviam gulis SeuCera Zgera, mSobel dedas mgloviared acmev, magram mamis sikvdili ar gjera. mainc eli mova isev mama

da Cagikravs natyviareb mkerdSi, getyvis _ fronti sisxliT, rogor namawiTlad, rogor Seifera qerCi. eli, magram xedav gadis wlebi, SegrCenia mxolod qvrivi deda, umamod xar, nemsis yunwSi Zvrebimere dedis samaresac Wedav. mamuls uzrdi or Zesa da asulscxra SviliSvils, de ixaron marad, magram mamas saomrad wasuls, dardi gulSi Causvia sarad. male babu Senc dagvtove ase, gulSi laxvarCasobili dardiT, yvelas cremli mogvadine Tvalzeda wamwamebs mware cremliT vbandiT. maxsovs bolos naRvliani mzera_ gamayole, rom wavedi maSinveRar gnaxe. eh, babua veraamatire simwrisagan bavSvi. dumdi, babu, xmac ki aRar gamec, Sens Sendobas ufals vTxovdi caSi. babu, bevrjer damesizmre Ramec, dardi krToda kvlavac Sens box xmaSi. damrCa Sengan usaSvelo sevda, kaklis xe da ori Ziri komSi, da is dardic sul mudam rom, gsdevda`mamaSeni, rom mogikles omSi~.

48 debiuti 49poezia

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dRes Sens saflavze, mamaCemo, balaxs ki ara, TiTqos guls gwyvetdi. da ar masvenebs (netav wyenam gadagiara?!)_ fiqri uwyveti. momacilebdnen sevdisferi Seni Tvalebi_ qvidan utyvebi. Seni sikvdili iyo Cemi feriscvaleba, vervis vuyvebi _ Senze. mivdivar melodeba yalbi qalaqi, gzebi mrudebi, mivdivar Tanac Senze fiqrebs tvinSi valageb. ar dabrundeba _ is dro, rodesac RimiliT momacilebdi Cveni ezodan. eh, moxvidode da tkivilebs momacilebde Zliers esoden.

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Cems oTaxSi kvlav uSenod ayvavilda, qoTans rguli Senebr nazi kamelia, Sens gareSe sicocxlec ki aRar minda, Cqara mnaxe sanam suli damelia. xeli momec saukuno samaremdida SevficoT samudamo erTguleba,

ar megona Tuki ase gadamrevdi, Senze kargi qveynad arvin meguleba. Sens TvalebSi farfateben TviT peplebi, binadarni Seni sulis yvavilnaris, gogov, Seni siyvaruliT viferflebi, Senze nazi da lamazi sxva vin aris?!

siyvarulis soneti

wvims. foTlebisgan gaSiSvlebul sxeuls xe ibans. viT meezovem es quCebi qarma mogava, gulSi grZnobebi daemsgavsa kuts da xeibars, qariT gadaRlil, gayviTlebul foTols movgavar. siyvaruliT var savse, rogorc tyviiT mWidebi. yvela quCaze gavakravdi teqstiT afiSebs:"me Sen miyvarxar, miyvarxar da ise mWirdebi, ise mWirdebi guli Cemgan versad gagiSvebs, minda, Sens mklavebs Sevefaro, rogorc kulisebs, repeticia gaviaro SenTan alersis, gagiJebamde meyvarebi sanam guli cems, me Sens siyvaruls gavyviri da Sen ki ar gesmis!"wvims. foTlebisgan gaSiSvlebul sxeuls xe ibans, msurs SenTan erTad mivyvebode axla xeivans.

50 debiuti 51poezia

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me dRes movkvdebi. vgoneb, ukve bevri viareda am nabijebs dasasruli mieces unda, Cemi ocneba realurad camdec miaRwevsRameebi ki daiSleba, viT Tovlis gunda.

saswauli Tu daamSvidebs, CaaxrCobs tkivils, raRac ucnaur sispetakes moyveba mTvare. ra damaviwyebs uCveulod sevdian Rimils, roca fiqrebiT daxunZluli gavyvebi Rames.

da mTvaris Suqi Tvals miWrelebs, mohyveba glovas_ Cemi suli da auRwerel ocnebad rCebi. es nabijebic uTavbolo siaruls mohgavsda Tvalebidan wamosuli cremlebiT vTbebi.

vixseneb yvelas, maxsendeba wami da wuTi, rom mogonebam gamiyvana sigiJis mxares. sazizRrobaa giyvars, Tumca ganicdi wuxils, romelsac Turme momavali ewera adre.

beqa bostoRanaSvili

saqarTvelos teqnikuri universiteti

da am nervebsac saboloo ganaCens aZlev, rom daiRale cxovrebiT da sikvdili gijobsSeni ZarRvebi Rimilebs da sixaruls garTmevsda ggonia rom mSvelelia ZarRvebi TiTqos.

arada am dros veragulad giRimis zecada ggonia, rom es ocneba camde miaRwevs. ubralod ase veRar uZleb cxovrebas, erTxansda saaTiviT elementis ZaliT migaTrevs _

goneba, roca ocnebac ki veRar ikadreda am nabijebs dasasruli mieces unda. me dRes movkvdebi. vgoneb ukve bevri viareda Rameebic daiSleba, viT Tovlis gunda.

* * *yvelafers Seni saxeli hqvia, dro gadis ase, ar iyureba _ ukan. fiqrebma Semomitiada ucxo kibis brma rikulebma.

gamoisyides mkrTali sxivebida me mWirdeba Seni xelebida uCveulo gadamTieli _ var da vberdebi, ise vberdebi.

rom yvelafers saxeli hqvia, saxeli Seni sicocxliT savse. ase fiqrebma Semomitia_ da dagemsgavse.

52 debiuti 53proza

giorgi kobiaSvili, `evolucia~, tilo,Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia

maia burdiaSvili

iakob gogebaSvilis saxelobis Telavis saxelmwifo universiteti

gardasaxva

gaeyina mzera gafermkrTalebul silaJvardeSi, TiTqos gaCerda droTa svla. qari ki laRad daseirnob-da wiTel-yviTel xeTa rigebSi. didxans ucqira da rom veraferi amoikiTxa sanugeSo, kvlav daubrunda mSob-liur miwas mzeriT Tu fiqriT... magram vin daacala samyarosTan marto darCena.

_ giorgii... _ moesma nacnobi xma Soridan. miatova samyaro da wavida, iq datova gulis bolo amoZaxilic... kidev erTxel Sexeda zecas. Ramis gveleSaps daefCina xaxa da dRec ususuri veRarsad gaqceoda. nel-nela nebdeboda sazarel urCxuls. mwuxris zari darekes taZarSi. karebTan deda Semoegeba;

_ megobrebma mogakiTxes, ra male gaugiaT Seni Camosvla-uTxra dedam. Sexeda da Tavs Zala daatana, gaiRima. dedas eucnaura misi gamoxedva. oTaxi gaaTbo megobrebis siyvarulma, aseTi gulwrfeli didi xania araferi enaxa da egrZno.

54 debiuti 55proza

_ rogor xar, ar ityvi? eh, ra uceb cvlis adamianebs mdgomareoba. _ viTom xumrobiT Cailapara erT-erTma mosulma, Tumca mis xmaSi iyo Suric da tkivilic, ai, iseTi, TeTr Surs rom eZaxian.

es sityvebi araerTxel gaugonia, magram dRes Sei-Wra mis sulSi, monaxa Tavisi adgili da iqidan dau-wyo gamoxvra, rogorc didi xnis mSierma ZaRlma napovn Zvals.

_ magas ar unda meubnebodeT, raze metyoba, rom Sevicvale?-warmoTqva da Tavis sityvebma Tavadve gaaRi-ziana.

_ mdgomareoba ara, Cemo Tamaz, cxovreba gvcvlis, cxovreba- miaSvela sityva Temurma, radgan daZabuloba igrZno da ewyina megobris Tamami toni.

_ Tqven ras saqmianobT, momiyeviT Tqveni ambebi-erTmaneTs gadaxedes da mixvdnen gulwrfeli saubari ver Sedgeboda, oTaxSi deda trialebda da sufras uS-lida, amitom sazogado pasuxebiT Semoifarglnen.

_ Sen isev marto dadixar xoo? _ gaurkvevlobi-dan Semoparuli siCume daarRvia Tamazma. daRlili TvalebiT Sexeda da yvelanairad ecada saubari iqiT ar wasuliyo, rom konkretul Temebs Sexebodnen, magram ar gamouvida.

_ Cvens Zmobas gaficeb, gaxsovs is dro skolidan mSivrebi rom vbrundebodiT da gzad vanadgurebdiT, rac xili gvxvdeboda? _

axsovda bavSvoba, dRes, rogorc arasdros ise axs-ovda...

_ ramdeni ram Seicvala mas Semdeg, netav dRes kidev Segvwevs Zala sakuTar Tavs TvalebSi CavxedoT da gam-ovixmoT is meocnebe da gulwrfeli bavSvi?-megobrebi ver Cawvdnen misi sityvebis sevdas.

_ ara, Zmao, sadRa SegvrCa ocnebis da bavSvobis nervebi? _ uTxra Tamazma.

_ ra xdeba Sen isev im siyvaruls mistiri xom, amxela qveyanaze Seni mosawoni qali dailia? _ uTxra Temurma.

_ mosawon qalebs ra dalevs qveyanaze, magram siy-varuli gamoilia, Zmao, siyvaruli. _ kvlav gamaRiz-ianebeli pasuxi moesma. Tavs Zalas atanda megobrebs, ar egrZnoT misi gaoreba, erTi suli hqonda, marto darCeniliyo. oTaxi sigaretis kvamlSi gaexvia. sark-mlidan moCanda noembris gakrialebuli zeca, varskv-lavebi TamaSobdnen daxuWobanas, ise, rogorc bavSvoba-Si uTamaSia mravaljer. aqa-iq, Tvalsac Caukravdnen da niSnismogebiT gauRimebdnen, fanjris rafaze cekvavd-nen Winkebi. aarida mzera da kvlav mosulebs Sexeda. ukvirda maTic, amdeni wlis manZilze netav araferma Secvala maTi sulebi? didi xnis xorxocis Semdeg was-vla gadawyvites, gulis siRrmeSi ki mixvdnen maspinZ-lis ugunebobas. albaT imasac mixvdnen, rom amis mizezi maTi stumroba ar yofila da gareT gamosulebsac aRa-raferi uTqvamT.

fanjara gamoaRo da Tvali moavlo mZinare sofels. SuaRamis dadgoma amcno mamalma... oTaxSi deda Semovi-da asalageblad.

_ xom ar geZineba, oTaxi mzad aris- uTxra Svils.

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_ ara, cotas gavivli sufTa haerze, Torem sigare-tis kvamlma damaxrCo-icrua da gareT gamovida, dedam sevdiani Tvalebi gaayola mimaval Svils.

miaSura bavSvobis sayvarel xeivans. uzarmazari mT-vare amogorebuliyo kavkasionidan da naxevrad SiSveli xis kenweroze Semomjdariyo. ukan moixeda da sakuTari Crdilic ki ar moewona. TiTqos isic myudroebas ur-Rvevda. mieyrdno zurgiT xes, sxeuli uduRda, buneba ki utyvi, ugrZnobi, sicives crida.

_ ai, davbrundi, xom xedavT mogitaneT, rasac dag-pirdiT. _ ase daudo saTave fiqrs da igrZno, rogor dauyva didi xnis dagubebuli qaraSoti safeTqlebi-dan.

_ me mtkiva, gesmiT, Zalian mtkivaaaaa- es ar iyo ubralod naTqvami da arc yvirili. es iyo azvirTebuli sulis xma, romelic sxeulSi aqeT-iqiT exeTqeboda da kalapots eZebda.

_ mas stkiva gesmiT, Zalian stkivaaaa-gaimeora xe-ivanma ironiulad, agorda tkivilic, qarborbalad gad-aiqca da gaaxvia Tavis binZur oromtrialSi yovelive.

_ ai, Cemi gulic, aTasjer gadawerili da gadaRe-bili, axla minda vipovo dedani, is sawyisi minda vipovo, risTvisac cxovreba Rirda... zecas Sexeda, mkacri hqon-da gamoxedva macxovris sauflos. da TvalebSi ufro Rrma tkivili auTamaSda.

_ Cemo macxovaro, momeci niSani, Tu Sen sustebis RmerTi xar mxolod da Zlierebi ar giyvars? mereda vin momatyua ufalo, rom Zlieri var, vin? _ ucabedad

Sewyvita msjeloba, ironiulma Rimilma gaupo bage, _ xoo, maxsovs, maxsovs-gaagrZela fiqrebis Telva, albaT maSin, Cems siyvarulze rom vTqvi uari, gonebam gaim-arjva meTqi _ vamayobdi da ver vxvdebodi, rogor vS-lidi Cemi gulidan umTavres sawyiss. xoo, albaT maSin, rodesac megona Sevicani mTeli samyaro. maSin vifiqre, Senc Segicani, Seni sisuste Sevicani, RmerTo!-simwris-gan marcxena tuCis kuTxes ise magrad mouWira kbilebi, mxolod sisxlis siTbo igrZno nikapTan.

_ ras Segadaro miTxari, sad wydeba zRvari real-obasa da ocnebas Soris, rodis iwyeba Cveni gardasaxva, nazarevelo?

mTvares Sexeda, adre arasdros moCvenebia igi ase didi da civi, guli ucemda gamalebiT, sxeulSi Wian-Wvelebi darbodnen, Tavis sulidan gamoixmo is dardi, megobris sityvebis Semdeg rom CauZvra. Tvalwin daud-ga is suraTi, SuqniSanTan manqanebis rigSi rogor idga. uceb gaeqca Tvali trotuarisken, sadac maTxovari ijda da umzerda. ratom Sexeda, mas xom ar uyvarda maTxovris Tvalebi, sicarieliT da tkiviliT savse Tvalebi. axla ki ise CaaSterda, maTxovari uxerxulad SeiSmuSna da binZur saxeze gadaisva xeli.

_ ras miyureb, Zmao, ra iyo? _ moesma da TiTqos et-kina raRac SigniT, ise, rom Tvalebi amowva am tkivilma. maTxovris TvalebSi CaZirulma verc ki gaigona uknidan avtomobilebis gabmuli signali.

_ dro mova da yvela davdgebiT gardasaxvis zR-varze. rodesac yvelafris pasuxi vipove, maSin vigrZeni

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Cemi ususuroba da ubedureba. fiqrobda da maTxovris Tvalebi ar aZlevda mosvenebas. _ es iyo niSani, nazarev-elo?! maSin mivxvdi Cems uZlurebas swored, maTxovris tkivilis rom SemSurda.

_ fiqrebSi garTulma verc gaigo, rogor aboboqrda qariSxali, gamostaca zurgidan xe da uboZa Tavisufle-ba. mTvarec wasuliyo saxetialod RrubelTa xaliCaze da iqidan ekekluceboda. Tavadac Seuyva gulis labirin-Tebis aRmarTs. albaT grZnobda, rogor uaxlovdeboda sawyiss. yvela naweri gadarecxa sisxliT da cremliT. atirda zecac, es iyo niSani, nazarevelis niSani, es iyo Jami maTi Serigebisa. uceb telefoni monaxa jibeSi.

_ gemudarebiT, mxolod axla mipasuxos da mets arafers gTxovT _ Sejibri gamarTes zecaSi gveleSapma da wiTelma mxedarma... didxans ebrZodnen erTurTs, re-kavda telefoni uSedegod da swored maSin, ukanaskneli imedic rom gadaewura gaisma gaocebuli xma yurmilidan.

_ gagaRviZe? _ hkiTxa CurCuliT, _ arauSavs, xom mSvidoba gaqvs aseT dros rom re-

kav?_ momenatre!_ nuTu!_ xval minda rom SevxvdeT-akankalebul xmaSi gaube-

daoba Seepara, _ mxolod ar miTxra uari, ukanaskneli Sansi momeci.

_ Seni xma ar momwons, ver gcnob ra gWirs? _ TiTqos gabrazeba daetyo.

_ xval agixsni yvelafers.

_ kargi, rogorc ginda. saswrafod daemSvidoba da gauTiSa, ar undoda kidev

ufro metad gamoexata Tavisi mdgomareoba. aCqarebu-li nabijebiT gauyva xeivans saxlisaken. oTaxSi deda eloda. yvelafers mimxvdariyo, magram dumda. mxolod mSrali tanisamosi daaxvedra Svils. Zlivs anaTebda pa-tara naTura iqaurobas.

_ ratom ar gZinavs, dedii?_ dedas rogor unda eZinos, roca Svili avadaa?_ mereda me avad var, dedii?dedam araferi upasuxa, magram zogjer sityvebs xom

sjobia uTqmeloba. Semoxeda mravlismetyveli TvalebiT da gavida. ar uZinia mTeli Rame, masTan erTad ar eZina qariSxalsac, mxolod gamTeniisas daicxro grZnobebi da Cadga. ganTiadsac uZilobisgan dawiTleboda Tvale-bi da zantad isresda, qariSxlisagan daqanculi xeebi gaimarTnen welSi. fanjara gamoaRo da Rrmad CaisunTqa Semodgomis grili haeri, Tvali ver mowyvita gaSiSv-lebul bunebas. Tanaziarad miiCnia yovelive. guli ise ucemda, siCumeSi saaTis wikwikiviT iTvlida majiscemas. ver daaoka fiqrTa morevi, oTaxSi mohyva bolTiscemas. veRarc sicives grZnobda da veRarc imas, TvalebSi uZi-lobisgan simZime rogor epareboda, erT xatebas meore cvlida da yvela Tavis pasuxs iTxovda.

rogorc iqna akinZa riTmebiviT yvela emocia da gado xidi realobasa da ocnebas Soris. daamarcxa wi-Telma mxedarma gveleSapi, gamostaca binZuri xaxidan mze da Semosva kavkasionze...

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zRvisferi deda

mas zRvis suni aqvs, yvelaze sanatrelis da Soris. yovelTvis, roca misi talRebi misvelebs kabis bo-loebs, mec massaviT vxdebi, Cumi da talRebiani. misi Tvalebi samyarosxelaa da masSi TiTqos mze amodis. Rrublebi mis Rimilze cekvas iwyeben, Semodgomisferi foTlebi akvdebian TmebSi. dedis sunTqviT varskv-lavebs vwvdebi caSi da ganvicdi mesmis mTeli samyaros CurCuli gzadagza rom ugrovebia Camuxluls.

maSin, uReltexiliT rom mohqonda dardi da sisxli, mec movkvdi TiTqos. mis gulSi Caxutebuls mevedrebo-da sunTqvas, yurs madebda gulze, xom ar gaviyine. Cems dedas imedis surneli aqvs... yvavilebiviT feradi imedi aqvs da sicocxliT mavsebs da mec masSi vmeordebi. maSin, im sisxlian Semodgomas Tvalebi dakarga dedam, suli dakarga, patara bavSviviT xelgamowvdili ijda

nana gegeWkori

saqarTvelos daviT aRmaSeneblis saxelobis universiteti

quCaSi da yvelafris arafrad qcevis, bavSvobawarTmeu-li, sakuTari warsulidan gamoZevebuli TanagrZnobas iTxovda mxolod. mere Tavisi omisferi, cremlisferi xelebiT didxans epotina miwas, epotineba mis gamagi-Jebel siSores, romelic axlac tkiva.

pirvelad rom davuZaxe „deda“, deda morCa sikvdils. ho, gamoeqca mas da aaxia Tavisi TeTri kabis bolo mis dampal klanWebs. aTasi wamebis da CurCulis mere gaaxsenda, rom arsebobda da ufro Zlieri iyo omiT moparulze, tyviiT dacxrilulze. mainc lamazze, ay-vavebulze, mzeebianze ifiqra da mec mafiqra, Rimili gaixsenda afxazeTisferi, „Tafliani, irmis rZissuni-ani“... ai, im dRidan mis Rimilze vcekvav. mand vkref xils, yvavilebs, momavals, rwmenas, imeds. usasru-lod vawni mis TmebSi uCinar gvirilebs yvelaze metad rom uxdeba, massaviT ubralo romaa da Rrma... im dRis mere, roca sicocxlem daibruna, gulze sityvebi dai-wera, romelsac misi eqvsi ukvdaveba hqvia. eqvsjer gaxda deda… eqvsjer gadmoiara svaneTis uReltexili, eqvsjer Cagvaqsova Tavis sulSi TvaliTunaxavis, Seu-grZnobelis, balaxze gaurbeneli miwis siyvaruli. yov-elTvis, roca Tvalebs xris, zRva isvenebs maSin. mere mec Cemeburad, patara bavSviviT minda Cavujde zRvis kalTaSi da rogorc adre, ise vetitino, magram roca TvalebSi cremli momereva, vzivar da viTvli, viTvli mis ganvlil wlebs... ramdeni naoWi gaqvs, dedi... rogor dauTovia Sens Tmebze? rogor gifeTqavs ZarRvi Sub-lze, roca aRsarebas geubnebi.

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Sens mwvervalebs Cemi ca ver daitevs, de... imdenad maRalia dedaRmerTis sunTqva, rom igrZnos molodi-niT dauZlurebul TiTebze, fexis wverebze awevac ar sWirdeba, ise wvdeba cas, Tumca yvela adamianiviT si-maRle aqvs...

iciT, mis TvalebSi zamTarSic yvavis baRebi da Ses-aZloa am cxovrebam susxis meti araferi gaimeta mis-Tvis, magram mainc imdeni feri aqvs, ramden feradac silamaze SeiZleba warmoidgino. zRvis talRebze moT-amaSe Toliebisferia deda. sulis sarkeSi rom CaxedavT, naxavT, pirvelad rodis Tqva dedam „deda“, pirvelad rogor aidga fexi, rodis igrZno pirvelis siyvaruli, rodis migrZno me... da mere es omi... rogor eyineba fexebi, iCoqebs da uyurebs cas, romelic TavisTavs aRar hgavs, nacrisferi sevda zed axatia, wvimasac omis mZafri suni aqvs. deda cas uyurebs da tyviebiT da-seril sivrceSi mainc xedavs RmerTs. minda xelebi mivaSvelo, magram guls vuWer, guls. ase mgonia, yve-la naoWi mis saxeze omia, omi 13 Tve da 13 dRe rom gagrZelda.

meRimileba mainc. arada ukve Cemxelaa Cvens mi-wasTan ganSoreba. tyviebiT, sisxliT savse. cremlebi aRar acvia... dgas Cem winaSe da vxedav masSi gazafxuls da zafxuls, mis Tvalebs simSvide hqvia, masze metad araferi uxdeba dedas. fexebze miwa Caucvams TiTqos, saidanRac gadmoyolili, saTuTad Semonaxuli, raRacis mosagonad da raRacasTan Sesarigeblad, imedisTvis, suliviT Zvirfasi da Seucvleli.

iciT, yvelaze saocari ra aris? am miwas Zvlebi aqvs SigniT da ase daatarebs gadaxvewili Zmebis muhajirobas, enguris xididan raRacis CurCulis, locvis, vedrebis ocdaeqvsi wels. mec mjera imis, rac dedis TvalebSi irekleba: am xids iqiT, sxva dedebis TvalebSic aris siyvarulis mze. mxolod unda amovides CvenTvis...

Cems dedas yvelaze metad am miwis ca uxdeba, „mor-dus“ miwis buneba uxdeba. TmebSi dawnuli gvirilebiT dadis da mec vixuteb maTiT galamazebul mis WaRaras. saocaria, de... Cven erTad gadmocurul, gadmofrenil, gadmolaxul, `SaratiniT“ gadmocekvebul xids aqeT, sicocxlesTan axlos varT da sikvdils gamoqceulebi erTad ganvicdiT am miwis siaxloves.

64 debiuti 65proza

mdidari Raribi

batoni daviTi aRelvebuli Semovida, oTaxi daaTva-liera da Tavi ukmayofilod gaaqnia:

_ rogorc vxedav, ukve daasruleT?! _ diax, batono _ dabneulma upasuxa xelosanma. _ mereda xom giTxariT, erT kviraSi unda morCeT-

Tqo?-gabrazebuli CaekiTxa. _ diax, magram am yvelafers eg dro ar yofnida... _ mereda geTqvaT, Tu ar yofnida, zustad mecodine-

boda dro, Tu rodis gadamexada Tanxa. _ me giTxariT, batono, magram arc ki damigdeT yuri,

daiJineT, erT kviraSi mWirdebao. _ xumrobT? _ gadaixarxara daviTma da Tan xelosans

TvalebSi Caxeda. _ kargad maxsovs, ra vTqvi da ra ara. _ rogorc Cans, ar gaxsovT, me giTxariT, ori kvi-

ra Wirdeba-Tqo, Tqven ki miTxariT, Tu egrea ra gaew-yobao.

meri zaqaSvili

soxumis saxelmwifo universiteti

_ Tavs mabralebT? _ ara, batono, ras brZan... _ axla mismine, radgan ar vicodi, rodis morCebodi,

Tanxa sruliad davxarje, bavSvebs uamravi ram Wird-ebaT, meuRlesac, Semdeg xelfasze gadagixdiT Tanxas, axla ki, gTxovT, nivTebi aiRoT da damtoveT, saRamos gadmovalT.

_ ki, magram axla ra vqna? am fuls velodi... _ mec velodi, rom erT kviraSi morCebodiT, ase rom

keTili inebeT da daicadeT. _ Cven ase ar SevTanxmebulvarT. _ vwuxvar, magram es Cemi qaliSvilis oTaxia, is

ki saukune eloda amas Tqven gamo, ase rom frTxilad iyaviT, Tu ar gindaT, ufulod darCeT.

_ cota mainc momeciT, rom saWmeli vuyido ojaxs, mxolod Tqven ar gyavT Svilebi, mec melodebian sax-lSi, miyureben xelebSi, axla Cemi xelcarieli misvla kargi saqme ver iqneba, ukve aRarc eqnebaT Cemi datove-buli Tanxa...

daviTma mklavSi xeli mokida da gareT gaiyvana:_ erT TveSi mobrZandiT da aiReT Tanxa, me prin-

cipuli adamiani var, Tu saqmes droulad ar akeTeben, maT gasamrjelos erTi TviT vuwev xolme, rom Wkua is-wavlon da kidev aRar Sescodon, _ ironiulad gauRima, Tavi daukra da kari cxvirwin miuxura.

Semdeg oTaxSi daiwyo mimosvla daiwyo da Tan Tav-isTvis saubrobda:

_ mSvenieria, Cemi gogona bednieri iqneba am oTaxSi,

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mgoni kargi gamovida, _ Caiqirqila, nu rac icis, icis am biWma, magram sityvas gadavida da ver miiRebs jer Tanxas.

wamojda Tu ara, karze zaris xma gaisma. kari gaaRo da Tavisi qaliSvili dainaxa;

_ mamaa, esaa Cemi axali oTaxi? _ aRfrTovanebuli Semofrilda oTaxSi daviTis qaliSvili.

_ diax, Senia, imedia, mogwons?_ ra Tqma unda, SesaniSnavia, iataks uyureb, naxe,

gegoneba namdvili zRvaa da namdvili delfinebi. war-momidgenia, es ra eRireboda, mama, es aTasobiT dolari Rirs sazRvargareT, SesaniSnavia, albaT ucxoels moax-atvine, ara? araCveulebrivia...

_ SenTvis yvelafers gavakeTeb-daviTma Svils gau-Rima da Sublze akoca.

uecrad daviTis mobiluri awkrialda:_ gismenT?_ batono daviT, Cvenma kompaniam am TveSi milioni-

ani mogeba naxa, yvelaferi kargad midis, Semdegi nabi-jebisTvis axal proeqts gavakeTebT da warmogidgenT.

_ SesaniSnavia, ukve win miiwevs Cveni saqmeebi. yurmils kidebs da col-Svils ubrundeba:_ Caval produqts viyidi. _ kargi, mama, male amodi, Zalian mSia. _ nu Relav, Sen rogor gaSimSileb, Svilo. kibeebze nela Cadis da qalaqis uazro siluetebs

uerTdeba. male ojaxis marCenali sursaTiT datvirTu-li brundeba da savaxSmod sxdebian:

_ Seni Zma sadaa? _ ar vici, mgoni, megobrebTan erTad klubSi unda

iyos. _ Zalian kargia, unda gaerTos, axalgazrdaa. danayrdnen da kvlav magidas Semousxdnen. dominos

TamaSis jeri damdgariyo. am dros karze kakunis xma gaisma. ormociode wlis

qalma zRurbls gadmoabija da karebTan SeCerda. _ Semodi, Tamar, mand ras udgaxar. _ saRamo mSvidobisa, karg dros movsulvar, domi-

noze erTi kaci ar gawyendaT _ Tavisi viziti gaamarTla Tamarma da daviTs Sexeda.

_ Zalian kargia, rom moxvedi, Tamar, vgoneb TamaSi ar dagviwyebia? _ ironiulad Sexeda daviTma.

dominos TamaSi axla oTxma ganagrZo, Tumca Tamars dabneuloba etyoboda, raRacis Tqma surda da Tan ver ambobda. bolos rogorc iqna saTqmels Tavi mouyara:

_ batono daviT, kompaniis saqmeebi rogor midis?_ arc ise kargad, gindodaT rame?_ garkveuli Tanxa mWirdeba, Cemi qmari daeca da

fexi moitexa, droebiT xom ver CagvasesxebdiT. _ ra samwuxaroa, swored weRan damirekes kompanii-

dan da macnobes, rom milioni vizaraleT, ase rom arc Tqvenze mdidari var da arc Tqvenze Raribi.

_ ras ambobT? riTime xom ar SemiZlia dagexmaroT?-Tvalebi auwylianda Tamars. _ Tqven uares dReSi yo-filxarT.

_ ras vizamT, yvelas ar gvimarTlebs.

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_ deda, tkbileuli moitane, qalbatoni Tamaric mi-irTmevs _ uadgilo iniciativa gamoiCina qaliSvilma.

_ ras ambob, aRar gvaqvs, Svilo _ Tvalebi daubria-la ojaxis diasaxlisma.

_ ras ambobT, nu wuxdebiT, cud dReSi yofilxarT. mewyina Tqveni zarali.

Tamari gavida da ramdenime wuTSi kvlav dabrunda. xelSi xiliT savse xonCa eWira da uxerxulad iRimoda:

_ ai, es miirTviT, dRes viyide bazarSi, Zalian gem-rielia.

_ ara, nu wuxdebiT. _ Secba diasaxlisi, magram ar SeimCnia

_ ra Sewuxebaa, Tu rame dagWirdeT, mogvaZaxe, gver-diT dagidgebiT _ Tbilad gauRima _ axla ki waval, Rame mSvidobisa.

ojaxis diasaxlisma Tavazianad gaacila Tamari samzareuloSi dabrunda da gakvirvebulma Sexeda `ga-kotrebul~ Tanamecxedres. daviTma mxrebi aiCeCa.

_ yvelam Tavis saqmes unda mixedos, aiRe eg xili da Cayare nagavSi, ar gvinda, egeT dabalfasians ar vWamT.

_ ras akeTebT?! _ xeli xelze mouWira dedamiss qal-iSvilma _ imaze ar gifiqriaT, rom es maTi bolo lukma iyo da mainc giwilades?

_ damSviddi, Svilo _ gauRima mamam _ yvelaferi rigzea, am qveynad aTasi uzneo dadis da ra viciT, rom es mowamluli araa?

gogona damSvidda da Tavis axal oTaxSi gavida. erTi Tvis Semdeg baton daviTs im xelosanmac

moakiTxa. _ gamarjoba, batono, me... _ diax, maxsovxarT, axlave mogitanT Tanxas _ san-

am Sebrundeboda, SeaTvaliera, gacrecili Sarvali da daxeuli fexsacmeli ecva. ramdenime wuTSi ukan mo-brunda:

_ ai, aiReT aq 250 laria, orasi lari Tqveni Tanxa, danarCeni ise saCuqrad _ uTxra da Tavis `qvelmoqmede-baze~ TviTonac gaeRima.

_ ra cudad afaseben saqarTveloSi xelovan ada-mianebs, Tqveni qaliSvilis oTaxi movxate, umaRles doneze Sevasrule da Tqven mainc xelosans meZaxiT, ara uSavs, es 50 lari Tqven daitoveT, me ar mWirdeba, vin icis, xval an zeg SeiZleba aRaraferi gqondeT da es fuli Savi dRisTvis gadainaxeT, megobaro. aseT mdidar kacs ra Raribi suli gaqvT _ iseTive Rimili daubruna, Tavi daukra da kibeebze Cairbina.

daviTi oTaxSi Sebrunda, CarTo kompiuteri, gadaaT-valiera Tavisi angariSi da damSvidebiT amoisunTqa:

_ yvelaferi adgilzea...

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wkap!

aristokratiuli Rimili Sevagebe uars da sakuTari tkiviliT gaqezebulma, welgamarTulma ganvagrZe gza. sulis wiokisTvis yuradReba ar mimiqcevia, manamde kar-ga xniT adre mivaCvie mas yuri, iseve, rogorc mezoblis biWis uniWod Sesrulebel „mTvaris sonatas~. ra-na-na, ra-na-na, ra-nana... ager, ukve mesame weli iqneba, sul am bolo naze Wedavs, da mec, ukve mesame weli Sesrulda, gaWedili maqvs am gogoze. zRvisferi Tvalebi rom ara, mxolod misi dagrexili TiTebi verasdros momxiblavd-nen. viRacis mier Cemda samadlod dagdebul mozrdil biCoks aseve samadlod naTxovni asanTiT movukide da Rrmad Cavunafaze. filtrze movardisfro pomadis kvali SevniSne da Tvalebminabulma vcade, srulad SemegrZno CemTvis ucnobis tuCebis gemo. cudi kocna gcodniaT, madam! vecade, rac SeiZleba male gamedevna ucnobi Cemi filtvebidan. jer naxSirorJangad vaqcie, Semdeg ki niavs mivabare. uZravad videqi da Tvals vadevnebdi, rogor miizlazneboda, rogor aTasnairad

qeTi gomarTeli

grigol robaqiZis saxelobis universiteti

icvlida formas kvamli da vcdilobdi, am abstraqciaSi raime realuri damenaxa. biCoks davxede. „Kent~. iro-niulad Camecina. viTomc araferi da, viRacam TiTqos kidev erTxel Semaxsena simartove. ra banaluria... ar maxsovs, ramden xans videqi ase. erTi is maxsovs, cno-bismoyvare bavSvi rom damidga win da interesiT mak-virdeboda. araferi uTqvams, idga da miyurebda... masac zRvisferi Tvalebi hqonda. zRvisferi Tvalebi da ulamazo, grZeli TiTebi... manqaniT viyavi. gezi im adgilisken aviRe, sadac siyvaruli saaTebiT izomeba da 30-dan 50 laramde meryeobs. aq Sen aravis adardeb. arc me madardebda vinme. aq yvelaferi muqi da bne-lia, yvela survili da yvela fiqri. feradi mxolod kupiurebia da gadRabnili saxeebi, romlebic Tavisken gepatiJebian. mZuls es xelovnuri, Seryvnili adgili; mZuls yvela misi maspinZelic, yvela stumaric. saku-Tari Tavic mZuls. da mainc, axla me aq var mxolod imi-sTvis, rom... ar vici, risTvis. an iqneb imisTvis, saku-Tari Tavis siZulvili gavamarTlo. roca SeniSnes, rom svla Sevanele da mzera maTken mivmarTe, gulisamrevi zlazvna gamarTes. dayenebuli manerebiT momiaxlovd-nen da yalbi seqsualurobiT damiwyes dakerva. „iaffa-siani~ _ ratomRac pirvelad am sityvam gamielva TavSi. iseTi SegrZneba mqonda, TiTqos sulma didi xania dato-va sxeuli da darCenili sicariele dampali saWmeliviT yarda. erTi ki davapire wasvla, Tumca arsad wavsul-var. arc imisTvis mimiqcevia yuradReba, vin ras ambobda, arc imisTvis, rogori gametebiT cdilobdnen Cems moxi-bvlas da rogor ejibrebodnen erTmaneTs. — dajeqi...

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dajda, fexi fexze gadaido, kaba maRla aiwia da SiSveli muxlebi damanaxa. mobilurSi TavCarguli TiTqos arc ki mamCnevda. manqana mkveTrad davamuxruWe da misken mivbrundi. gaxda daiwyo... — ucnauri adgili SearCie, magari xar! — gaicina da sigaretisgan gayviTlebuli kbilebi Tamamad gamoaCina. — Caicvi! gaognda. Tavis moS-vebul sxeuls daxeda, ukmayofilom daiwyo Cacma da im Tavis yviTel kbilebSi gamocra: — batono? — ubralod momismine! gTxov... gafarToebuli TvalebiT momaCerda, Tumca am TvalebSi mxolod erTi ram Canda _ gulgri-loba. Semdeg kaba muxlebze Camoiwia, uSinaarso mzera momapyro da damcinavad, odnav CaxleCili xmiT miTxra:

— gismen. axlaRa SevniSne, rom Rrma dekoltedan jvari mouCanda. erTxans ase vakvirdebodi. Cemi daJineb-uli mzeriT waxalisebulma kabaze ori Rili Seixsna da TvalebSi molodini Tu imedi Caudga.

— mimatoves... _ araferi uTqvams. mgoni, verc gaigo. — me dRes mimatoves! — Cemive aRiarebiT gaqezebulma, axla ufro omaxianad vTqvi saTqmeli. isev araferi uTq-vams. Tumca gagebiT amjerad namdvilad gaigo. TvalebSi raRac tkivilis msgavsi gaukrTa. raRac ambavi. CemTvis ucnobi... magram kargad nacnobi. uecrad mTeli sxeuliT SevigrZeni umweoba. mindoda, Sevbralebodi; mindoda, yvelas gaego Cemi sisuste. TiTqos erTianad gavuucx-ovdi sakuTar Tavs. mere majaze davixede. cotac da gavidoda is erTi saaTi, raSic 50 lari unda gadamexada. me mitovebaSi vixdidi larebs, is asjer gaxdil vnebas ixdida asmeerTed. axla dro iyo, mTeli Cemi damdable-buli Tavmoyvareoba erTianad amemaRlebina da samyaro

mimetovebina imis fiqriT, TiTqos uCemobiT raime daak-ldeboda. magram manamde es qali dauyovnebliv unda momeSorebina Tavidan. misi simsubuqe suls mimZimebda. im suls, romlis sanugeSod sul cota xnis win Tavad wamoviyvane. Cemi sityvebis Semrcxva. Semrcxva imisi, ris Tqmasac vapirebdi da risTvisac Cavisvi manqanaSi. ratom mtkioda ase Zalian, ratom? iqneb imitom, rom Cems tkivilSi gasamrjelo ar momiTxovia _ dawylulebul imedgacruebebze, daJangebul uimedobaze, daCirqebul siamayeze dasafenad. yvelaferi SeniT iwyeba, an didi molodiniT, anda gasulerTebuli tkivilebiT... moiT-mine, Senc gagisulerTdeba tkivilebi...

dResac maxsovs is dRe, sikvdilis bunagSi rom Sevi-pare da sikvdilis stvenas vusmendi, moxucis filtve-bidan amosuls... Tumca araferi SemeZlo. me mas aRar mivatoveb, Sen ki, ager ukve welze metia, arc ki ginax-avso _ momaZaxa gabutuli bavSvis xmiT sikvdilma da warmovidgine, rogor amomxeda niSnis mogebiT. TiTqos isic davinaxe, rogor gadmoubrunda qveda tuCi da mere isev Caimala moxucis sasuleSi. sunze vicani. aseTi suni adrec vigrZeni, pirvelad ar veswrebodi aRsasruls. dadis Turme mxarze maradisobagadakidebuli, TeT-ri carciT da cxvirebze niSnavs momakvdavebs, rom ar daaviwydes maTi wayvana. adre miTxres _ cxviris wveri rom gauTeTrdeba sneuls, didi-didi or Rames Tu gaa-tanso. zustad or saaTSi waiyvana moxuci...

maSin marto ar vyofilvar da mainc, miuxedavad imisa, rom vicodi TeTrnacrisferi zewris qveS imale-boda, ar gamicia, aravisTan damibezRebia. arc Cems Tan-

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mxlebTan da arc TeTrxalaTianebTan, romlebsac adre Tu gvian TeTri carciT aseve dauTxupnida cxvirebs. ai, TviTon ki yovelTvis xmauriT ijaxunebs kars. da mainc, ar meguleba araferi masze erTguli! is ar miga-tovebs, sul masTan iqnebi da gulsac aRar gatkens. an ki, rogorRa getkineba, is rac ukve amogglija da miwas miugdo sajijgnad. — is arasdros mimatovebs, — aRmomx-da Cemdauneburad da iseTi grZnoba dameufla, TiTqos faqtze mivuswari samyaros, TiTqos Sansi aRar davu-tove. axla veRaravin SemaSinebda am uwyinari aRsas-ruliT, romelic Cvens warmodgenaSi Savi mantiiTa da celiT, udides borotmoqmedad gvevlineba, — is aras-dros mimatovebs... — kidev erTxel aRmomxda da Cemi aRmoCeniT gaqezebulma erTic SevukurTxe sicocxles: — veRar gamacureb, Se axvaro!!! Rrmad mwamda _ sicocxle satusaRoa, romelic gvaiZulebs, mis borot zraxvebs vemsaxuroT. gvaiZulebs, rom gvZuldes, gviyvardes, vejibrebodeT, gvSurdes, vexmarebodeT, vvnebdeT, vtk-endeT... da isic ar vicodeT, am yvelafers risTvis Cav-divarT. TviTon ki, Tavissave SeTiTxnil uamrav mizezs gvadebs borkilebad, raTa gaamarTlos Cveni arseboba.

sicocxle is satusaRoa, romlis yvela sarkmeli amouqolavT uamravi debulebiTa Tu mosazrebiT, imis Sesaxeb, rom sicocxle yvelaze didi saCuqaria, rom is mxolod erTxel gveZleva, rom mas Tvalis CiniviT unda movufrTxildeT... sruli marazmi! mainc risTvis? bolo amosunTqvis SiSis gasamarTleblad am kiTxvas miliono-biT pasuxi mouZebnes laCrebma da mxdalma ugunurebma. me aRar meSinoda. axla ukve vicodi, sadac viyavi. isic

vicodi, rom am daxuruli sivrcis miRma, usasruloba melodeboda. vicodi rom, Tavisuflebac, maradiso-bac da usasrulobac arsebobda, oRond aq ara... aramed iq... iq, sadRac am satusaRos kedlebis miRma. ucbad saocrad didi sibraluli vigrZeni ugunuri adamiane-bis mimarT, romlebic mTel dros WianWvelebiviT fus-fusSi, arsebobis gaxangrZlivebaSi xarjaven da aRar cdiloben miakvlion WeSmaritebas. tkivili jer gone-bas gvibindavs, Zalas gvarTmevs, Semdeg ki imas dagva-naxebs, rac aqamde efemeruli iyo. erTaderTi, rasac axla vgrZnobdi, iyo siamaye. siamaye da mouTmenloba. mindoda, Cemi aRmoCenisTvis xorci Semesxa da rac Sei-Zleba male gavclodi satusaRos. Rrmad viyavi darwmu-nebuli _ cxovrebis mTavari amocana sikvdilis povnaa. swori sikvdilis povna. SiSis daZleva! gamarjvebulic is iqneba, vinc ufro male miakvlevs mas, vinc ufro male amoxsnis mis raobas. axla mas Savi mantia moex-sna. idga da miRimoda. wveri gaeparsa. jinsi da TeTri perangi ecva. — gixdeba, Zmao... rom icode, raebs amboben Senze... magar zmanze xar! — Tvali Cavukari. — gmadlob, Senc ara giSavs... oRond, Tu Zma xar, gamagebine, im qals ras erCodi! Tavqudmoglejili garboda. giJi egone, — miTxra da gaicina. axlaRa gamaxsenda im qalis arseboba. verc ki SevamCnie, rogor wavida. mec gavicine — mowev? — sigaras bolo moakvnita, gamomiwoda da Tavadac gaab-ola. instinqturad gamovarTvi. dRes ukve meored Cems sicocxleSi, veweodi... Cems sicocxleSi...

videqiT uxmod da udardelad erTmaneTis gver-digverd, cali fexiT kedels mibjenilebi. arasdros

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vyofilvar aseTi mSvidi. — isev gtkiva? — mgoni, aRar. — ase male daiviwye? — me ki. ai, TviTon ki, vnaxoT, rogor apatiebs sakuTar Tavs, am ambavs rom gaigebs, — Camecina, — damanaxe, Tu Zma xar, ra reaqcia eqneba. pasuxi ar gaucia... Rrmad amoisunTqa filtvebSi Cagubebuli Tam-baqos kvamli, sigaris namwvi Zirs daagdo, fexiT gasrisa da svla ganagrZo. uxmod gavyevi. mxrebSi gamarTuli mivyvebodi. didi, amayi nabijebiT. — ise magari vinmea eg Seni zRvisferTvaleba, Tu rogor eZaxi? mkerdic kargi aqvs, fexebic... marto ar darCeba... ginda gayure-bino xolme? hahaha... aq meti saqme arc geqneba, ijeqi da uyure, Tan nerwyvebi ylape. ra iyo, biWo, ra saxe Segecvala! — sibralulnarevi ironiiT miyurebda da rac metad metyoboda saxeze gabrazeba, miT ufro xma-maRla icinoda. — wkap. esec ase! vecade, rac SeiZleboda male momeSorebina cxviridan carci... ver movaswari. — hahahaha! ginda, giTxra axla ra moxdeba? anda, ara... Sen TviTon naxav! Zuknaa, namdvili Zukna eg Seni TiTebdagr-exili da iqamde iqneba am pozaSi, sanam, ai, ase ar vuzam _ wkap! — xelis erTi moZraobiT isev gamiTeTra cxviri. — Se axvaro! _ vcade muSti momeqnia da veRar vgrZnobdi xelebs. mindoda, damexrCo; mindoda, gamovfxizlebuli-yavi; mindoda, mebrZola imisTvis, rac sul ramdenime wuTis win satusaRod mimaCnda.

— hahahahahaha! gaismoda isteriuli sicili. esec ase! agonia... me vekuTnodi miwas, romelzec davmTavrdi... me vekuTnodi maradisobas, romelic kargs arafers mpird-eboda... me vekuTnodi miwas da arc ise didi xnis Semdeg me Tavadac gavmiwdebodi... me vekuTnodi mogonebebs,

romlebic erT qariSxalad gadaivlida da Zalian male damTavrdeboda... me vekuTnodi JamTasvlas, romelic uCemod gaagrZelebda dedamiwis trials... me vekuT-nodi sikvdils, romelic TviTon „davimegobre~. me maT vekuTnodi. da aRar vekuTnodi sakuTar Tavs. — Rmer-Tooo, RmerToooo, RmerToooo!.. _ vyvirodi gamete-biT da TiToeul bgeras arsebobis jer kidev SerCenil nafleTebs vatandi. aRaravis esmoda Cemi. sicocxles cxvirwin mivujaxune kari da TviTmkvlelobis saketiT Cavraze. — RmerTooooo... iyo dumili da aRar viyavi me. — xxxxrrr, xxxxrrr, xrrr... roca vigrZeni, rom gulis sarqvelebi sinqronulad SeikumSa da aRar tokavda, erTxel ki damiara tanSi, an iqneb sulSic da... sxeu-liT veRarafers vgrZnobdi... — xrrrrrrrr... — esec bolo amosunTqva, aRar meSinoda misi. — tixari moi-taneT! axla ki sabolood davrwmundi. tixari swored am dros moaqvT xolme, rom axali micvalebuliT sxva pacientebi ar daizafron! TeTrxalaTianma fexebsa da ybaze dolbandi Semomaxvia. axla Tvalebi unda daexuWa CemTvis. wamieri sibraluliT damacqerda. masac zRvis-feri Tvalebi hqonda... Semdeg vigrZeni, rogor Seexo Cems jerac siTboSerCenil quTuToebs uswormasworo, grZeli TiTebi. axla mxolod vgrZnobdi,

veRar vxedavdi. Tbili xelebi Cems civ sxeuls veRar aTbobda. TiTebdagrexili... zRvisferTvaleba.

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damasvene

is kaci, romelic am ambavs miyveboda ase ambobda xolme: sikvdils Cven veZaxiT Torem mas, sinamdvileSi `damasvene~ hqviao.

daberda gogiac, Tavisi darguli kakaliviT dae-grixa xel-fexi. tkiviliT araferi stkiebia, ubralod jani moecala da mocvda.

sikvdilis maSinac eSinoda, roca mariamobas saydar-Tan Cxubobda, anda yeinobisas, roca axaldaqorwinebul nefes yeinTan erTad yinulian wyalSi agdebda. patio-sani iyo da rogorc yvela glexi cota _ Tvalviwroc. meveled muSaobisas dalTveli qvrivi qali dauWeria. Rims krefda axlad aRerebul qeris yanaSi.

SimSilis dro iyo da SiSis. erTi Zna TavTavis gamo Tbilisisken mimaval gzaze, wiTel kedlebTan xvretdnen xalxs. Sevedrebia is qali, oRond nu damasmen da orSa-

daTia badalaSvili

saqarTvelos teqnikuri universiteti

baTs amoval da mogcemo. lamazi qali yofila Tvalm-isavali. gogia ki ambobda, is qali orSabaTs melodeba, me ki samSabaTs avedio. dausmenia mainc is qali.

siberisas gogiam ifiqra, rom sikvdilTan axlos yofna, misdami SiSs daaviwyebinebda. qelexebSi mza-reuloba daiwyo. xan umlaSdeboda da xan umwardeboda, ar iyo misi saqme. mTvrali da SiSgadavlili garecxavda masaTs, danebs da iwyebda trabaxs: amaze orjer didi sofeli gaRmaa, saydris gverdze wevs, amaTgan naxevarze meti Cems qafqirqveS aris gavlilio.

axla, roca sikvdili karTan aetuza, SeeSinda, ise SeeSinda, rogorc Wreli gvelis danaxvisas eSiniaT xolme. mosvloda rigi.

sanaxavad misuls mTxovao, yveboda is kaci: SuadRiT rom amasvenebT sasaflaoze, saRamos ukan CamomasveneT, imaTTan marto nu damtovebTo. im RamiT martma bzobas mecxre TeTri kaba Caicva. gogias eZina da xedavda siz-mars. sizmarSi imaT xedavda, visac manamde saydris goraze gzavnida.

xedavda Salikos, iseTs ki ara bolos rom iyo. RamRa-mobiT roca Wamas daamTavrebda, proTezs enis wklapu-niT galokavda da naTal WiqaSi debda. tkivilebisgan gamwarebuli ambobda, Tavs marto imitom ar iklavda, rom Svilebi uSlidnen, jojoxeTSi moxvdebio. Tumca misTvis jojoxeTi ukve karga xania damdgariyo. noembris erT JinJRlian dilas auRrinda Salikos guli, zizRiT gadaxeda Sardisgan CayviTlebul logins, kedelTan mwoliare uSfoTvelad mZinare cols, skamze dabjenili aivanze gamoxda da TaviT gadmoeSva qvis kibeze. gogia

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ki mas sizmarSi axalgazrdas xedavda, iseTs rogorsac mas TanamebrZolebi mTis arwivs eZaxdnen simamacis da silamazis gamo.

gogias ZilSi erTi gasizmreba gaaxsenda rom, mis qelexSi lobio qvabze miewva.

naxa gogiam lamarac. Svili, rom eZaxda, bozi xaro da lamarasac, dardisa da cremlisgan amoSretoda Tvalebi. gogia mas axla kaloze xedavda, Tivis zvins amofarebuls. Tbili mze anaTebda da moTibuli bal-axis suni idga. albaT mTvral qmars emalebao, gaifiqra gogiam sizmarSi. Silaflavi daumlaSda mis qelexSi.

naxa TavTixac, gamoTxrili hqonda ukve Tvali. Svils abralebda Tvalis dakargvas. iwva TavTixa xavs-gadavlil patara saflavis gverdiT, romelsac ewera: wavel umanko.

kidev bevri Tavisi damarxuli naxa Tovlian bzoba Rames gogiam sizmarSi.

me ki vnaxeo amatebda is kaci, gogia fiWvis kuboSi mwoliare. mSvidi hqondao saxe, magram sulac ar iyoo es, cuds Seguebuli kacis simSvide.

Cemi saxli

darwmunebuli var, yvela gogonas erTxel mainc ufiqria im dReze, roca sakuTari saxlis datoveba mou-wevs. yvelas ufiqria, ras igrZnobs roca saxlidan wava, gadava sxva saxlSi, romelsac Tavis saxls uwodebs. bev-rjer msmenia qalebisgan, rom imdenad mieCvivnen Tavis `axal sacxovrebels~, bavSvobis saxlze metad mSvidad grZnoben Tavs, albaT me axla ver warmomidgenia Torem momavalSi mec ase vityvi.

xval Cems cxovrebaSi yvelaze mniSvnelovani dRea, Cemi qorwilia. dRe, romelzec yvelaze metad vocne-bobdi, magram gulSi raRac tkivils vgrZnob. gana imi-tom, rom Cemi momavali qmari ar miyvars?! ara cdebiT, yvelaze metad miyvars da masac vuyvarvar, magram Cemi gulistkivilis mizezi Cemi saxlia da is adamianebi rom-lebic iq mrCeba, saxlSi, sadac Cemi cxovrebis sauke-Teso da yvelaze bednieri wlebi maqvs gatarebuli. xo,

maia abulaZe

baTumis SoTa rusTavelis saxelobis saxelmwifo universiteti

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imaze mtkiva guli, rom vtoveb `Cems saxls~ da gad-avdivar `Cvens saxlSi~. vici, iq Cemi cxovreba unda Sevqmna, isic vici, rom Zalian Zvirfasi gaxdeba CemTvis, magram ra moxdeba, roca momenatreba saxli, romelSic gavizarde?! yvelaze rTuli gadasatani CemTvis albaT is momenti iqneba, roca `sakuTar saxlSi~ stumariviT momiwevs misvla, mxolod ramdenime dRiT meqneba dar-Cenis ufleba, miuxedavad imisa, rom sasurveli stumari viqnebi. albaT fiqrobT, rom ucnauri gogo var, imis nacvlad rom qorwilis Rameze inerviulos, zis aq da imaze moTqvams, rom saxlis datoveba uwevso. me bevrjer gamomicdia, ras niSnavs saxlis Secvla, axal garemosTan Segueba, magram es didxniani gadasvlaa. ukanasknelad vavleb sakuTar saxls Tvals da vcdilob misi surneli Rrmad CavuSva filtvebSi, raTa didi xani gamyves. ise var TiTqos raRac nawils maWrian. suli mexuTeba da vxvdebi, rom axla Tu ar gaval gareT tiriliT gavskde-bi da gavafuWeb CemTvis yvelaze lamaz dRes. Cemi moma-vali qmari TiTqos mamCnevs, bolomde rom ar var bedn-ieri da ise miRimis, wamiT yvelaferi maviwydeba.

Cemi `axali saxlis~ karebTan vdgavar da meRimeba, mxolod imitom, rom ar minda am saxlSi cud xasiaTze myofma Sevdga pirveli nabiji, roca fexis Sedgmas vapireb Cemi qmari maCerebs da xelSi ayvanili Sevyavar. Tvals vavleb ukve Cems saxls da Cemi saZineblisken miv-divar, Cems qmarTan erTad, Cems sawolSi rom davwve. ramdeni `Cems~ iyo ara?! xo, bevri iyo. imitom, rom sak-uTar Tavs davexmaro imaSi, rom gaiazros _ es ukve Cemi saxlia.

dRe pirveli.viRviZeb. vuyureb Cem gverdiT mZinare mamakacs

da bednieri var, nela vkocni, mis perangs virgeb da samzareuloSi gavdivar. aq yvelaferi sxvanairia, aq ise araferi alagia rogorc deda alagebda, kvercx-isTvis saWiro jamis moZebnas TiTqmis oc wuTs vando-meb, rogorc iqna karadebis da ujrebis gaRebis Semdeg vpoulob, axla tafas veZeb, weRan romeliRac karadaSi davinaxe da ukve aRar maxsovs…mxolod kvercxis Sew-vas vandomeb erT saaTs, saqmeSi garTuli verc ki vamC-nev rogor miaxlovdeba zurgidan Cemi qmari da albaT Cemi sacodaobis yurebiT daRlili mexmareba Cais pak-etis CamoRebaSi. gabusxuli vbrundebi misken, cotac da bolo xmaze avtirdebi Cemi mouxerxeblobis gamo, sakuTar qmars normalurad sauzmec ki ver movumzade. is uTqmelad xvdeba yvelafers da magrad mexveva, Tan gabutul tuCebze mkocnis.

- gpirdebi xelosans moviyvan da Taroebs dabla davawevineb an me agiyvan xolme xelSi, Tu rames ver miwvdebi. - yvelaze kargi ram miTxra, riTic qmars Seu-Zlia colis gamxneveba, romelic axal saxls egueba. suleli kaci, sul xumrobis xasiaTzea.

- me veraferi ver vipove. didi xani damWirda kver-cxis Sesawvavad da Senc gagaRviZe.

- isev gabusxuli velaparakebi, is ki suleliviT iRimis.

- nu iqcevi patara bavSviviT... ai, naxav Zalian male iswavli yvelafers, axla ki kvercxi vWamoT Torem gacivdeba.

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- me diliT mxolod Cais vsvam. - egre ar gamova, iqneb mwamlavs Seni Semwvari kver-

cxi? midi, jer Sen SeWame. kvercxs iRebs da ZaliT maW-mevs, vxvdebi, rom cdilobs damexmaros axal garemosTan SeguebaSi. araerTxel gausinjavs mas Cemi gakeTebuli saWmeli da isic icis, rom SesaniSnavi mzareuli var.

Cemi nivTebis amolagebis dro rom modis, kidev erTxel vgrZnob gulSi Cum tkivils. nela valageb d adakecil tansacmels jer sawolze vawyob.

- ise nela alageb mgonia rom ar ginda bargis amo-lageba da saxlSi ginda dabruneba.

- yelSi burTi meCxireba da vxvdebi axla Tu ar vety-vi mas Cemi grZnobebis Sesaxeb, gamova rom urTierToba ar daviwyendobiT.

- ici, Cemi saxli menatreba, deda, mama, Cemi da-Zma menatreba. - jer gaocebuli saxiT miyurebs mere mzera ecvleba da ukve TanagrZnobiT miaxlovdeba.

- damijere, vici ra rTulia ojaxisgan Sors yofna, magram me aq var da dagexmarebi rom Cveni saxli Zalian Segiyvardes. vuRimi da karadisken mivdivar, vaReb kar-ebs da vxedav rogor dauTmia CemTvis karadis naxevari.gulSi imdenad didi bedniereba igubebs, rom mgonia ver daitevs da gamiskdeba. Cemi nivTebis iq dalagebiT vxvdebi, rom pirveli nabijiRa gadavdgi... saRamos vax-Smis momzadebisas CemTan erTad aris samzareuloSi da mexmareba gavigo, ra, sad devs.

dRe meore.viRviZeb da sawolis meore mxare carieli mxvde-

ba. SiSi mipyrobs, magram samzareulodan iseTi suni

gamodis, yvelaferi wamSi maviwydeba... TmaaburZgnuli, mokle Ramis perangSi gamowyobili, fexSiSveli viparebi samzareuloSi da zurgidan vexutebi Cems qmars, axla is aris gabusxuli, zustad ise, rogorc me viyavi guSin da laparaks iwyebs.

- mec veraferi ver vipove. didi xani damWirda ̀ yiyli-yoebis~ mosamzadeblad da Tan gagaRviZe. - ise sayvar-lad abrunebs tuCebs, rom wamSi viwevi fexis cerebze da vkocni, uceb miSorebs da isev burtyuns iwyebs. - au, rogor damewva... sul Seni bralia ra, Tavbrus maxvev. - mecineba da isev Cais paketis CamoRebas vcdilob, ram-denjerme vxtebi maRla, magram ver vwvdebi.

- skamis arsebobis Sesaxeb araferi ici, colo? Rim-iliT damyurebs zemodan.

- da Sen ar ici, rom kunTebs varjiSi Wirdeba? -war-bis aweviT vepasuxebi da TvalebSi vuyureb.

- wamodi sawolSi da vavarjiSod kunTebi, Tu fiqrob, rom movdundi.

mis naTqvamze vwiTldebi da civi ofli masxams, xelis gulebs perangze viwmend da gasvlas vapireb. uceb haerSi viwevi. - midi, CamoiRe rac ginda. Cais viReb da vuyureb rodis damsvams. nela Camomasriala, perangi zemoT darCa da sacvali gamomiCnda romelic TiTqmis arafers mifaravda. isev gavwiTldi, saxeze wamomaxura da Tavis daRweva vcade. Cemken daixara, Tma ukan gadami-wia da yelze makoca.

- arasodes Segrcxves Cemi, me Seni qmari var, romel-mac Seni sxeuli sakuTarze ukeT icis.

dRe mesame.

86 debiuti 87proza

diliT xilis Cais gemrieli surneli miRutunebs cxvirSi da meRviZeba. Cemi qmari Tmaze mefereba da Cemi Zilis yurebiT tkbeba.

- angelozs gavxar, roca gZinavs.- da rom viRviZeb, rqebi amomdis? - interesiT

vekiTxebi da vxedav, rom saxe ecvleba.- me eg ar migulisxmia... ibneva... vgiJdebi mis dabneul saxeze, simarTle

giTxraT, ori weli xSirad vabnevdi xolme. kaSkaSa Taflisfer Tvalebs aqeT-iqeT rom acecebda. nikaps xeliT vuWer da vkocni. Cems eSmakobas xvdeba da sxar-tad mpasuxobs. - ise eSmakic odesRac angelozi iyo. - baliSs vuqnev da tumboze dadebul Cais viReb, radgan vici, Tu Cai meqneba xelSi, baliSs ar mesvris.

dRe meoTxe.isev Cumad vkocni Cems qmars da samzareloSi vipare-

bi... amjeradac cota miWirs, magram ukve TiTqmis vis-wavle ra sad devs da uxmaurod vumzadeb qmars sauzmes. ukve veCvevi axal saxls da miyvardeba, magram mainc menatreba Zveli saxli...

dRe meTxuTmete,tradicias arc axla varRvev Cems qmars nela vkocni

Cumad vdgebi da mis perangs viReb karadidan. vauToveb da sawolTan vutoveb. vcdilob, araferi gamomrCes, rac samsaxurSi dasWirdeba. ukve Cacmuli da gamzade-buli Cemi qmari Semodis samzareuloSi da naCqarevad sauzmobs wasvlamde ar aviwydeba kocna, daxurul kar-ebTan vdgavar da vacnobiereb, rom dRes me pirvelad davrCi marto saxlSi. Tavidan vfiqrob ra gavakeTo,

Tavs xan wignis kiTxviT virTob, xan televizoris yure-biT. magram esec rom mbezrdeba samzareulos dalagebas viwyeb, _ gana rames adgils vucvli?! ara, ise miveCvie ukve yvelafers rom ar minda rames adgili Sevucvalo. es saxli Zalian miyvars, radgan vici saRamos me da Cemi qmari isev erTad davsxdebiT filmis sayureblad.

dRe oTxmocdameaTe.bevrjer miocnebia Cems saxlze, qmarTan erTad rom

Sevqmnidi da bednierebiT avavsebdi, es saxli zustad iseTia, rogoric Cems ocnebebSi warmomedgina - patara da myudro. dRes mSobliur saxlSi mivdivar. gasvlamde aTasjer vamowmeb, rame xom ar damrCa CarTuli. yve-lafers Tvals vavleb da gavdivar. mSoblebis saxlSi misuls ar masvenebs `Cems saxlze~ dardi, SegrZneba maqvs, rom raRac CarTuli damrCa. sirbiliT avdivar mesame sarTulze, kargs vaReb da roca Cemi saxlis sur-nels visunTqav - vmSviddebi.

dRe asmexuTe.pirvelad Semeqmna seriozuli problema, saabazano-

Si mili gaskda da mTeli saxli venecias daamsgavsa. rac SemiZlia swrafad vketav wyals mTel binaSi da vcdilob iataki gavamSralo, mTeli ZaliT vcdilob, rom viCqaro da araferi gavafuWo. meSinia Cems saxls araferi mou-vides, RmerTis wyalobiT qveda mezobelTan wyali ar Casula gadavrCi, akankalebuli xmiT vurekav Cems qmars da vTxov, rom saxlSi Cqara movides. oc wuTSi aqoSineb-uli Semorbis saxlSi, mTeli saxe waSlili aqvs.

- ra moxda, ra xma gqonda?! - Cemsken modis da mamow-mebs, rame xom ar vitkine.

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- kargad xar?- mili gaskda saabazanoSi da Cveni saxli daitbora.

tirils viwyeb da vexutebi, Tmaze mefereba, Tan vgrZnob rogor ecineba.

- ra patara xar, gogo, milis gaxeTqvis gamo ra gat-irebs?

- milis gamo ki ara, Cveni saxli rom gafuWda, imis gamo vtiri!.. vibutebi da cremlebs xelis zurgiT viwmend. isev mixutebs.

- gpirdebi, male gavaremonteb, xvalve moviyvan xelosans.

- o, tyuilad nu mpirdebi, Sen rac davqorwindiT mas Semdeg mpirdebi egre, rom xelosans karadas cota dabla daakidebineb, magram ar Semisrule. Cemi naTqvami amxiarulebs da gulianad icinis.

- amjerad marTla gpidebi. - Cveni saxli xom isev iseTi iqneba?- gpirdebi, Cemo farvana, rom isev iseTi iqneba Cveni

saxli, romelic Sen ase giyvars.dRe asmeoTxmoce.dilidan saSineli gulisreva mawuxebs, winaswar nay-

id tests vimarjveb da saabazanoSi Sevdivar. profe-sionalurad vikeTeb tests da pasuxs velodebi, ukve imdenjer gamicruvda imedi, rom aRar mgonia ori xazi Tu aenTeba. gagikvirdebaT, jer mxolod eqvsi Tvea, rac gaTxovdi da rodis moaswario, magram me pirveli Tvi-dan testiT xelSi davrbivar mTel saxlSi. ise Zalian minda Cemi saxli bavSvis RurRulma gamoafxizlos, rom ukve SeSlils vgavar. tests xelSi viReb da rogorc ki

or xazs vamCnev isteriuli tirili mitydeba bedniere-bisgan. cota gons rom movdivar, Cems qmars vurekav.

- sad xar? - kargad xar? isic kiTxviT mpasuxobs, Tan SeSineb-

uli xmiT.- ki, Zalian kargad, SegiZlia saxlSi moxvide?- axlave movdivar.saxlSi isev SeSinebuli Semorbis, Cem win dgeba, Tan

ucnaurad makvirdeba.- axla ra gafuWda Cvens saxlSim, ris gamo itire? me xmas ver viReb, radgan vici, isev ametireba. patara

konverts vawvdi da vakvirdebi rogor iRebs testTan erTad furcels warweriT: `gviyvarxar mamiko~, weri-lis wakiTxvisas saocrad ubrwyindeba Tvalebi, iseTi kaSkaSa uxdeba rogorc arasdros. arc yviris, arc xel-Si miyvans da mafrialebs. ubralod dgas da miyurebs, araamqveyniuri TvalebiT, TvalebiT, romlis gamo Cemi dabadeba qalad Rirda.

es ukve namdvilad Cemi saxlia da is yvelaze sauke-Tesoa dedamiwaze.

90 debiuti 91proza

Tiko krawaSvili, `burusi~, tilo,Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia

10 wami

muxlebze vdgavar sasaflaos karis win, ukan Sekru-li xelebiT da vxvdebi, rom sikvdilamde cota dro mrCeba. Cem win, jibegamoxeuli da daZonZilSarvliani 20 wlis biWi dgas, romelsac xelSi Cemi iaraRi uWiravs da lula Cems SublTan aqvs gasworebuli. erTmaneTs ar vicnobT. SeiZleba es ambavi didad ganmecada sax-lSi coli an Svili rom melodebodes, magram me arc coli myavs da arc Wyipina bavSvebi, romlebic nevrozs amkidebdnen. yvelasgan daviwyebuli kaci var da yvela daviwyebulia Cemgan. me aravin var, asec mqvia _

a r a v i n!cxrara Tqma unda, vici ramdeni wami damrCa sikvdilamde

_ cxra. albaT gainteresebT kidec, ratom var axla aq, ratom maqvs Sekruli xelebi da ratom aqvs ucxo batons Cemi iaraRi Cemive winaaRmdeg. Tqveni azri ar mainter-esebs, amas me mainc movyvebi. sikvdilis win minda yve-

giorgi logua(erke midasi)

saqarTvelos teqnikuri universiteti

92 debiuti 93proza

laferi vTqva, ramac Cemi cxovreba ase Tavdayira daay-ena, Tqven ki mogiwevT amis mosmena.

rvame mqvia aravin, var 30 wlis. bavSvoba udardeli da

tkbili namdvilad ar mqonia, dedaCemi Cemi gaCenidan ori wlis Semdeg gardaicvala, rogorc miTxres me movkali. nerviulobas gadahyva. mamaCemi ki 9 wlis viyavi, roca bevri smisgan mokvda, Tu amas sasmels davabralebT. mTvralma Tavisi sayvareli iaraRiT Tavi moikla. bavS-vobis ocnebebi gamiuferulda, warmosaxvaSi aSenebuli sasaxle damengra da virwmune, rom momavali arcTu ise kargi meqneboda. ver vityodi, rom Cems cxovrebas bed-nierad, sayvareli qalis kalTaSi davasrulebdi. me xom aravin viyavi, maSasadame Cemi adgili aq ar iyo.

Svidivxedavdi Cem irgvliv, rogor icvleboda garemo.

xeebs foTlebi scviodaT da gayviTlebulebi miwaSi imalebodnen. Semdeg vxedavdi rogor izrdeboda tote-bze nel-nela mwvaned Seferili Reroebi da Semdeg xee-bze Citebic ikeTebdnen budeebs. da ase dausruleblad. Tavs varidebdi yovel suliers. am uzarmazar plan-etaze martodmarto davrCi, aravin myavda, saerTod aravin. mamaCemma sikvdilis win rac miTxra, yvelaferi kargad damamaxsovrda da dResac ki TavSi mitrialebs is sityvebi. Cems win idga, iaraRs xelSi atrialebda, barbacebda da meubneboda. _ „Sen mokali dedaSeni, Sen iyavi misTvis satanjveli da mas Sen mouRe boloo~. mere Tofis lula pirTan miitana da isrola. mis ukan

kedeli wiTlad SeiReba da aman saaRdgomo kvercxi gamax-sena. yvelas da yvelafers gavecale, mamaCemis iaraRi, romelic ase Zalian uyvarda sul Tan damqonda. wlebis ganmavlobaSi quCaSi vaTevdi Rames da iaraRis gamo iyo, rom mSvidad meZina, Tumca wlebis mere amomitivtivda gonebaSi kvlav Zveli Wriloba. yvelafers sxva TvaliT Sevxede da cxovreba axlidan daviwye. iseTi SegrZneba mqonda, rogorc genioss, roca axali idea daebadeba TavSi. mxolod erTi mWidi mqonda, romelSic 16 tyvia eteoda, magram mamaCemis sikvdilis Semdeg 15 iyo dar-Cenili. Tavs daculad vgrZnobdi, roca is xelSi meWira an CanTaSi mqonda damaluli da masze Tavi medo.

eqvsiCemi pirveli msxverplis saxeli arc vici. arc dav-

interesebulvar. maSin Semomakvda, roca iaraRis warT-mevas cdilobda. policieli iyo, magram veravin dainaxa, rom movkali. quCis bnel kuTxemde msdia da iaraRs sta-ca xeli, magram ar miveci, ver wamarTva. gavisrole da axlac maxsovs, im sisxlis gemo, romelic saxeze Semesxa da tuCebamde Camovida. maSin Tormeti wlis viyavi da pirvelad gavige Zalauflebis fasi. xma SeiZleba vinmem gaigo, magram sanam dasaxmareblad movidodnen me ukve iq aRar viyavi.

fuls martivad vSoulobdi iaraRis daxmarebiT. verc warmoidgenT, rogor eSinia xalxs misi. ase daviwye im iaraRis Cems sasikeTod gamoyeneba. aRar miwevda mTeli dRe SimSiloba, gareT Txeli tansacmliT daZineba. Cemma cxovrebam azri SeiZina, Tumca yvelasTvis isev aravin

94 debiuti 95proza

viyavi. meore msxverpli maSin movkali, roca policiaSi dabezRebiT damemuqra. sruliad gaazrebulad vesrole TavSi da sisxlis danaxvaze siamovnebisgan Jruantelma damiara. me, rogorc yovelTvis mivimale, saxeli ki ar vicodi. SiSis kvalic ar metyoboda saxeze da SemeZlo xalxis yuradReba ar mimeqcia. isini verc mamCnevdnen, es TavisTavad niWia. erTxel ki sami SeZlebulad Cac-muli axalgazrda gogo davinaxe. es im ambidan ramdenime wlis Semdeg moxda, roca 24 wlis viyavi da isev quCaSi vcxovrobdi. cdunebam mZlia da maTTan miviWeri, iaraRi Cumad davanaxe, xalxi maincdamainc bevri ar trialeb-da. aqa-iq Tu gamoCndebodnen da kvlav qrebodnen quCis kuTxeSi. Tavidan winaaRmdegoba ar gauweviaT, memor-Cilebodnen magram erT-erTma iaraRs mokida xeli, maS-inve gavisrole. amas kidev orjer gasrola mohyva da me ZvirfaseulobebiT da fuliT maSinve gavecale iqau-robas. kargia, roca veravin gamCnevs, sisxli mwyuroda da momwonda kidec, rom ar memorCilebodnen. umizezod, mxolod erTaderTxel vesrole WaRara kacs, romelic koWlobiT midioda gzaze. mainteresebda, ra moxdebo-da, roca gavisrodi. vxvdebodi ra iRbliani viyavi da gavriske, zurgiT mimavals vesrole. Sori manZilidan erTi avacile, xolo meore zustad moxvda da Zirs gag-orda. amas manqanebis swrafi gaCereba mohyva, erTmaneTs Seejaxnen kidec, ginebac gavigone. maT ki ar moikiTxes is, vinc gaisrola, tyviis gavardnis xmas maSinve icnob, magram maT yuradRebac ar miuqceviaT amisTvis. adami-anebi xandaxan rogori brmebi arian.

xuTiiaraRi, mxolod imisTvis ar myofnida rom xalxi

SemeSinebina da amiT gameZarcva. mixdeboda adamianebis xocva, me ki isev ucnob mkvlelad vrCebodi, romelzec aravin araferi icoda.

oTxies TamaSi ar iyo, ufro gadarCenisTvis brZolas

hgavda. iaraRiT Tavi ubralo maTxovari biWi ki ara, RmerTi megona. RmerTi, romelic Tavis misias asrulebs da wyvets, vin icocxlebs da vin mokvdeba. Tavi uCinar-ic ki megona, radgan SeeZloT aqamde daveWire policias da amdeni mkvdaric aRar iqneboda, magram ver mamCneven, me xom aravin var. cxovreba iaraRma maswavla, quCaSi amdenxans ver gaZleb, aq sastiki kanonebia da Tu ar moerge imaze male gaqrebi samyarodan, vidre warmogid-genia. SeiZleba Cemze malec.

samime mkvleli var, me adamianebi davxoce, rogorc

qalebi ise kacebi. guSin bavSvebis mokvla momiwia, ara Tavs ar vimarTleb, magram sxva gza ar mqonda. isini, erT dros rom vuyurebdi mamaCemis sikvdils, swored im asakSi iyvnen. ar vityvi im gacveTil sityvas, rom me vnanob rac Cavidine. ar vnanob, amas siamovnebiT vakeTebdi. axla ki imave situaciaSi var, rogorSic iyvnen isini, an nebismieri sxva vinme maT adgilas. bavS-vebamdec movkali erTi ulamazesi gogo. sicocxliT savse, vnebiani gamoxedva, vardisferi tuCebi da cis-feri Tvalebi. marTla Zalian lamazi iyo, magram ar

96 debiuti 97proza

meyo Zala SemeCerebina misi mokvlis surviliT Sepyro-bili Cemi meore me.

origuSin pirvelad gavige sxvisi daxmarebis fasi. da

rasac vnanob, swored misTvis gawvdili daxmarebis xelia. quCaSi maTxovari davinaxe da misi daxmareba gadavwyvite, daZonZili Sarvali ecva da sul WuWyiani iyo, TiTqos talaxSi igorava. ratom mominda misi dax-mareba ar vici, etyoba Cemi Tavi davinaxe masSi. bevri fuli miveci da gverdze davujeqi kargad gasacnobad. Rame iyo, Zili mereoda da mec daviZine. diliT sasa-flaos karTan gamoviRviZe, xelebSekruli viyavi. mux-lebze damayena da iaraRi momiSvira. me var damnaSave. me davuSvi Secdoma, am qveyanaze adamians vende. axla sikvdils vuyureb TvalebSi, magram ar meSinia. iciT, ratom? vici, rom iaraRSi tyvia aRar devs.

erTi.

daurgvel xeTa CrdilebSi

vcdilob, tyis bilikze zant, erTmaneTSi gadax-larTul nislebs xelidan gavusxlte, mZuls es tye da am nislebTan Cemi daaxloebis dRec. aRsareba minda CagabaroT-meTqi _ anaforians vuTxari guSin, axla ar mcalia, gamgebeli melodeba, sxva dros modi, patara gogo xar, Sen ra codvebi geqneba, yovelTvis moinaniebo _ momaZaxa. sxartad Sexta manqanaSi da Savi „pajeroc~ daiZra, mtverSi gamxvia. me da RmerTi davrCiT erTmane-Tis pirispir, raSi mWirdeboda masTan Suamavlebi...

bebiaCemi ambobda, qals kaci sWirdeba patronad da mimxedavado. kidev kargi, RmerTi kacia, Torem xom viqnebodi sul mTlad upatrono.

netav, RmerTma Tu icis, rogor mZuls es sityvebic da bebiaCemic amis TqmisTvis. ratom ara var kaci, Cemi Tavis patroni TviTonve viqnebodi. mSurs belasi (bela adre gela iyo), romelic zis albaT romelime salonSi da fiqrobs, Tu rogor dakargavs qaliSvilobas Tavi-

Tekla eremeiSvili

ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti

98 debiuti 99proza

si ocnebis mamakacTan, miuxedavad imisa, rom Tavadac mamakacis sasqeso organo aqvs. bela transgenderia, uni-versitetSi gavicani. imitom vswavlob, Cvens qveyanaSi uswavlel qalebs Cagraveno _ aRniSnavda xolme. Sav man-ikurs ratom isvam, qaluri ar ariso _ erTxel miTxra, TiTebi mokeca da ferad frCxilebs daxeda, maleve mix-vda, rom ase mamakacebi daxedaven xolme TavianT frCxi-lebs, qalebi ki gaSlil TiTebs uyureben, TiTqos Sec-domaSi gamoiWireso da maSinve gaSala xeli. sofelSi wamosvla, rom davapirebela didis ambiT damemSvidoba; momenatrebio, oh, es qaluri SegrZnebebio-gulaCuye-bulma Tqva da Camexuta. iqneb qalurma intuiciam miax-vedra, rom qalaqSi veRar davbrundebodi.

deda bolo xanebSi iSviaTad mirekavda, xmac Secvli-li meCveneboda, avad xom ar aris-meTqi _ vifiqre, ami-tomac aRar davelode ardadegebs da sofelSi wavedi. saxlSi ar damxvda, sabalaxodan Zroxas rodis moiyvans-meTqi gavifiqre da mis mosvlamde mamaCemis saflavze wavedi. gamikvirda; balaxi saflavs faravda, rogorc Cans, dedaCems karga xania ar moukiTxavs. maxsovs, yov-elTvis ambobda: micvalebulebis mitoveba ar SeiZleba, saflavebs mixedva undao. daucxromeli, unugeSo sevdiT gaJRenTili tirils verafriT vaxerxebdi da ase damZ-imebuli mivuyvebodi saxlisken gzas. Zia qujegi Semomx-vda, usityvod momesalma, mafiqrebda am kacis zamTris-Ramisferi Tvalebi. iciT, raRacnairi kaci iyo...

saxlSi, rom davbrundi ezoSi Sesvlisas jer siZ-velisgan daSlili WiSkris nawili dameca TavSi da Sem-

deg-Tavzari, roca dedaCemma kacze, romelic saxlSi damxvda, gamomicxada _ Cemi qmariao. xom ici, bebia-Seni ambobda qali sustia, kaci sWirdeba sapatronod, misaxedado. ki magram, sofelSi imasac xom ambobdnen, bevrjer gaTxovili qali boziao, gamefiqra uneburad. orjer gaTxovebis winaaRmdegi ar var, ubralod mama Semecoda, dedaze gavbrazdi. iciT, raRac sxvanairi kaci iyo mamaCemi...

moulodnelobis efeqtiT naSobi emociebi Tanda-Tan minelda CemSi, dardebi tyis nislebSi mimovfante. gabrazeba ugunebobaSi gadamivida. vxedavdi, uamravi saqme hqonda dedas; Sin da gareT. vgrZnobdi, eride-boda CemTvis rame daevalebina. ardadegebze, roca Cam-ovdiodi, metyoda xolme _ studenti gogo xar, soflis saqme Sen ar gekadrebao. deda iyo, mecodeboda. mere gaTamamda, roca sakuTari iniciativiT vexmarebodi da Zroxasac matanda ferdobebze, tyesTan axlos.

dedaCemis qmari raionis policiaSi muSaobda da gadidkacebuli aba Zroxebs xom ar dauwyebda devnas. sakace saqmeebsac Cven vakeTebdiT. zogi Wiri margebe-liao, saqmiT gadaRlils maleve CameZineboda xolme da SimSils ZiliT vTrgunavdi. pirvel xanebSi megona, meCveneba, rom Cveni cxovreba ukan-ukan midis-meTqi, am yovelives Cems melanqoliasa da uxasiaTobas vabraleb-di, magram cota xanSi autaneli Seiqmna Cveni yofa. WuWyTan erTad cxovrebasac davnebdi, aRar mawuxebda gauparsavi fexebi, arc dauvarcxneli Tma. sakuTari cxovrebac ukan Camovitove, roca im kacis, dedaCemis

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qmris valebis gastumrebis gamo ukidures gaWirvebamde mivediT da dedam miTxra: swavla rom daiwyeba binis qira riTi gadagixado, ras mivawyde aRar vicio. yovelTvis vfiqrobdi, rom sofelSi mudmivad cxovrebas ver Sev-Zlebdi, saocrad miyvarda soflis bunebis sijansaRe, siTamame da pirvelqmnili veluroba, magram roca Cemi sazrunavi gaxda uamravi ram da aq samudamod darCenis saSiSroebis winaSe davdeqi, gauferulda yovelive.

iataks vasufTavebdi, roca im kacis, dedaCemis qmris veluri gamoxedva pirvelad SevniSne, naxevrad SiSvel mkerdSi rom CamStereboda. maisuri swrafad Seviswore. anTebuli Tvalebi SemomanaTa. wamovdeqi, sibrazisgan sisxli momawva tvinSi, Tavbru damexva, wavbarbacdi. sicxem iZala, zafxuli ar Tmobda Tavis uflebebs, deda kabas akerebda. SevamCnie sayelodan mxramde rom iyo Caxeuli.

divanze CamZineboda, sizmarma SemakrTo: uamravi xe iyo Cvens ezoSi, Crdilebi sazarel figurebs qmnidnen da qalaqisa da soflis sivrce erTmaneTSi gadadioda TiTqos, nislebi ijagrebodnen. Tvalebi rom gavaxile is kaci miyurebda, iRimoda, raRac veluri energetikiT damuxtuli. xeli dabla, sakuTari sasqeso organosken waiRo. aCqarebuli tempiT moZravi sisxli ZarRvebs ufarToebda, Tvalebi uwiTldeboda. xeli sacvalSi Caiyo da gamomwyvdeuli gaaTavisufla. pirvelad idga Cem win mamakaci amdgari asoTi. sxeuli mewvoda, raRac Signidan mwvavda, zizRi, SiSi, agresia... danawevrebuli fiqrebi erTmaneTs misdevdnen, magram verafriT lagde-

bodnen, cnobieri mkarnaxobda, rom unda gavclodi am kacis bilwi xedvis areals, ukan gadavdgi ramdenime nabiji, Sevtrialdi da gaqceva davapire, Tumca, magi-das davejaxe. saxeSi dartymis Zala vigrZeni, Signidan mtkioda raRac, sagnebi formas kargavdnen, nacrisfer siblanteSi inTqmeboda yvelaferi, raRac Zalam Semi-sruta, gavuCinardi. umweo amindi RrubelTa survils nebdeboda. gadaxsnili cidan momavali umanko wveTebi xmeleTis sibilwesTan jvardebodnen.

sayelodan mxrebamde Caxeuli, ubiwoebaSemxmar-Sexiznuli kaba TiTqmis erTi Tvis Semdeg davwvi tye-Si. erTxel belam miTxra, momiyevi rogori iyo Seni pirveli seqsio. me jer kidev ar „ameSva~ ise, (rogorc soflidan qalaqSi Casul gogoebze ityvian), rom vnebebi Tavisuflad mimeSva da ratomRac imis Tqmas, rom jer kidev qaliSvili viyavi, rom jer kidev guli da fexebi erTdroulad aravisTvis gadameSala, vamjobine mefan-taziora da ganuxorcielebeli aqtis Sesaxeb momeyola. aRfrTovanebulma belam (gelam) monaTxrobs Teatrali-zebuli seqsi uwoda. roca burusi TandaTan minelda da realoba obieqturad aRviqvi. mindoda, belasTvis damereka da yvelaferi momeyola, meTqva, rom qaliS-vilobasTan erTad im „Teatralizebuli seqsis~ molo-dinic davkarge. isic meTqva, rom mxolod gaunaTle-beli qalebi ar arian Zaladobis msxverplni. dedaCemi TiTqmis ar melaparakeboda, TiTqos samagieros mixdi-da Cemi erTTviani siCumis wil. rogor melaparaka, ra meTqva?! isic ki miTxra, aseTi uJmuri vis daemsgavse,

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arafrad rom ar magdeb da arc melaparakebi, ra SegiC-nda aseTio. bavSvuri gancdebi TandaTan minelda CemSi, iseTi SegrZneba mqonda, TiTqos cxovreba am mokle xanSi Cavtie. samzareuloSi gasasvleli kari naxevrad Ria iyo, deda saWmels amzadebda, im pirutyvma xeli Camavlo da Tavisken mimizida, Tavi veRar Sevikave da mis kalTaSi aRmovCndi, mkerdze mwvda gaSmagebuli, iatakze jamis davardnis xmam SeakrTo, xeli gamiSva. im dRis mere vamCnevdi, yoveldRe rogor emateboda dedas naoWebi. avadmyofuri ieri hqonda, miuxedavad imisa, rom organ-ulad araferi awuxebda. erTmaneTis TvalTvals daems-gavsa Cveni urTierToba. nuTu verafers xvdeboda, nuTu araferi icoda... bolo dReebSi ise miyurebda, rogorc dedebi uyureben Svilebs, roca maTi gasaWiris Sesax-eb ician. dakrZalvis dRes mesmoda mezoblebis lapa-raki, Cemze ambobdnen, sul marto darCao, ra icodnen maT, rom ukve karga xania marto viyavi. dedas rom uka-nasknelad Sevxede, faruli dardiT gardacvlils hgav-da. misi sikvdilis mere erTaderTxel vnaxe is pirutyvi, roca Tavisi nivTebis wasaRebad movida. amjerad uxeSo-bis gareSe Seecada Cems damorCilebas, xelze vukbine, gamwarda da gavelurda, oTaxSi Zia qujegi Semovarda. sanam qveynis madli ar movisxi, tvini ar gagasxmevine da Seni nakeTebi saqmeebi sofels ar gavagebine droze gaeTrie aqedan, belzebelis Svilo Senao! _ uRriala. pirvelad vnaxe es kaci wyobidan gamosuli. sanadiro Tofi xelSi daeWira da Tvalebdaxrili iatakze akvird-eboda Crdilad gamokveTil Cems siluets. ramdenime

dRis Semdeg sawyali qujegi mezobels upovnia mkvdari. gulaRma egdo, Subli gadaxsnili hqondao, ucnauri kaci iyo, arasdros laparakobda, yovelTvis vfiqrobdi, rom saeWvo saqmeebSi iyo gareulio _ yveboda. ZmiSvilma moakiTxa gardacvlil qujegs. biZaCemis saqmis gamoZieba visTvisac dauvalebiaT, dedaSenis qmari yofila Turme, rogori policielia, male gaarkvevs saqmeso? _ mkiTxa. namdvili ZaRlia-meTqi, mokled vupasuxe, Tavs veRar moverie da cremlebma naadrevad gaCenil naoWebSi gai-kvlies gza.

daviRale umweo gabrZolebebiT. isev bebiaCemis sityvebi maxsendeba, ase rom mZuls Tqmulic da mTqmel-ic. vfiqrob, rom gavyidi am codviT naSen saxls. safla-vebsac mivatoveb da waval qalaqSi. esec uimedo sevdis gabrZolebaa, vici, uamravi daurgveli xe aSrialdeba am ezoSi, wlebi gava da am saxls ar iyidian, radgan mox-ucebis garda sofelSi aravinaa. iqneb, belasaviT mec Sevicvalo... an iqneb, davureko da vuTxra: qali sus-tia, patroni sWirdeba, mimxedavi-Tqo, aq Camodi CemTan sofelSi, erTmaneTs mivxedoT-Tqo. tyidan gasvlamde momdeven nislebi saidumlos gamxelis molodinSi, Tum-ca mosayoli amjerad araferi maqvs, aRarc papa quje-gia, aRarc is kaci _ dedaCemis qmari, aRarc dedaCemi _ im kacis coli da mec naxevradRa var. Rame difuzird-eba da nislSi iZireba am qveynis sevda.

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kubi

erTxel, odesRac da sadRac kubi ido. ufero, usas-rulo sivrceSi didi TeTri kubidan winaswar gansaz-Rvrulobisgan Tavis dasaRwevad xmebi ismoda: tuk... tuk... tuk... es xmebi drogamoSvebiT siCumes serav-da. kubi ki ido uZravad, maradisobis centrSi. erTma xeibarma kacma gamoiara, koWlobiT Zlivs moiWaWeboda. kubi rom dainaxa, gauxarda, xvneSa-xvneSiT zed Camojda da daisvena. suli rom moiTqva, isev ganagrZo gza.

mere movida fufunebisgan gazuluqebuli kaci. kubze zRapruli sufra gaSala, gvarianad geaxlaT, gamoZRa da boyin-boyiniT wavida.

cota xnis Semdeg iaraRis mkeTebelma adamianma gam-oiara, erTxans uyura kubs, gamowrTobili mzera usas-rulo sivrces moavlo da jibidan saaTis meqanizmiani bombi amoiRo. bombi zed kubze daamagra da daeloda, ra moxdeboda. afeTqebam sinaTlisa da sivrcis fizikuri vibracia gamoiwvia, magram kubs veraferi daaklo. iara-

levan gelaSvili

ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti

Ris mkeTebelma kinkrixos fxaniT kubs Semoura. sivrcis konteqstis idumali xibli cdunebisgan Tavis daRwevis saSualebas ar aZlevda. isev bombebi amoiRo da kubis oTxive kuTxeze daamagra. afeTqeba Zalian Zlieri iyo, imdenad Zlieri, rom iaraRis mkeTebeli adamiani Sors gadaisrola.

ido kubi usasrulo siCumeSi, dauzianebeli da uvne-beli. mere fexebis bakuniT pirvelyofilma, keTil-Sobilma kacma, patara waruryvnel arsebasTan erTad gamoiara. gauxarda kubis danaxva, zed wamowva, Svili kalTaSi Caisva, xmurianad daamTqnara, tkbilad CaeZina da xvrinvac amouSva.

esec rom wavida, movida adamianuri moRvaweobis romeliRac sferos warmomadgeneli, romelsac uamravi mizezi hqonda imisTvis, rom ama Tu im adgilas mox-vedriliyo. Sexeda kubs, Zlier moewona, zed avida da kubi, rogorc politikuri tribuna ise gamoiyena. igi mgznebare sityviT mimarTavda masas, romelic jiutad ganmeorebadi yalibis adamianebisgan Sedgeboda. kaci gulSi mjiRis cemiT, xan marjvniv da xan marcxniv, xalxs mimarTavda. nacrisferi masa jer sulganabuli usmen-da, mere aujanyda da yvela erTad CoCqoliT da SeZax-ilebiT gaSorda im adgils. kubiki kvlav ido siCumeSi. gamoiara kidev erTma kacma, romelmac kubze CuqurT-miani ornamentebi daxata, TeTrad darCenili adgilebi SeReba. adamiansa da nivTs Soris damyarebuli intimis wrafi cvlilebis unaris mqone warmavalma sinamdvilem Secvala. kubTan ganSorebiT gamowveuli sicariele ki

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nino gelaSvilis ilustraciebi

damsaxurebulma siCumem Seavso. usasrulo sivrceSi ufero kubi ido uZravad. erTx-

elac movida saintereso ramis povnis aucileblobiT ganpirobebuli adamiani. sqeli kiseri, tlanqi nakvTebi da didi, keTili Tvalebi hqonda. Tvalebs rom axamxam-ebda, moWutvis momentSi gegonebodaT, Tvalebi saer-Tod ar aqvso. es kaci TeTr usasrulo sivrceSi idga da adamianTa saerTo bunebisTvis damaxasiaTebeli cno-bismoyvareobiT uyurebda kubs. es zustad is tipi aris, Cemo mkiTxvelo, visac amdeni xani elodiT. Tu Tqven dakargeT yvela Sansi, romelic gibiZgebdaT araofi-cialur, Seucnobel samyaroSi gadasvlisken, jer kidev SegiZliaT miTologiuri arqetipebis es teqstualuri rZe daagemovnoT. axla aq ambebi moxdeba, cam quxili daiwyos. gaixangrZliveT siamovneba, dafiqrebiT da nela waikiTxeT.

mokled, keTilTvalebianma kacma kubs garSemo ram-denjerme Semouara da xeli gadausva. Tqven arc ki iciT, ra mravalmniSvnelovnad gaakeTa es. xom xvdebiT, es is tipi namdvilad ar aris, kubs rom tribunad gamoiyen-ebs, zed daxatavs, daiZinebs an aafeTqebs. man, ubralod, bevri ifiqra, ris Semdegac adga da es didi kubi, pat-ara kubikebad daSala, rogorc agurebi ise gamoiyena da kedeli aaSena, magram, rogorc ki es kedeli aRmarTa, maSinve jari gaCnda da daangria. erTi gamoiqrola, nac-artutad aqcia da gaqra. kacma kedeli isev aaSena da axla sxva momxvdurma daungria. kedlis aSenebisTanave, TiTqos miwidan amoizardao, Tvalis daxamxamebaSi Cnde-

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boda jari da ieriSi mihqonda kedelze. radgan kedelma kaci ver daicva, kacma kedeli daSala da saxli aaSe-na, magram saxli imdenad patara gamovida, rom Sig ver Seetia. esec rom ar gamouvida, TviTmfrinavi gaakeTa, magram ver gafrinda, mcire manZiliT aiwia haerSi da isev im usasrulo sivrceSi daeca da kubikebad daiSala. radgan TviTmfrinaviTac ver gacda usasrulo sivrces, kubikebisgan kibe gaakeTa. magram aba, sad aiyvanda es kibe? kibes erTi mxridan rom auyveboda zemoT, meore mxridan isev im usasrulo sivrceSi qvemoT Camodioda. xo, marTla, am ambavze gamaxsenda _ aq ra SuaSia, magram mainc: odes zed aizidebi qve, maSin qve daizidebaze. didebuli frazaa, sadRac wamikiTxavs. mokled, mere es kaci adga da kubebi patara filaqnebiviT gamoiyena da gza daago, magram gzasac arsad mihyavda. ganusaz-Rvreli sivrcis, erTi mxedvelobis kadruli CarCodan rom gavidoda, isev im usasrulo sivrceSi CarCos meore mxridan brundeboda, saidanac Tavdapirvelad daiwyo moZraoba. aba, is gza rad vargoda, Tu arsaiTken midio-da. radgan gzam nagulisxmevi molodini ver gaamarTla, kacma bevri ifiqra, Tu cota ifiqra, bolos gadawyvi-ta, kubikebisgan yuTi gaekeTebina. ufero, usasrulo sivrceSi, TeTri kubis zRvruli daZabuloba misi yuTad gadaqcevis horizontma gafanta. yuTis fskeri TeTr sivrceSi zemodan Savi kvadrativiT gamoCnda. es namd-vilad daZabuli momentia _ Tqveni ar vici mkiTxvelo, me ki vgrZnob, rom sakvanZo moments mivuaxlovdi da TiTebic gamioflianda. barem imasac vityvi, rom kubis-

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gan yuTis gakeTeba arc ise ioli mosafiqrebeli ramea. ai, daukvirdiT! ar meTanxmebiT? kargad mokalaTdiT da ganagrZeT kiTxva an Tu gnebavT, wamoweqiT. mTavaria, kiTxva ar SewyvitoT. yvelaferi SegiZlia gayo, magram usasrulobas mainc ver Seimecneb. umciresi nawilake-bi kidev ufro patara nawilakebisgan Sedgebian. didi galaqtikebi sxva, ufro masStaburi galaqtikebis nawils warmoadgenen. ufro Rrmad, gaSlili wixliT, filo-sofiis sajarimo moedanze Tu SeviWrebiT, mivxvdebiT, rom samyaro amoWrili epizodebis goglimoglia. rasac Cveni TvalebiT vxedavT, im epizodebs tvinis WuWruta-nis gavliT viazrebT, vabamT erTmaneTs da raRac azrs vdebT masSi. danawevrebuli xedva ar cvlis im faqts, rom samyaroSi yvelaferi erTiania. am danawevrebul xedvebs mere viRacebi, albaT ufro ideis Crdilis nabiWvrebi, romelTac romel epoqaSic ar unda ecx-ovraT, im epoqis ideas yalb rwmenad gaavrcelebdnen, gvmoZRvraven da tvinSi viwro biliks gvitoveben, Tu ra gziT unda viazrovnoT. mokled, araferi dasamali ar maqvs iseTi, rasac teqstis dasasruls ver mixvdeb-iT. amitom, barem aqve visargeblebT xrobaSi gaCenili demonstraciuli, xangrZlivi pauziT da getyviT, rom kubi isedac yuTi iyo, magram misi daSla da isev yuTis gakeTeba, raRac axlis gamogonebaa da kacma rom Tqvas, arc aris gamogoneba. sxva araferi damrCenia, garda imi-sa, rom giTxraT:

TeTr sivrceSi ido yuTi. kubisgan imiT gansxvavde-boda, rom yuTSi bneloda. kaci zemodan yuTis bnel Zirs

uyurebda, TeTr sivrceSi maleviCis Savi kvadrativiT rom inakvTeboda da fiqrobda. erTxans misi xedvis wertili, mxolod am Sav kvadrats umzerda. kacma bevri ifiqra, Tu cota ifiqra, adga da yuTSi CaZvra. zemodan Tavsaxuri daifara. cotaxans ase iyo. Semdeg mowyinda bnelSi jdoma, moenatra TeTri usasrulo sivrce. sxvad gardaqmnili adgilis gaucxoebam nostalgia gauRviva da amosvla mounda. bevri iwvala da ixlaforTa, magram veRar amovida. kubis Tavsaxuri Caketiliyo. am dros kaci albaT mixvda, rom kubi misnebis mier Zalisxmevas erTi da imave gravitaciis farglebSi tovebda, magram ukve gviani iyo.

TeTr sivrceSi ido kubi, raRacnairi, gardamavali feris. albaT ufero ufro eTqmis. samyaros pirvela-di mniSvneloba siCumes usmenda, SigadaSig myudroebas kvlav ganmeorebadi gamocdilebis xmebi arRvevda: tuk... tuk... tuk... cotaxans es xmebi siCumes seravda da bolos miwyda. kubi ki ido uZravad, maradisobis centrSi.

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Tiko krawaSvili, `afrikeli qalebi~, tilo,Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia

TxuTmeti Reri

pirveli RerifanjarasTan vzivar, ca mowmendili, savse mTvare.

SesaniSnavi Rame werisTvis, Tumca Tveebia leqsi ar damiweria. `The Tiger Lillies~uberavs wynarad da musikas Tavidan bolomde vgrZnob, gverdiT litriani civi ludi. esaa CemTvis `sruli kaifi~. niavic uberavs drogamoSvebiT, TavisTvis, dRes yvela da yvelaferi uberavs. oTaxSi sibnelea. arctelevizori, arc kom-piuteri, arc telefoni, arc sinaTle, yvelaferi gam-orTulia, Tumca SesaniSnavad vxedav, radgan sibneleSi didxans yofnisas Tvalis gugebi saSinlad diddeba da mxedvelobac eCveva. meore dRea saxlidan ar gavsul-var, haeris naklebobas ukve ZarRvebSi vgrZnob, samagi-erod nikotinma imata.

nikoloz totoRaSvili(nikoloz rixtoni)

saqarTvelos saaviacio universiteti

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meore ReriRrma nafazTan erTad TiTebis gabuJebac iwyeba

xolme. kalami mikankalebs da sasacilod vwer, mxolod me Tu gavarCev, miuxedavad imisa, rom caciis kvaloba-ze lamazad vwer. mTvare saxeSi miyurebs, ase mgonia, mxolod me manaTebs, roca milioni vinmea gasanaTebeli. quCebi iseTi carieli da Cumia, gaWirvebulebis kvnesa smenas axSobs. ar vinatrebdi Tavs maT adgilas, Tumca Cven yvelani cxovrebis mier gadmoferflili namwvavebi varT da kacma ar icis, rodis gagviwyreba bedi. yve-laferi albaT, mainc RmerTis nebaa.

(pauzas moyva mesame da meoTxe Reri)mexuTe ReriTavbru mexveva. ludi TiTqmis ganaxevrda, filt-

vebSi arsebuli haeriviT. me ar vafaseb im xalxs, rom-lebic siyvaruls masxrad igdeben, dascinian. isini Tav-ad arian sacodavebi, radgan es grZnoba ar gamoucdiaT, isini kaenis gzas adganan. me yovelTvis abelis mwamda, mkvdari abelis. `kaenelebi~ Semiwiraven vici, magram ase mirCevnia. ar minda, RmerTma damiZaxos da sircxvilis-gan davemalo, xma ver gavce.

meeqvse Reri

quCaSi viRacam gaiara. gamikvirda, am dros?! magram ra, gana me ar mivlia RamiT marto?! miyvars adamianebi, romlebic RamiT, mTvaris Suqze marto fexiT siaruls amjobineben. yvelas Tavisi ca aqvs, rogorc adre vTqvi, zogs ise moswons, zogs _ ase, amitom erTmaneTs xSir-ad ver vugebT adamianebi. samwuxaro araa es. arc aris

saWiro yvelas ugebde, visic gesmis Senc misnairi xar, amitom davafasoT aseTebi. me vafaseb absoluturad yvela `padzemkis~ moxuc mawanwalas. odesme mec maT-nairi gavxdebi albaT da vinmes saubari Tu moundeba, movuyvebi Cemi cxovrebis ukuRmarTobaze.

meSvide RerioTaxi sigaretis kvamliT yars. warmomidgenia fan-

jara rom davxuro, ra iqneba. majebze ZarRvebi patara, WuWyiani nakadulebiviT metyoba. sisulelea...

(kidev pauza, cota davfiqrdi da sami Reric gava-niave)

meTerTmete Rerisigaretis kolofi carieldeba Cemi grZnobebiviT,

Cemi siyvaruliviT, romelsac gamudmebiT vflangav, magram yovelTvis vitoveb imxelas, ramxelac erTi ada-mianis gabednierebisTvis damWirdeba, anu Zalian mcires. asea, Tu vinmes uyvarxar, mcirediTac gaabedniereb.

meTormete Reridamaviwyda ra unda damewera, arada, ori wuTis win

gavifiqre. jandabamdec gza hqonia fiqrebs. mTavaria, guli ras gikarnaxebs, axla zustad mase vwer, mTeli guliT. ar vapireb, sityva gadavasworo Cems nabodvar-Si, radgan es yvelaze gulwrfelia. adamianebSi ki amas vafaseb yvelaze metad, TvalebSi rom Caxedav da yve-lafers xedav. es miyvars da SemiZlia mTeli ori kvira vuyuro TvalmouSoreblad, erTianad amovicnobdi.

mecamete da meToTxmete RerioTaxSi xatebi mikidia, yvelaze didi qristesia,

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uZvelesia, Tumca dRemde kargad Semonaxuli. vin icis ramdenjer Semicodia misTvis Tavi da mainc keTilad miyurebs. vecodebi da sjera, Cemgan kargi morwmune dadgeba. me ki ukve cxrameti welia imeds vucrueb an ufro metic.

meTxuTmete Reries boloa, kolofi dacarielda samagierod goneba

gabruvda. mgoni meoTxe Tabaxi Tavdeba, ar damiTvlia. davwer da bloknotSi gadawera damezareba. albaT arc aris saWiro. davkuWav da haerSi nervebiviT movisvri. oTaxi ki ar gaSavda, TeTrdeba. mTvare zustad ise-Tia, rogoric SarSan am dros davtove. me ki Sevicvale, Sevicvale; imijic, azrovnebac, nervebic, simaRlec da yelsabamic sxva mikeTia, (Tumca jvari isev is), rwme-na ki... rwmena, rom ar mqondes, TviTmkvlelobaze did gambedaobad araferi mimaCnia. dRemde albaT ocjer maqvs Tavi mokluli, magram arc erTi iyo yvelaze metad gabeduli, radgan ar minda RmerTis win Sublgax-vretili warvsdge, Semrcxves da xelebi saxeze avifaro. ar vici, saidan sjobs rom daviwyo, albaT mainc iqidan, rom odesRac yvelaferi iwyeba da maTematikurad Tu vimsjelebT, raRac mainc grZeldeba usasrulod, wrfe-saviT. me am Teorias ar veTanxmebi erTis mxriv, magram arc uaryofa SemiZlia. me Tu mkiTxavT, yvelaferi erT-maneTzea gadajaWvuli. mecnierebac, religiac, siyvar-ulic, siZulvilic. roca RmerTi absoluturad gwams, mecnierul Teoriebs ukana planze wev, roca mecniere-bis gwams, religiur mosazrebebs deb gverdze, roca

giyvars, ar SegiZlia gZuldes da roca gZuls, ver Seiyvareb, Tumca SeiZleba erTi gwamdes da meoreSi aRmoaCino WeSmariteba, rac pirovnebaSi srul anar-qias iwvevs, meore gagebiT, aseT gaorebas, romelsac daRupvamde miyavxar da Tavis gadarCena Wirs, amitom iklaven Tavs, es sigiJe araa, magram amave dros sigiJeze uaresia. Sinaganad afren da ver xvdebi. am cxovrebas normaluri TvalebiT ver Sexedav martivi mizezis gamo; yvelgan siyalbea! maT Soris megobrobaSic da siyvar-ulSic. me bevrjer miRalates orive SemTxvevaSi da yve-laze rTuli maSin iyo, roca erTdroulad orivegan Ralats Sevxvdi.

bevrjer uTqvamT, sul tkivilze wero. asea, radgan ar SemiZlia vwero bednierebaze, roca guli ormocdaaT-kalibriani cxovrebiT maqvs gaxvretili. me ase vcxov-rob, viRacisTvis poeti, viRacisTvis nagavi, viRacisT-vis Cveulebrivi tipi, samive SemTxvevaSi ufali iyos Cemi mfarveli am qalaqSi.

vwer am sityvebs dagvianebiT. maSin, roca azri eka-rgeba adamianebs Soris bgerebis mimoqcevas, zRva iwyebs Relvas, Rrublebi erT adgilas quCdebian da Tvaleb-Si dagrovebul cremlebs fanjrebisken isvrian. minaze wveTebi daWrili jariskacebiviT mixoxaven, magram Tva-lebSi sasowarkveTa etyobaT, radgan wvima gadaiRebs da isinic aorTqldebian im sityvebiviT, romlebic odesme vTqviT da ver SevasruleT. vambob da aTasjer xom mainc miTqvams, rom cxovreba ar aris martivi maTTvis, vinc gulCvilia. Cven yvelani sarecxis TokebiviT varT

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gadaWimulebi, erTi lursmnidan meoremde da nervebi, grZnobebi, siZulvili, yvelaferi zed gvaqvs gadakid-uli. vaSrobT, vaSrobT da samwuxaroa, rom siyvaruli zogjer yovelTvis sveli rCeba da lpeba. me minaxavs SeSlili Tvalebi, yvelaze xSirad, roca sarkeSi Camixe-davs da am TvalebSi migrZvnia yvelaferi erTad, rasac veRar itevda erTdroulad da minasaviT Camsxvreula. Sublis ara, magram xelisgulze sicocxlis ZarRvi didi xania gamwydari maqvs. ar arsebobs samyaroSi gancda, grZnoba, romelic ikargeba. is energias hgavs, erTidan meored gardaiqmneba. Cemi siyvaruli mexis Camovard-nas hgavda da im xes daeca, romelic sicocxles laRi TvalebiT Sescqeroda, amitom dRemde mklavs danaSau-lis grZnoba da imedia, odesme kacobrioba mapatiebs, rom siyvaruliT Tavad siyvaruli gavanadgure.

Tamunias budapeStSi unda

mxatvar ramon nasimentos naxva mTel qalaqs undo-da. uceb yvela erTianad awrialda. gegoneboda, xoSiani qalis saxeliT rom mariaJobs, zustad is amerikuli qariSxali gviaxlovdeba, ician, rom raRac grandiozu-lia, magram yofas rom gvitirebs, magas ki ver xvde-biano. rogoria?! mTel msoflios magis metsaxeli _ „el portogalo~ ekera pirze... es kidev TbilisSi Camovida, aqaoda, sadac Cems saukeTeso naxats CaabrZaneben, mec iq unda viyo, garSemo myofebs Cemi mogonili locvebi wavukiTxo da ufaso Rvino vwrupoo. magari loTiao, mavanni ambobdnen. an rogor ginda gaamtyuno... lisab-onSi iyo gazrdili da Tan gaWedili mxatvari eTqmoda. mokled, maSindelma kulturis ministrma bevri iCaliCa, rom „el portogalos~ yvelaze cnobili naxati, „euge-nia kuStudio~ cali TvaliT qarTvelebsac enaxaT. mag

cotne avsajaniSvili

ilias saxelmwifo universiteti

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naxats Zalian ucnauri istoria hqonda. nasimento misi flobis uflebas arc erT cnobil muzeums ar aZlev-da da misi agentic, sxvadasxva qveynebidan Rebulobda winadadebebs naxatis droebiTi daqiravebis Taobaze. ase da amgvarad, „eugenia kuStudios~ yoveli gastroli, avtorisTvis Semosavlis axali wyaro iyo da gavarskv-lavebuli „el portogaloc~ Tavis Sedevrs yvelgan Tan dahyveboda, radgan cdilobda rom fanebTan Sexvedri-sas miRebuli emociiT, artistul-narcisuli stomaqi amoevso.

gabriCiZe aRtkinebul masaSi gunds acdenili frin-veliviT daabotebda da morfinistiviT acecebda Tva-lebs. TiTqos sizmarSi iyo da realobasTan paralelebis gavlebas cdilobda. ra `nasimento~ da ris `esa de kei-roSi~, SemTxveviT gaiara galereasTan. wiTeli RviniT aqoTebuli „el portogalo~ xalxs mimarTavda. esenic yovel graciozul Jests taSiT egebebodnen. „sakaifod ki davarcxnila ai... saroCkac iseTi acvia, lisabonel poxuists rom daxatavs. magram, sad minaxavs aqamde lisaboneli, poxuisti... erTi magis dedac vatire~ _ fiqrobda gabriCiZe. gogona ki, Cumad idga da xelSi furceli eWira. mas didi Tvalebi hqonda da veravin ityoda, ginda Tu ara ramons uyurebso... sadRac zeviT amisamarTebda mzeras, funikuliorisken. gogonas „el portogalos~ msgavsi, xakisferi perangi ecva, romlis bolosac misi talRovani Tma eweoda. iseTi Tma, rogo-riTac axalgazrdobaSi ornela muti agiJebda gabri-CiZis msgavs atmosferul morfinistebs.

_ Senc amis fani xar? _ hkiTxa gabriCiZem. _ ara... _ mokled mouWra gogonam. _ aba?!_ ra aba?_ mani, mani, maniii... _ aba, anu aq ra ginda-meTqi. _ araferi. vcdilob wlebis Semdeg ar vinano, rom

nasimento ar vnaxe. _ gabriCiZe gogonas mzeram sagrZno-blad aWra.

_ inano Tore, egec ar iyos ticiano di venecia. _ ar miyvars ticiani. _ mokled mouWra gogonam_ ticiani ar giyvars? aba vin giyvars?! _ fufa... _ fufa viRaa? _ TiTqos ieWviana gabriCiZem. _ Cemi kata. _ mec myavda adre kata... motyda mere sadRac. _ ar uvlidi albaT kargad da gageqca. _ ra gqvia?_ Tamunia. _ miyvarxar Tamunia, sulSi Cagifrenooo... _ amRer-

da gabriCiZe. _ miyvars eg simRera. _ Tamunia lakonuri da gamom-

wvevi iyo. _ vaa, ici?_ me yvelaferi vici. _ kai ra... yvelaferi aravin ar icis. me Tu mkiTxav,

am „el portogalom~ xatvac ar icis. _ ara, aq rac Camoitanes lamazia. _ sityva Seubruna

gogonam.

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_ eg magas ar dauxatavs!_ aba vin? _ gogonam kvlav gamomcdeli mzera miapy-

ro gabriCiZes. _ mamaCemma... _ mamaSenic xatavs?!_ mamaCemic ara... mamaCemi xatavs. msoflioSi yve-

laze magrad mamaCemi xatavs. _ rafaelze magrad?! _ gaiRima Tamuniam da Tvale-

bi moeWuta. _ rafaelia mamaCemi. _ Sen raRa gqvia? _ moulodnelad ikiTxa gogonam_ gabriCiZe. _ ra ginda gabriCiZe?!_ ar vici... Sen ra ginda Tamunia?_ me budapeStSi minda...

papis, mglisa da xelis ambavi

Cveni sofeli maRalmTian regions miekuTvneboda. aTi saxli TiTqos erT did Tanavarskvlaveds waagavda, sadac dRemde `vTamaSobT~ Cveni ubnis bavSvebi. aq yov-elTvis uCveulo idumalebiT Tendeboda. aq yoveldRe `naTeli~ gvqonda. aq saswauli iyo SemoRamebis yureba, Tu rogor frTxilad epareboda siSave naTels. Rame ki yovelTvis amoucnob, drogamovlil ambebs gviyveboda. bavSvobidan xSirad vusmendi siCumes. iqneb rogorme mepovna kiTxvebze pasuxebi. Cemi ezo yvelaze gamor-Ceuli iyo. didi mwvane mindori patara xexilis baRiT, sadac yovelTvis vTamaSobdi Cems erTaderT Tanatol-Tan _ ereklesTan. Tumca Cemi yvelaze axlo megobari mainc papa iyo, romelic garkveuli periodi yvela sur-

Tamar cukoSvili

saqarTvelos daviT aRmaSeneblis saxelobis universiteti

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vilis axdenasTan asocirdeboda. is CemTvis ukidegano sikeTis, pativiscemis, siyvarulisa da erTgulebis sim-bolo iyo.

gazafxulis mSvidi saRamo iyo. bunebas axali sim-wvanis tanisamosi mWidrod moergo. mze male mTvares dauTmobda morigeobas. haerSi sxvadasxva yvavilebis surneli haerovnad erwymoda erTmaneTs. me saqanela skamze vijeqi da vfiqrobdi, oRond ar vici raze. maSin albaT xuTi wlis viqnebodi. samyaros aRqma gaazrebu-lad axali dawyebuli mqonda. grZeli wablisferi Tma, wiTeli tuCebi, Taflisferi Tvalebi. aseTi gogo viyavi. zRapris gmiri megona Tavi, romelSic papa yovel Rame, Zilis win zRaprebs miyveboda. `vinc movida, gaumarjo-so~. saxlis zRrubls mouaxlovdeboda Tu ara, omaxiani xmiT daiZaxebda. mec bans mivcemdi igive teqstiT. es iyo Cemi bavSvobis ganuyreli nawili. axlac Camesmis es sityvebi...

davinaxe Tu ara, maSinve misken gaviqeci da ise Cavex-ute, TiTqos didi xnis unaxavi myavda. TeTri grZel-saxeloebiani perangi ecva. marjvena xelis adgili cari-eli hqonda, mxolod xili eyara CemTvis. maSin SevamCnie pirvelad, rom papas xeli ar hqonda. Cemma gaocebulma saxem miaxvedra, rom uamravi kiTxva gamiCnda, magram sityvebs Tavs ver vuyridi.

im saRamos papam zRapris nacvlad, `namdvili~ ambavi miambo. Tu rogor waarTva mgelma xeli da tyeSi dauma-la. isic dasZina, rom yoveldRe mis saZebnad dadioda mindorSi.

_ rodis ipovi? _ Tvalcremlianma vkiTxe. _ mas Semdeg bevri weli gavida, me yoveldRe veZeb

da male vipovi, Tan marjvena xelis Zala ukve marcx-enaSi maqvs da axla ufro Zlieri var vidre viyavi.

_ Cven erTad vipoviT xels. _ Cumad vuTxari me da magrad Cavexute.

mxolod im dRes mivxvdi, ratom atarebda papa zamTar-zafxul grZelmklavian perangebs.

dro gadioda. oTxive sezoni amayad gamodioda ̀ podi-umze~, gamorCeuli samosiT. yovel saRamos papas vekiTx-ebodi, mgeli xom ar ipove-Tqo. _ jer arao _ mSvidi, imediani TvalebiT mpasuxobda yovelTvis. vizrdebodi da vxvdebodi, rom es erTi didi gamogonili istoria iyo. guli ufro metad mtkioda, rom istoriebi, rom-lebsac CemTvis igonebdnen damTavrda.

sofels tkbili ZiliT eZina. fafuk sabanSi gaxveuli saxlebi Tavs Tbilad grZnobdnen. me musikis gakveTilze mivyavdi papas. xeli magrad mqonda CaWidebuli marjvena mxares, qurTukis saxelurze. bednieri simReris teqsts vRiRinebdi da Tan papas vuyurebdi. mainteresebda, mos-wonda Tu ara. mas saxe uRimoda. me male saqme Sevicvale da axla Tovlis fifqebis daWeras mivyavi xeli. ase viya-vi garTuli, roca musikaluri skolis Senobac gamoCnda. papa oTaxis karamde Semomyva. iqve kuTxidan mitovebuli cocxi aiRo, fexsacmlidan Tovli gadamiwminda, marcx-ena xeliT klasis oTaxi SeaRo, maswavlebels miesalma da iq damtova. erTi saaTi vacocxlebdi beThovens, Sopensa da Suberts. papa qvemoT siciveSi melodeboda.

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kargad daumaxsovrebia Cemi savarjiSoebi da mTeli gza axla TviTon RiRinebda: _ do, re, mi, fa, so, la, si, do. me mecineboda, radgan verasdros warmovidgendi mas momRerlad. ukan dabrunebisas me xeli kvlav magrad mqonda CaWidebuli marjvena mklavis adgilas, qurTukis saxeloze. arasdros vyofilvar ase zRaprulad bedn-ieri TovlSi. uamrav rames miyveboda papa; enZelebis, iebis, Citebis, xeebis Sesaxeb. gazafxulze tyeSi erTad wavalT da bevr yvavilebs davkrefTo _ es fraza gulSi Rrmad davmarxe, anu Zalian momewona.

Tormeti wlis viyavi `mglisa da xelis~ istoria rom samudamod gaqra CemTvis. papa moWidave yofila axalgazrdobaSi. raionis Cempionobac moupovebia da did momavals uwinaswarmetyvelebdnen mwvrTnelebi _ Tumca bedi sxva rames umzadebda. ocdaSvidi wlisa avtokatastrofaSi moxvedrila, oTxmocdaaTi dRe ebr-Zoda sikvdilis, Tveebis Semdeg, gonze mosvlisas gaigo, rom mxolod marcxena xeliT mouwevda cxovrebasTan Widili. da amis mere misTvis ar arsebobda dabrkoleba da saqme, romelsac erTi xeliT ver Seasrulebda, Tum-ca am sabediswero ambavma sportze uari aTqmevina.

ar vici, vin rogor moiqceoda, magram papa sakuTari Tavis fexze dayenebas Seudga. axloblebs amxnevebda da xSirad xumrobda, rom xelSi ufro meti Zala hqonda, vidre adre. igi CemTvis sikeTisa da siyvarulis sim-bolo iyo. arasdros dauCivlia bedze, piriqiT xSirad imeorebda, rom cxovrebam bevri ram aswavla.

im wels abiturienti viyavi da ukve TbilisSi vswav-

lobdi. sofelSi gazafxulze Cavedi. papas kvlav trad-iciulad mohqonda CemTvis yvavilebi. isev omaxianad ambobda: `vinc movida, gaumarjoso~. me am dros usaz-Rvrod bednieri viyavi, radgan im wuTas Cemi bavSvoba mibrundeboda. erT saRamos maRaziaSi erTad wavediT. papa kvlav uwindeburad mexveweboda, nebismier rames daade xeli, unda giyidoo. gamyidvels eRimeboda. me isev Zveleburad, magrad mqonda xeli CaWidebuli mar-jvena xelis perangis saxeloze da yvelaze amayi viyavi, radgan SemeZlo im adamianTan vyofiliyavi, vinc Cems bavSobasTan asocirdeboda.

_ wels xom skolas amTavreb?_ ki, papa, ukve didi gogo var _ siciliT vupasuxe. _ xoda, sazamTros baRi momyavs. agvistoSi gavyidi

da im fuls Sen mogcem, studenti rom iqnebi, dagWir-deba.

_ me ufro metad CavWide xeli marjvena saxelurs. _ madloba... _ cremlmoreulma vupasuxe. pirvel

dRes Cven erTad wavalT universitetSi an Camoxval da Sen gamacileb.

_ Cemo gogo, me ukve moxuci var qalaqisTvis. Sen unda masaxelo.

am ambidan ramdenime TveSi dameufla saSineli mona-trebis SegrZneba, menatreboda diliT adre gaRviZeba, cxeli, grZeli dReebi. Cemi xeivniani mwvane ezo. patara baRiTa da lamazi yvavilebiT. da ra Tqma unda, saxli, sadac Sesvlis Semdeg iwyeboda zafxuli. menatreboda is gza, romelsac soflamde mivyavdi. swored is adg-

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ilebi, sadac xSirad Semxvedria mindvridan saxlisken mimavali papa. miyvarda is gza, sadac alazani seravda mwvane Walebs. mis danaxvisas vxvdebodi, rom Cems sax-lamde cota iyo darCenili.

es fiqrebi ar mcildeboda yovel diliT skola-Si mimavals da Cems sizmrebsac xSirad stumrobdnen. dReebi gadioda da me mixaroda, am zafxuls ratomRac mouTmenlad velodi. sofelSi wasvlamde, ori dRe iyo darCenili, hoda, mec Sevudeqi samzadiss. magram papa ukve TbilisSi moyavdaT saavadmyofoSi.

ai, aq ki Sevwyvite fiqri, ocneba da zafxuli maSi-naTve weliwadis sxva droebs daemsgavsa. SiSs Cavxede TvalebSi. drom nela daiwyo gasvla. ferebi daekarga Cems zafxuls...

bolos etlSi mjdomi da sawolze uRonod myofi vnaxe, wyali mTxova da me ver davalevine, radgan eqimeb-ma amikrZales. mere iyo gza saoperaciomde da misi sev-diani Tvalebi...

ramdenime dReSi me da bebia mivuyvebodiT soflisken mimaval gzas, orive Cumad visxediT.

me fanjridan Zveleburad saxlisken mimaval papas veZebdi...

yvelaferi usicocxlod gamoiyureboda. aRarc yvavilebi iwonebdnen Tavs silamaziT, aRarc baRi sim-wvaniT da arc saxlis ukan goliaTiviT mTa moCanda TiTqos.

ubralod yvelaferi iyo da TiTqos araferi arse-bobda.

papas velodi, romelsac unda eTqva: `vinc movida gaumarjoso~, rogor miyvarda im wuTas es sityvebi.

Zilis win bebos mxolod is vuTxari, nu geSinia-meTqi da Tvalebi davxuWe, iqneb ZilSi mainc menaxa jan-mrTeli da cocxali papa.

ramdenime saaTis Semdeg amaod videqi xeivniani ezos gaRebuli WiSkris win da vuyurebdi im soflis Sarag-zas, sadac xSirad velodi venaxidan momaval papas...

me axlac Zilis win Tvalebis daxuWva imitom rodi miyvars, rom Zils movuxmo. ara, grZelTmian, lurjmai-surian gogonas vixseneb, romelic papis marcxena saxe-lurs CaWidebuli mglisa da xelis ambavs ismens.

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madona menTeSaSvili, `erTaderTi rogorc...~, tilo,Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia

Smagi beruaSvili

goris saxelmwifo saswavlo universiteti

wuxelis isev eredvi mesizmra

omi eredvSi 2008 wlis 7 agvistos daiwyo. manamde ki, ramdenime dRiT adre, gamudmebiT ismoda srola, iseTi xmauriani Rameebi iyo, dila rom Tendeboda, megona, yvela saxli miwasTan iqneboda gasworebuli.

diliT yvelaferi mSviddeboda. aq xalxi aseT rameebs iyo naCvevi da Tavidan SiSi TiTqos arc gvqonia, magram 7 agvistodan am yvelaferma ukve gausaZlisi da daumTavre-beli saxe miiRo. iseTi saSineli afeTqebebi iyo, saxli zanzarebda. RamiT yvelani sardafebs vafarebdiT Tavs. SvidSi diliT ukve daiwyes rusulma TviTfrinavebma Cvens Tavze triali. pirveli bombi soflis boloSi Camoagdes, roca pirvels meore mohyva, meores-mesame, maSin mivxvdiT, rom soflis `ver daTmobis~ gamo fexis armocvla TviTmkvlelobis tolfasi iqneboda.

TviTgadarCenis instinqti unda agvemuSavebina da… xalxic mixvda, rom unda daetovebina sofeli, erTad-erTi sityva, romelic yvelas pirze ekera, iyo `cocx-

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lebi gadavrCeTo~ da sofelSi darCenili vgrZnobdi, Cems garSemo rac xdeboda da RmerTs Cumad vexvewebodi, rom xalxs uvneblad dagveRwia Tavi am saSinelebisgan.

maxsendeba, rogor mivapyariT mzera Cvens lamaz saxls, mere _ sofels, guli, albaT, mainc grZnobda, rom ukanasknelad vxedavdiT Cvens mxares, Tumca maSin ver vacnobierebdiT. sofels rom gamovcdiT, is ukve ibombeboda, magram mainc gvjeroda, rom 2-3 dReSi isev davbrundebodiT da imediT aviReT gezi gorisken.

Tvalwin midgas deda, romelic gaognebuli, gamware-buli darboda, raTa Cven, Svilebi, rogorme moveSore-bineT sofels. me ki misi meSinoda, romelic TavisTavze saerTod ar fiqrobda, rame rom damarToda, mere Cven raRa gveSveleboda.

xalxma xelis kankaliT gadaketa saxlis karebi da miatova nawval-najafi saxl-kari, sofeli, axla vxvde-bi, ratom ar modiodnen moxucebi, ratom undodaT iq darCena, iq sikvdili.

daujerebelia, iqneb, sulac axla var sizmarSi? ki, ki… namdvilad ase iqneba, ucnauri da moulodneli am-bebi xom swored sizmarSi metia, hoda, ai, am wuTas var ZilSi da koSmarul sizmars vxedav: saSineli srolis xma, damangreveleli afeTqebebi.

saxls zemoT bombdamSenebi, savaraudod, mtrisa unda iyos, asec aRmoCnda.

TviTmfrinavebidan raRac gadmoyares. sofeli mt-versa da kvamlSi gaexvia. vxedav, rogor Caingra ram-denime mezoblis saxli, didi albaTobaa, Cemsasac igive

daemarTos, magram sakuTari saxlisTvis aseTi sasjeli imdenad mtkivneulia, rom mgonia, asafeTqebel bombs Tavad aafeTqebs Cemi tkivili…

amjerad gadarCa. mxolod minebia Camsxvreuli… am-boben, isev ganmeordeba… mosaxleoba unda gaviyvanoTo. deda ar modis, ar emeteba Tavisi fuZe misatoveblad, bebias marto xom ar datovebda? wamosvlis kandidatebi _ me, Cemi debi da kidev Cvens mdgomareobaSi myofni aRmovCndiT. manqana manqanas misdevs, gahyavT qalebi da bavSvebi, mZRolebi aRelvebas ar imCneven, Tumca yvelas TvalebSi TviTgadarCenis instinqti ikiTxeba. cotac da yvelaferi panikaSi gadava.

gors gamovcdiT. TiTqos cotaTi damSvidda yvela. gzad samxedro kolonebma Segvayovnes. midian da midian… bolo ar uCans. samxedro manqanebi savsea jariskacebiT. vcdilob, TvalebSi Caxedva mainc movaswro, mainter-esebs, ras grZnoben… xom ician, sad da risTvis mid-ian, netav, rad aqvT momRimari saxeebi?! guli imediT mevseba, magram ufro metad Rrmavdeba tkivili, roca warmovidgen, rom ai, is… saSualo tanis biWi, samxedro-samosi, ase rom uxdeba, SeiZleba ukan aRar dabrundes… an ai, is maRali, vin icis, dedamisma ukanasknelad naxa… an kidev Savgvremani, nebismierma icis, rom mtris tyvia arc erT maTgans ar Seicodebs…

CamovediT. TbilisSi, meriasTan da parlamentis win uamrav adamians mouyria Tavi, yvela maTgani oms gad-mousrolia aq. TavSesafars iTxoven, umetesobas xelSi patara uWiravs. yvela tiris, zogs ukve Seutyvia Tavi-

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sianis daRupva, zogic yuridan ar iSorebs telefons, iqneb rame gaigos qmarze, Svilze, Zmaze… aseT mdgo-mareobaSi, sami dRe da Rame uwevT quCaSi gaTeneba, Tav-Sesafari sWirdebaT, magram ara aqvT. SiaT, swyuriaT, eZinebaT…

maTi depresia bolos agresiaSi gadadis da TavSesa-fris saSovnelad midian, aRmoaCines iseTi Senobebic, romlebSi Sesvlas quCaSi dgoma sjobs. ZaliT Sedian. amden ubedurebas Zala miucia maTTvis, ZaliT amtvreven karebs da Sedian. oms maTTvis dabrkolebis gadalaxva uswavlebia. Sida qarTlSi ki oms bolo ar uCans, yvela CarCenili qarTveli gamohyavT.

bolos gamosulebi gviyvebian, Tu rogor gazides Cveni saxlebidan nivTebi, rogor gaitanes „kamazebiT~ da rogor gadawves Cveni saxlebi.

SeuZlebelia, warmoudgenelia, es yvelaferi siz-mari iyos, vxuWav Tvalebs da minda, warmovidgino Cemi saxli damwvari, gamWvartluli, dangreuli, magram ar gamomdis… Znelia, daijero, rom cxel zafxuls iq ver gaatareb, vfiqrob dabrunebaze. gveubnebian, dabruneba iqnebao. sadRac imedi maqvs, rac aqamde maZlebinebs.

Tbilisis quCebSi bevri nacnobi mxvdeba. TiTqos syve-la aTi wliT daberebuli meCveneba. wlebis ganmavlobaSi Tavdauzogavi SromiT Seqmnili cxovreba gaunadgures da cis qveS datoves. miatovebines micvalebulTa sa-flavebi. axali cxovrebis dasawyebad, Zalas veRar ikre-ben, mzad ar iyvnen da miyuCebis nacvlad, Rrmavdeba tkivili, Semdeg, albaT, monatreba daiwyeba, gausaZlisi

monatreba, ai, iseTi, sisxli rom gageyineba, Seni miwis suni rom mogenatreba, magram ver dakmayofildebi, wa-mieri monatreba iqneba da meti araferi. tkivils mgoni gadavitanT, magram am monatrebis meSi nia.

albomebi menaneba… verasodes gavixseneb, rogorebi iyvnen Cemi mSoblebi axalgazrdobaSi. vin icis, iqneb Cemi winapris Sav-TeTri fotoebi cecxlis danTebaSi daexmara mters, rogor, rogor davarqva am yvelafers realoba da rasac yovel RamiT vxedav, imas sizmari? rogor davijero, rom es yvelaferi Cems Tavs moxda? vici… vici ara, SeuZlebelia, es realoba iyos. iqneb mZafrsiuJetian films vuyureb? ara, ara, namdvilad sizmaria, magram rom ar mTavrdeba? wuxel isev mesizm-ra... isev iq viyaviT… yvelaferi Zveleburad iyo…

Cveni saxli, ubani, ezo. yvavilebic isev yvaoda, ZaRlic misTvis Cveul pozaSi iwva da mzes eficxeboda.

eredvi yvelaze didi sofeli iyo patara liaxvis xeobaSi da mTavari damakavSirebeli gza cxinvalTan da danarCen soflebTan gadadioda. osur soflebs So-ris moqceuli, mudam amayad gamoiyureboda. mTis ZirSi moTavsebuli Cemi eredvi, 5-6 kilometrze gadaWimuli, sami soflisgan Sedgeboda: argvici, berula, eredvi…

Zalian lamazad iRviZebda xolme sofeli, Ramis Sav samosSi myofi vardisfrad da oqrosfrad feraddeboda da mzis sxivebs egebeboda. SromiT daRlili xalxi iRvi-Zebda da ciskars „dila mSvidobiT~ xvdeboda. erTmaneTs `gza mSvidobisas~ usurvebdnen da yvela aqeT-iqiT xali-sianad garboda; zogi naxirs mierekeboda, zogi-cxvars,

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zogi mindorSi midioda samuSaod, zogic _ skolaSi. es iyo sofeli, romelSic arsebobda Tanamedroved aRWurvili ori sajaro skola, mravalprofiliani didi kulturis saxli, sadac ewyoboda Sexvedrebi, sxvadasxva kuTxidan Camodiodnen msaxiobebi da momRerlebi, iyo didi emo-ciebi da da azrTa gacvla-gamocvla, musikaluri skola, sportskola, municipaliteti, policia, ambulatoria, sabavSvo baRi, eklesia-monastrebi, beris saydari.

amboben, ilia WavWavaZis „gandegilSi~ swored amb-eris saydrebzea saubario.

rogorc amboben, eredvis arc erTi eklesia ar aris dangreuli, isini bombsac gadaurCnen da mtersac. es RvTis neba iyo.

Znelia, yvelafer amaze auRelveblad fiqri, roca soflisTvis saxelic ki aRar dautovebiaT da eredvis magivrad „ironyau~ daurqmeviaT, rac maT enaze „osTa sofels~ niSnavs. Znelia, vifiqro, rom iq, sadac bavSvo-bis 14 weli gavatare, aRarasdros mival. axla mivxvdi, ra Zalian myvarebia.

ukve cxra welia, rac Cemi sofeli ar minaxavs. tkivi-li ki, miyuCebis magivrad Rrmavdeba, mas monatrebac emateba. ai, iseTi monatreba, sisxli rom gageyineba, ukve cxra welia, mamis saflavze sanTeli ar aminTia, cremli ar Camomigdia, balaxi ar momiTibavs da wyali ar amitania. Znelia, yvelaferi is gadmosce furcelze, rasac ganicdi, rasac grZnob.

amJamad gorSi vcxovrobT, germanelebis mier aSen-ebul „kotejebSi~. Zneli iyo axal cxovrebasTan Seg-

ueba, magram es xom realobaa. iqneb tkivili gadavitano, magram monatrebis meSinia...

mixeil javaxiSvilis „miwis yivili~ wavikiTxe, gulze momxvda, mTeli sxeuliT SevigrZeni. gamaJrJola. gavi-ziare im adamianis bedi. mere Cavfiqrdi da davaskveni: Cemi mdgomareoba ufro rTulia.

ucxo qveyanaSi myofs samSoblo enatreboda. me kidev, Cems samSobloSi myofs, Cemi mSobliuri mxare menatreba, xom gagigoniaT, „sadac vSobilvar, gavz-rdilvaro~. mamida ixsenebda, soflidan axalgamosulma rogor CamoferTxa manqanis borblebidan soflis miwa da saTuTad Seinaxa.

fiqrebi momeZala, veRar gavuZeli da wamovxti log-inidan. garedan cremlnarevi mezoblis RiRini Semomes-ma: `Cvens nasaxlarze odesRac balaxi abibindeba~… de-das Sevxede, cremli Camosdis, me arafers vimCnev da gareT gavdivar, Tan gulSi viqadnebi:

_ diax, modis biWi, modian biWebi… unda SevZloT, da davibrunoT mamuli, imedi maqvs, rom deda isev daar-wevs eredvSi akvans, `vefxistyaosansac~ isev iswavlis qarTveli, `ferxulsac~ icekvebs da aRarc „Zmao ZmiTa xar Zlieri~ iqneba ucxo.

Cven gvqonda warsuli, gveqneba momavali, awmyos ki vuZlebT im imediT, rom aucileblad davbrundebiT, davbrundebiT, diax, davbrundebiT!..

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natali abesaZe

ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti

`me vxedav sizmrebs ara Tqveneburs~

zRva ZiriTad Savi iyo. xandaxan - lurjic. talRe-bze mTvare sxivebiT biliks areklavda. iyo Rame da es ganaTebuli biliki. ras aRar ambobdnen mere: lursmnis miWedeba ar iciso... almuri ahkravda mgrZnobelobisa, magram ar imCnevda, -musikaa mTavari, musikao... Tavisi leqsi gaaxsendeboda:

„sinamdviles ar vemduri,ar yofila TiTqmis.aryofilze sayveduriarasodes iTqmis“. mainc ganicdida „arapraqtikosobas“, ver gaerkvia,

palto da xelTaTmanebi raRa maindamainc mas ekarge-boda... ratom ver poulobda nacnobebTan laparakSi si-tyvebs, Cveulebriv, samaslaaTo sityvebs...

morigi, genialuri leqsis daweris Semdeg stro-febs rom ramdenjerme gadaikiTxavda, xvdeboda, yve-lafers, magram, radgan veravis eubneboda, zRvasTan Cadioda boboqarTan da erTaderTTan, mxolod mas gaandobda: „marto var, rogorc mTis eklesia“. Sori-dan nawyvetebad modioda peplebis triali yvavilebze, peplebi frTxialebdnen mTeli ganwirulebiT, yviTeli, mimqrali frTebiT Tavs imetebdnen... samagierod, cekva gamodioda artistuli, jer sruliad unaxavi ferebiT savse. zogi imasac ityoda: amayiao. daujerebelia da, is leqsi aviwydebodaT, is erTaderTi leqsi - nazi Tavmd-ablobiT amonaTqvami: „Segayvare kidec Tavi, am ubralo leqsebiT“.

wvimian sarkmels gaxedavda: Srialebdnen sadRac Calis Rerebi. vin icis, rom Calis Rerebi erT-erTi muza iyo misi leqsebisa - bednierebi. gazafxulis erT Tovlian Rames tyem dainaxa, rogor Semovida masTan Savwamosasxamiani, fermkrTali da saxelamazi galak-tioni. tye SeSfoTda da didxans ver mixvda, ra undo-da an, ras eZebda... enZelebs krefs. xem xes uCurCula da uceb mTel tyes moedo - `enZelebs krefs! enZlebs krefs!“. gaexardaT. uTvalTvales. nugeScemuli gam-ovida. fiqrebi simRerad Semodiodnen gulSi: „naZvebs suni edeba, rogorc nazi tkivili, aq ar moexeteba quCis Jivil-xivili“.

ase icis bunebam: Cven TviTon ver vgZnobT, rogor mivyavarT uflamde, is xom Suamavalia adamiansa da RmerTs Soris.

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yovel wuTs, yovel wams. is xom ocnebas iyvarebda, me SenSi Cemi ocneba miyvarso-aki aRiara... meocnebe ada-mianebi ki orjer mets cocxloben, radgan isini aseve arseboben paralelur ganzomilebaSi, gamogonil sam-yaroSi. sinamdvileSi vin iyo misi fiqrebis sagani, la-mazi qali? mere ambobdnen-merio... me ki vfiqrob, rom mas ufro nazi grZnobebi im qalTan akavSirebda, guliT rom daatarebda misi leqsebis yovel striqons, eal-erseboda, sadme sofelSi, rutinul, spetak binaSi mdu-mared gaumxelelad eyvareboda im qalsac... aseT qals Tu uwerda: „zRvispirs dasaxlebulxarT, SvebiT viT ar viqnebi, rom gavige, Tana gaqvT yvela Cemi wignebi...“ am qals wvima eqneboda TvalebSi da Tvalebi mainc eqne-boda siSoriTa da siyvaruliT gamTbari da albaT aseT qals Tu Seacqerdeboda, rogorc oqros, Camaval mzes, Camavals...

ar maqvs ufleba, vivaraudo misi bolo fiqrebi, magram maqvs safuZveli, vifiqro, rom es iqneboda riT-miani, ara areul-dareuli, aramed musikasaviT naTeli da logikuri... vTqvaT, aseTi:

„TavSi qariSxalia,isrebs mtrebi hkalaven,ukve didi xania, TeTr kedlebSi gmalaven.galaktion! adeqi! Sen miwaze ra ginda!axla swored is droa, rom aqedan gafrinde!“

ambobdnen kidev jadoqariao. man xom sakuTari pal-atebi Seqmna, gars rom uvlidnen luciferebi, demone-bi, qimerebi... iqneb bevric ukirkites, magram mainc ver gauges, sad iyo es bneli xveulebi, sadac gamoucnob arsebebs, qimerebs, eZinaT. ver miuxvdnen da saerTo ena ver upoves, mere, mxrebCamoyrilni adgnen da Tavis pal-atebSi martodmarto datoves. man ki iloca. - „ wmind-ao, damicev! suroSi, saSiSrad mivardnil kedlebSi...“ - „me Seni umanko naTeli mawvalebs, me veli saswauls.“ ase daamTavra locva saswaulis molodinSi, radgan bo-lomde ver mixvda, rom sarkeeebisadmi gancdili SiSis miuxedavad, saswauli sasaxlis sarkeebidan uyurebda, roca sarkeebis win idga. xolo kedlebze renuaris un-azesi naxatebiviT krTebodnen mocisfro melniT daw-erili strofebi bavSvobaze. es Tema; bavSvi, yvelaze Zvirfasi da yvelaze mgrZnobiare, daiareboda limfa-Si... „bavSvobidanve iyavi marto, jvarze gakruli, Sen suli gqonda metad faqizi da daCagruli... viRacam al-baT gaiara Sens spetak sulSi, aRzrdilma Senebr mar-toobiT da sinanulSi“

ase aRiwereba yvelaze srulyofilad siyvaruli. siyvaruli wmindaa, xolo imas, rac wmindaa, bavSvis unazesi siwrfele dakravs. xolo bavSvoba aluCebTan, moxuc mamasTan sasxlaviT xelSi, ezoSi rom hyefda bambura mura, kidev imasTan asocirdeboda. amis mere, zogi utifari imasac ki ityoda - ,,quCaSi bavSvi waiqca? waiqces mere... waiqceva da keTilsindisieri gamvlelebi wamoayenebeno...“ siyvaruli Tu ganucdia?! ramdenjer,

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Zaxili

sazogadoebas ver iTmens misgan gansxvavebul ada-mians... SeuZlebelia Cemze metad vinme ganicdides Sens `mdgomareobas~ ...SeuZlebelia Cemze metad vinmes es-modes Seni... Rame ar arsebobs iseTi, amaze fiqri qariSxaliviT ar amomivardes gonebaSi... gulis gulSi rom ZarRvi miZgers mudmivad, iq amtkivdebi xolme, amtkivdebi da mere rogor... damijere, imaze saSineli araferia, roca ar SegiZlia sayvarel adamians SeWrili frTebisagan darCenili naiarevi mouSuSo. mTeli dRis nafereb, naloliaveb sulSi, qurdiviT Semoipareba wy-euli Rame da maRviZebs ise, TiTqos gangeb Wiqa daegdos an kari moejaxunebinos... Sens oTaxSi martoobisa da sicivis mZafri suni dgas. CemsaSic, geficebi, CemsaSic zustad asea, magram me zogjer miwasTan gaTanabrebulma casac SemiZlia Sevwvde safrenad. Sen ki... Sen ki... usa-marTlo cxovrebam Sen ar mogca amis saSualeba, gagwi-

qristi CakvetaZe

soxumis saxelmwifo universiteti

mere zRvamac dainaxa, mTamac, wyalmac, yvavilebmac da haermac igrZno: mas sxeuli ar gaaCnda, xolo suli misi musikad qceuliyo. „simRerad iqca! simRerad da foTlebis Srialad iqca! Citebis galobad da wvimis hangebad iqca! „ -gaocebuli CurCulebdnen xeebi, bolos mTel qveyanasac ki gaagebines. is mxrebawurulebi, saSi-Sar palatebSi rom marto datoves galaktioni, merec didxans ukirkitebdnen mis poezias... ra mxriT aRar udgebodnen, ras aRar cdilobdnen. miukarebi, Seuwv-domeli darCa. „vinac gaigebs CuqurTmas qarTuls, is poezias Cemsas gaigebso“ -dauweria kidec. icis mxolod bunebam, Suamavalma kacsa da RmerTs Soris, magram ara-sodes gaamxels nebiT.

ras aRar ambobdnen mere masze: „lursmnis miWedebac ar SeuZliao...“.

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weli mixaria, roca Cven Tbilad SemovusxdebiT sagange-bod gawyobil magidas, samudamod Sokoladiani rZis, karaqiani puris, Tbili qurTukisa da windebis natvraSi ganwirulebis Cumi xavili mixSobs yurebs. warmovidgen, rogor eyinebaT ZarRvebSi sisxli, rogor aweren ked-lebs Savi naxSiriT, rom SiaT, maTac SiaT....zogjer ar vici Seni realobas mowyvetili sicocxle ufro saSine-lia Tu Cems TvalTa uZiro tbaSi Casaxlebuli, daoble-buli da bavSvobawarTmeuli bavSvebisa da Svilmkvdari dedebis yofis autaneli simsubuqe.

geficebi arc Cemi dabadebis dRe mixaria... arc Sen gixaria... maTac ar uxariaT geficebi !!!

sanam adamianebs SeuZliaT gulwrfelobisaTvis fsiqiatriuli pacientad Segracxon, iqamde bedniereba cudi kaligrafiiT Sesrulebuli, xelovnebis yalbi ni-muSia mxolod. TvalebSi mainc tkivili maqvs Cagube-buli. verdamarxuli sinanulis. ubralod zogjer unda gavCerde, qaric xom sadRac Cadgeba xolme.

Cemo qvecnobiero, ase urcxvad da utifrad va-pireb, rom agaforiaqo da SenSi mSobliur mxaresTan dakavSirebuli miZinebuli grZnobebi gavaRviZo.

afxazeTis dakargvis Semdeg yvela soxumelis nat-vra hgavda im bevr sxva, didi xnis nanatr survilebs, romelTa Sesrulebazec samudamo uars gvicxadeben. Tumca Sen arasodes yofilxar afxazeTSi, ar ginaxavs gadamwvari soflebi, aCexili baRebi, zantad Camowoli-li sevda soxumis caze, nacrisferi awmyo da bundovani momavali im adamianebisa, romlebmac samudamod gayines

ra, ise gagwira samudamod miwaze xoxvisTvis gagimeta... mogwons saxlSi yofna, simyudrove, bolomde gadaweuli fardebi... mogwons, imitom rom sxva gza ar aris... unda mogwondes da morCa... rogorc ki Seni budidan fexs gaadgam, xalxis daJinebuli mzera sasikvdilod dagi-Wris mravalgzis natanj suls. ararsebuli Wrilobe-bidan sisxli gdis... ver gSveli, idinos, gauSvi, idi-nos... ise modian SenTan TiTqos zooparkis uiSviaTesi cxoveli iyo...dganan rkinis gisosebs miRma da giyure-ben... _ gauSvi, giyuron... giyuron... urcxvad daabije-ben trotuarze da saxeze araferi etyobaT, saerTod araferi...sinamdvileSi yvelani boRmiT arian savse, ho, boRmiT. swored amitom ver dafrinaven, maTac Sensav-ic ar SeuZliaT cas Sewvdnen safrenad, oRond bevrad ufro amazrzeni mizezis gamo. geficebi gulwrfeli var. mZuls fuWi TanagrZnoba, is rom xvalindeli dRe pozitivia, saSineli mosasmenia, yvela imedebiT gavsebs. aravin getyvis: aiRe Cemi xeli da erTad davuwveT jo-joxeTso. TanagrZnoba sxva araferia, Tu ara survili imisa, rom `TanamgrZnobi~-piri swrafad gaTavisufldes im simZimisagan, romelsac sxvisi ubedureba mohgvris. _ Sen ar gixaria pirveli Tovli, zafxulis Sxapuna wvima, Semodgomis mTvrali haeri, mzismotrfiale gazafxulis xelisgulebis netari siTbo.. ar gixaria...

geficebi, arc me mixaria, me mxolod wvima miyvars, maTrobs, furcelze melnad mRvris, magrZnobinebs, rom am gacveTili WurWlis SigniT raRac maqvs...raRac ufro Rirebuli, vidre es dampali leSia! arc axali

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namdvilad, ra Tqma unda, Sansi rom mqondes sizmrebs realobad vaqcevdi, Sevivsebdi sulSi am sicarieles, Sevwyvetdi dausrulebel foriaqs, romelic CemSi ara-sodes wydeba. marTalia, mtredisfers veRar, magram burusSi gaxveul soxumis dilasac siamovnebiT davu-brundebodi... im soxums, romlis alionic iq daxocil saukeTeso qarTvelTa sisxliTaa gajerebuli. maxsovs, erTxel 3-4 wlis viyavi, rodesac mkiTxes, saidan xaro, me mamas SevanaTe ususuri Tvalebi im imediT, rom is Cem magivrad gascemda pasuxs am SekiTxvas. mama asec moiq-ca... Tumca, Sevatyve rogor gaaJrJola usiamovnod, mas ratomRac egona rom TavisTavad unda mcodnoda, mcod-noda da myvareboda. devnilTa sacxovrebeli iyo Cveni droebiTi TavSesafari, magram mama iolad uZlebda, radgan guliT Tavis wil soxumis zRvas, miwas da haers daatarebda, romelic Semdeg mec miwilada. _ ase rom, aRaranairi skepticizmi, Cemo Sinagano xmav! mama, gTx-ov, uTxari mas, vinc samyaros oTxive mxares mirCevnia, daadumos Cemi Sinagani xma, ausrulos natvra, romlis Sesrulebazec samudamo uars ucxadeben. uTxari, uTx-ari rom ufro metad uyvardes mSobliuri miwis gareSe darCenili xalxi... maT xom mTeli cxovreba zurgiT unda ataron es mZime jvari.

gonebaSi ukve kargad gacrecili Sav-TeTri kadrebi. anda risi maqnisia am sisxlis TqeSSi Seni umweo xavili, rom arasodes yofilxar mSobliur mxareSi da gerCivna Senc igive gamogecada `raTa ar moekali daukmayofile-blobisa da arasrulfasovnebis grZnobas, gekiTxebi risi maqnisia ?!

_ ho, marTalia, me arasodes vyofilvar afxazeTSi, imaSic geTanxmebi, rom Cemi xavili umweoa da namdvilad mklavs arasrulfasovnebis grZnobac, Tumca mainc im kuTxis Svili var, `sadac miwa qristes guliviT Tbilia. sadac haeri Cemi winarebis amonasunTqia...me im miwisa var, romelsac Zlieri yivili scodnia~. gamudmebiT meZaxis, mixmobs, momiare momefereo...

me soxumeli viqnebi yovelTvis, sadac ar unda mimiy-vanos bedisweram. gulisgulSi erTi patara ZarRvi miZ-gers, romlis yoveli dartyma da yoveli biZgi maxsen-ebs, rom me, sxvaze meti siyvaruli Tundac imitom unda SemeZlos rom Rrmad vgrZnob gulis xmas ayolil Zax-ils: so-xu-mi, soxumi!!! kargi, radgan ase Zlierad gqo-nia sulSi eg Seni miwis siyvaruli fesvebad gadgmuli, gkiTxav: Sansi rom gqondes miatovebdi Sens cxovrebas? yvelasa da yvelafers, mag daukmayofileblobis grZno-bis Tavidan mosaSoreblad? _ hm... Sen albaT ggonia, rom axla gipasuxeb: ici, damafiqrebeli kiTxvaa... arc iseTi advilia yvelasa da yvelafris mitoveba, Tumca ar gamovricxav, SeiZleba asec movqceuliyavi. magram ara, ar moganiWeb am bednierebas da SenSi arsebul skep-ticizms niadags gamovacli! getyvi, rom- ho, ki, diax,

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mac SeiZleba sibneleSi siamovneba moganiWos. Seni vne-ba daakmayofilos, magram ver Segpirdebi, rom msgavs rames sinaTlis dadgomis drosac igrZnob, radgan iq me Cacmuli, sazogadoebaSi myofi romelime konkretuli pirovneba viqnebi da ara SiSveli eva. me sxva pirovnebad gadaviqcevi. Cemi suli moZraobas daiwyebs, Cemi idee-bi xorcSesxmas, xolo ocnebebi realobaSi gadasvlas. Tumca ar vici, maSinac mogewonebi? maSinac mogindebi? maSinac, roca dRis sinaTleze aRar viqnebi seqsualuri eva. maSin, roca Cemi ukanali, fexebi Tu mkerdi aRar mogeCveneba iseTi aRmgznebi, rogorc es sibneleSi ge-gona. maSin, roca Sen winaSe mxolod erTi Cveulebrivi qali idgeba. qali, romelsac surs bedniereba. qali, romelic mitovebulia, daufasebeli, umweo, cremlebiT daRlili, magram yvelafris axlidan dawyebis survili-Taa gaJRenTili...

gendomebi? mogewonebi? geyvarebi? Tu getyvi, rom SemiZlia SenTan erTad gavafrino, adrenalinis umaR-lesi done gamovxato da dagimtkico, rom namdvili grZnoba swored sigiJea? Tu getyvi, rom minda SenTan erTad mTebi, zRvebi, mwvervalebi davlaSqro. para-SutiT SenTan erTad gadmovxte da davinaxo Seni saxe, roca mixvdebi, rom namdvili urTierToba amgvari Tav-isuflebasaviT tkbilia.

SegiZlia mxolod imis gamo giyvarde, rom minda Cveni mTavari vneba erTmaneTis sunis SegrZneba da Tvalebis danaxva iyos? imis gamo, rom minda Cemi xeliT sigarets mogikido. Seni saxe mis kvamlSi davinaxo. Cai mogimza-

adami da eva

axla cariel oTaxSi vzivar da sakuTar martoobas vebrZvi. saxlSi sruli siCume sufevs. meore oTaxidan mxolod saaTis wikwiki moismis. karze aravin akakunebs. arc aravin Semodis, arc aravin gadis. oTaxSi sinaTle Cavaqre da bnel oTaxSi, rbil loginze horizontalu-rad wamovweqi. mindoda oTaxis siCume momesmina. mindo-da Cemi Tavi Cemad megrZno. mindoda yvelaferi gamexada da sul ramdenime wuTiT mainc, im evas davmsgavsebodi, romelic adamis mosvlas eloda.

xo, Zalian mominda kari gaRebuliyo da iq Cemi adami Semosuliyo. adami, romelsac vetyodi: aha, naxe! es me var, eva. Seni Semqmneli. ai, es me var, aranairi rolis, samosis ar mqone. modi! Seexe Cems sxeuls da miiRe is, rac ginda. Tumca ar daiviwyo, rom es sxeulia, materi-is umaRlesi gamoxatuleba da sxva araferi, romel-

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iqnebi Cemi. arasodes dagelodebi Ralatis Semdeg. arasodes mogismen tyuilis Semdeg. arasodes getyvi, rom siyvarulis gamo yvelafers gapatieb. ver dawvebi CemTan, Tu sxva qalis suni geqneba.

gendomebi? mec mendomebi...geyvarebi? mec meyvarebi...arada, ar viqnebi grZnobis monad qceuli qali. iseve

dagiviwyeb, rogorc maxsovdi. iseve gagiSveb, rogorc mogiyvane.

metkineba,amewveba,cremli wamomiva,sunTqva gamiWirdeba,magram arauSavs...cxovreba gagrZeldeba.sicocxle mendomeba, radgan me ar viqnebi seqsua-

luri, damcirebuli eva, aramed me viqnebi mitovebuli, magram mzis sinaTleze myofi qali, romelic isev iqneba cariel oTaxSi

isev mousmens siCumes,isev igrZnobs sakuTar Tavs Tavisad,isev dawveba rbil sawolze horizontalurad da isev daelodeba axali adamis, ukve mzian oTaxSi

Semosvlas...

do da usaSvelo Rame erTad myofebma srul dumilSi gavlioT? mere saxe dagikocno, Sens wvers Sevexo da TvalebdaxuWulma Seni sunTqvis xma dausruleblad mo-vismino?

ivli CemTan erTad, ara seqsualur qalTan erTad, Cveulebrivi, cxovrebis suniT gaJRenTil qalTan er-Tad umisamarTod?... iq, sadac gza ar iqneba. iq, sadac bevri foToli iqneba Camoyrili. iq, sadac mindvris yvavilebSi CemTan erTad dawvebi da dausruleblad mo-miyvebi Seni dardisa Tu sixarulis Sesaxeb?

me ar gpirdebi, rom viqnebi idealuri coli. ar geubnebi, rom dausruleblad dagelodebi mxolod imis gamo, rom miyvarxar.

SeiZleba xSirad saWmelic ver dagaxvedro. SeiZleba ver viyo idealuri deda Seni SvilebisTvis da idealuri partniori seqsis dros. magram ici raa? me SemiZlia dro gagiCero da Tavi bednier adamianad gagrZnobino mxolod imitom, rom Sen SegeZleba gagiJeba. me Semi-Zlia viyo Seni saukeTeso megobari da pirdapir giTxra, rom xar nabiWvari, Tu es saWiro iqneba. me viqnebi Seni xelebi, Tu ver SeZleb maT amoZravebas. me viqnebi Seni Tvalebi, Tu dabrmavdebi da yurebi- Tu dayruvdebi. wagikiTxav imdenjer, ramdenjerac mTxov. CavrTav musi-kas, romelic Sen mogewoneba da giSovi „balaxs“ Tu es Senc gagiswordeba.

sxva ra giTxra... Sen Cemi kaci iqnebi. me ki- Seni qali.

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Cvens saqmeze, Semoqmedebaze, am SemTxvevaSi _ ojaxsa da Svilebze vfiqrobT. amitom mgonia, arasdros ar viciT, ramdenad sworad gvaqvs gaazrebuli nabiji, romelsac dedoba/coloba hqvia. marto Sedegi amzeurebs Cvens namdvil Sexedulebebs. manamde SegviZlia, mxolod vi-msjeloT… Znelia gaisigrZegano uangroba mTeli siR-rmiT, roca dabadebidan vswavlobT qmedebebis mizez-Sedegobrivobas da veCveviT, ras ̀ miviRebT~ ̀ samagierod~ e. i. yoveli `Tesva~, `mkisTvisaa~ da ar arsebobs sfero Tu saqme, romelic `mosavals~ ar iZleva.

Cvenc veliT… filosofiur Tu orTodoqsul wi-aRSic ki, sulierebis yvela simaRleze, angarebiania adamianis uangaroba, romelic metafizikur `gasamrje-los~ elis. sulierma mamebmac ician, rom Rvawli uf-lis mier (Se)fasdeba… erSi ki vambobT, rom _ `RmerTi gadagixdis~, `iq~ dagifasdeba~ da a. S. maSin ra gasak-viria, Tu iseTi msxverplis gaRebisas, rogorsac ojax-uri uReli da gansakuTrebiT dedoba moiTxovs, Cven veliT, rom gmiris wodebas Tu ara, oqros ordens mainc miviRebT (romelsac ra Tqma unda yvela mSobeli da meuRle imsaxurebs).

xSirad `miwevs~ vifiqro am fenomenze. `daufasebel~ mSoblebze, `uZReb~ Svilebze da im sindisis qenjnaze, romelic am fiqrebs axlavs. mTeli cxovreba SeiZleba Tan gvdevs da Cvens produqtiulobazec axdens gavle-nas. SenTvis ramdeni gaakeTes, Sen ki… aseTi xar… ai, aseTi… sxvanairi unda gaxde! axla Seni msxverplis je-ria. axla Sen Tqvi Sens Tavze uari. aseT SemTxevaSi al-

vardisferi bambis nayini: `gmiri~ deda da `daunaxavi~ Svilebi

`madlieri aravinaa!~`tyuilad gavwire Cemi axalgazrdoba~`yvela umaduria!~ akeTebde rames mTeli guliT, mondomebiT da im

molodiniT, rom ̀ dagifaseben~ da uangarobis qveteqsti iyos rame gansakuTrebul `movlenad~ aRiarebis imedi, es msoflmxedveloba CanasaxSive ganwirulia da sava-raudo Sedegad imedgacrueba moaqvs… samyarom xom mis nayofs TavisTavad iZleva da Semoqmedma Segvqmna ara imitom, rom Cvengan rames elis… Cven didi energiis bunebrivi nawilakebi varT da es iseTive bunebrivi mov-lenaa, rogorc nayofi xeze…

_ 0:05 adamianis damokidebulebac am cudad Camoya-libebuli filosofiidan unda gamomdinareobdes, roca

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gi diasaxlisi, mSromeli mama, urCi ese igi daunaxavi Svilebi. nu daxurdavdebiT, Secdoma gacilebiT ufro adre, cnobierebis im doneze daiSva, roca warmodgenebi yalibdeboda.

maSin roca CavibeWdeT, rom ojaxis misias Tundac saWiroebis gareSe SevwiravdiT sakuTar egos da moma-valSi amisTvis `sazRaurs~ miviRebdiT. jildo ki xdeba da — ar moCans… mainc konkretulad ras veliT san-acvlod, roca vfiqrobT da vsaubrobT im msxverplsa da daTmobebze, romelic mSoblad yofnis gamo gaviReT, rom dakargul drosa da SesaZleblobebs dagvibrune-ben? Tu, Sesawirad Svilebi axla sakuTr cxovrebas gaiReben da msxverpls msxverpli daemateba… saboloo jamSi viRebT Semdeg suraTs _ ukmayofilo mSobeli da namusze agdebuli Svili, romelmac ar icis rogor `gadauxados~ mSobels `samagiero~ imisTvis, rac mis-Tvis gaakeTa da es Widili gaurkvevlobis sazvereSi zogjer samudamodac gvWedavs. ras mogvcems, warsulis gamo awmyos SesaZleblobebze uaris Tqma, mSoblebi ama-gis sanacvlod Svilebis Tavisuflebas iTxoven, maT ki arealze xSirad eRobeba gmiri mSoblis xati da sindi-sis qenjna.

dabneuloba, raRacas arasworad akeTebs, ise ara, rogorc aswavlidnen, raRac ise ar surs, rogorc `saWiroa~. …da rac Seexeba mes identificirebas, me _ Cemi SecdomebiT da Cemi pirobiTi arasworobiT. yvela mSobels SvilisTvis saukeTeso unda, es udavoa, magram ra aris saukeTesos gansazRvreba da emTxveva Tu ara

baT yvela Cvengans gauelvebs gonebaSi azri, Rirs ki ig-ive arCevanis gakeTeba (ojaxis Seqmna), roca Sen irgvliv ZiriTadad ukmayofilo mSoblebi da meuRleebi arian…

maT SemTxvevaSi aRmoCnda, rom molodini ar gau-marTldaT da awamebT fiqri — `amad Rirda?~ da sad dauSves Secdoma, an ratom aravin amCnevs bzinvarebas kafelis, romelsac muxlCaxrili xexavda… Svilebi sax-lSi droze ar brundebian, maT iseTi ojaxebic ki ar Seqmnes rogoric gsurdaT, Tqven ukeTesi Svili xarT, risTvis gaiReT amxela msxverpli da marTlac, risT-vis? sakuTar Tavze uaris Tqma, gana es vinmes sWirdebo-da? sxvanairad Svilebi ver izrdebian? isini xom mainc ar Camoyalibdnen iseTebad, rogoric gsurdaT? Tqvens meaTe zars aRar pasuxobs.

oTaxSi areulobaa. araa sakmarisi disciplina, iseve rogorc araa sakmarisi saxlis dalageba da arasdrosaa sakmarisi fuli. es pesimizmi, wuwuni, Sexsenebebi, ube-durebis gancda, foriaqi. am WaobSi CaZirvis dauZleveli midrekileba.

ojaxis Seqmna sociumSi TiTqos warmatebisa da bed-nierebisken gadadgmul nabijad iTvleba, sanam sirTu-leebi dagvawveba, Cemi subieqturi dakvirvebiT, es ̀ vard-isferi bambis nayini~, sazogadoebrivi iluziaa, romlis realobad qcevas Cveni cru molodinebi da damaxinje-buli midgoma uSlis xels. am yvelafris gacnobiereba sasowarkveTas da amaoebis gancdas iwvevs. modundi, yvelaferi xom iseTi martivia da xanmokle… Tqven ver isvenebT, sadRac dauSviT Secdoma. kargi deda, kar-

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erTi, rasac Svilisgan moiTxoven, es Tavisuflebaa da erTaderTi riTac sakuTr mSoblebs `vals~ gadauxdian, is amagia, romelsac SvilebisTvis TviTonac gaiReben.

yofac ufro iolia, Tu gamravlebis ideas sworad gavigebT — rom Cveni msxverpli xSirad gadametebuli da uadgilo mxolod maSinaa gamarTlebuli, Tu Sed-egad Cveni `nayofi~ siamis tyupiviT mojaWvuli arseba ki ara, yvedrebisa da aunazRaurebeli Sromis Sexsen-ebisgan damoukidebeli, jansaRi individi iqneba. es su-lac ar niSnavs srulyofil da mosawyen idealurobas, es bumbulebdacvenili da urCi personaa, Tqveni medlis meore mxare.

is erTmaneTisas. metwilad mSoblebs ar surT miiRon Svilebi iseTebad, rogorebic arian, miuxedavad maTi aRzrdisa da survilisa. gansakuTrebiT Tu is mSoblis idealis sapirispiroa. amgvari urTierToba formird-eba tuqsvis da sayvedurebis farglebSi. wuxili, dana-Sulis grZnoba da ufskrulis xaxa, romelic Svilsa da mSobels Soris sxvaobaa. survili da valdebulebebi, vin surT rom iyo da vin xar, leitmotivad Tanmdevi gaugebroba, rogorc jado.

es werili friadosan Svilebze ar aris, ar aris maTze, vinc solfejios kargad imitom swavlobs, rom deda gaaxaros da fakultetsac Sesabamisad irCevs. es abdaubda damjer Svilebs ar exebaT. mSoblis gzis re-fleqsur gamgrZeleblebs da kargad naZerw srulyo-filebebs, romlebsac ar uyvarT alternativa da gauTe-lavi bilikebi. me im madlier Svilebze vsaubrob, vinc mSoblis amagis sanacvlod cxovrobs, namdvilad cx-ovrobs, gaukafav da udabur gzebze dReebis cveTiT. visac ar aqvs dedamisis TeTreuliviT Calagebuli az-rebi, gaprialebuli parketiviT Sexedulebebi, mowes-rigebuli oTaxi da gansazRvruli cxovreba.

aseTebs mxurvale siyvaruli SeuZliaT, Signidan mwveli, garegnulad utyvi, daculi, gaazrebuli da ra qnan, Tu araa, fortepianosaviT idealurad naswavli. maTTan ar muSaobs miRebuli, nacadi receptebi. es pos-ti urC Svilebzea, romlebic siyvarulis da madlierebis dasamtkiceblad verafers dagpirdebian, magram zustad ician, Tu rodesme iqnebian mSoblis ampluaSi, erTad-

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wignis kiTxvas sargebeli?“, „mainc, ra saxisaa es sarge-beli?“, „wigns mxolod wakiTxva sWirdeba (sasaciloa, rom wigns sWirdeba, Turme, wakiTxva), Tu gageba-gaaz-rebac?“, „rogor gaviazroT esa Tu is wigni?“. mokled, SekiTxvebis namdvili koriantelia.

es is iSviaTi SemTxvevaa, rodesac kiTxvaze meti pa-suxi arsebobs. wignis kiTxvas nebismieri bunebis ada-mianisaTvis SeuZlia garkveuli „sargeblis“ micema. Se-sabamisad, calkeuli adamianisaTvis calkeuli pasuxis gamoZebna SeiZleba. yvelaze martivi da racionaluri mizezi, Tu ratom unda wavikiTxoT wigni, vfiqrob, ase unda JRerdes: wignebis kiTxva kolosalurad amaR-lebs TviTSefasebas, rac sazogadoebaSi sakuTari Ses-aZleblobebis realizebis SesaZleblobas ramdenjerme zrdis. Tumca, mxatvruli literaturis mkiTxvelTaT-vis racionalur mizezebSi kirkiti ucxoa, amitom am sakiTxs vrclad aRar Sevexebi.

aristoteles „metafizikis“ pirveli winadadebis wakiTxvac sakmarisia imis aRmosaCenad, rom, Turme, ada-miani bunebiT aris midrekili Semecnebisaken. ki, magram _ ikiTxavs vinme _ SemecnebiTi procesi maincdamainc mxatvruli literaturis kiTxvas xom ar gulisxmobs? marTebuli SekiTxvaa da marTebuli pasuxic sWirdeba: nebismieri SemecnebiTi procesi, romlis subieqtic ada-miania, sabolood sakuTari Tavis, an sazogadod ada-mianis arsis Semecnebis mcdelobamde midis da gana ra daexmareba adamians sakuTari Tavis Tu adamianis arsis SemecnebaSi mxatvrul literaturaze metad?!

`aris mkiTxveli mSvenier wignis da aris mxolod gadamkiTxveli~

iyo dro, roca SekiTxva _ `ratom unda wavikiTxoT wigni?” _ sasacilod JRerda. diax, vinc kiTxvis gemo icis, maTTvis wignebis kiTxvas arc mizezi sWirdeba da arc raime konkretuli mizani aqvs, magram ra pasuxi unda gavceT dainteresebul sazogadoebas am erTi SexedviT umartives SekiTxvaze?

dResdReobiT wignis funqciis dakargvasTan dakav-SirebiT mTeli msoflios masStabiT uamravi werili Tu sxvadasxva saxis gamokvleva ibeWdeba, Tumca, mkiTxveli yovel maTganSi mxolod problemuri sakiTxis dasmas, xazgasmasa da xmamimSral protests xvdeba. SekiTxva ki pasuxgaucemeli rCeba. es „umartivesi“ SekiTxva sxva „umartivesi“ SekiTxvebis winapirobad iqca: „moaqvs

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guram doCanaSvilis sityvebs: `yoveli momdevno wign-is wakiTxvis Semdeg adamiani xdeba imaze ukeTesi, vi-dre iyo manamde“. aris ki es ase? Cemi azriT, _ ara da SeuZlebelia, rom Tavad guram doCanaSvili ver xvde-bodes amas. wignis wakiTxva ar niSnavs, rom mkiTxveli gaxdeba „ukeTesi“ am sityvis im mniSvnelobiT, ra mniS-vnelobiTac Cveni mwerali brZanebs (Tumca, Tu mwerlis am sityvebs pirdapiri mniSvnelobiT ar gaviazrebT da qveteqstebs movuZebniT, mis sxvagvarad ganmartebasac SevZlebT. iqneb mwerali sulac ar aRiqvams wignad iseT „wigns“, romelic adamians ar exmareba gaxdes ukeTesi? vin icis...) sinamdvileSi, wignebis kiTxva gaZlevs Zalas, romelsac yoveli adamiani survilisamebr gamoiyenebs rogorc sasikeTod, ise _ piriqiT.

sxvaTaSoris, aseTi SekiTxvac xSirad ismis: „ra si-amovnebas iRebT kiTxvisas?“ es, ra Tqma unda, indi-vidualuria da am SekiTxvaze erTi, konkretuli da amomwuravi pasuxi ar arsebobs. Cemi azriT, yvelaze sasiamovno wignis kiTxvisas „gamocnobaa“. Tu im gamoc-nobas, romelzec aristotele saubrobs „poetikaSi“, aviRebT da mkiTxvelis mier avtoriseuli intenciebis gamocnobas mivusadagebT, miviRebT movlenas, romelic Cemi subieqturi azriT, yvelaze did siamovnebas ani-Webs mkiTxvels. magram aqve isic unda aRiniSnos, rom mkiTxvelisTvis SeiZleba sulac ar iyos avtoriseuli intencia saintereso, miT umetes, epoqaSi, romelSic, rogorc rolan barti ityoda, „avtori mokvda“ da darCa teqsti, rogorc yvelaze metad sicocxlisu-

„aqtualur“ SekiTxvas didma amerikelma mweralma, nobelis premiis laureatma, uiliam folknerma, arc meti, arc naklebi, ase upasuxa: „mxatvruli litera-tura adamians gadarCenaSi exmareba“. ra igulisxmeba folkneris am sityvebSi? iqneb is, rom roca Tavis mokv-las davapirebT, Cvens nacvlad Tavs moiklaven kventini (simboluria folkneris sityvebis gamarTlebis folkn-eris TviTmkvleli gmiriTve dawyeba), martin ideni, ana karenina, nikolai stavrogini, andrei Jivago, karlseni (knut hamsunis „misteriebidan“), wiwola da sxvani da sx-vani? diax, vfiqrob, folknerma nawilobriv swored es igulisxma. Tavad folkneri aqve imasac aRniSnavs, rom aseT kritikul viTarebaSi literatura adamians mis diad qmedebebs, keTil saqmeebs axsenebs. am sityvebze, ginda _ ar ginda, gaxsendeba saocrad originaluri xed-vis mqone mwerali dante aligieri, romelmac „RvTaebriv komediaSi“ tradiciulad arsebuli codvebis damaviwye-beli mdinaris „leTes“ gverdiT Seqmna sikeTis Semxsen-ebeli mdinare „evnoe“. mxatvruli literatura swored „evnoes“ funqcias asrulebs saaqao cxovrebaSi. 1950 wels nobelis premiis miRebisas folknerma ganacxada, rom literaturam unda weros gulze, rogorc gulze da ara rogorc organoze. diax, megobrebo, ikiTxeT mx-atvruli literatura, radgan mudmivad da ukeTesad aRiqvaT guli, rogorc guli da ara rogorc dguSi, romelic organizmSi sisxls anawilebs.

mxatvruli literaturis avkargianobaze saubri-sas aucileblad unda SevexoT didi qarTveli mwerlis

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blad unda ganvazogadoT, Tu gvsurs avtoris daTe-sili movimkaT (Tundac araavtoriseulad, Cveneburad). mweralsac da wignsac mkiTxveli acocxlebs. mkiTx-veli, romelic teqsts iazrebs da ara gadamkiTxveli, romelic teqsts gadaikiTxavs. sabWoTa kavSiris dros mTeli msoflios masStabiT Catarebul eqsperimentSi, romelic miznad yvelaze nakiTxi eris gamovlenas isax-avda, pirvel adgilze rusi eri gavida da Tan uaxloes mdevarze orjer meti procentuli maCvenebeli hqonda. verafers ityvi, upirobo favoritebi iyvnen. yvelaze nakiTxma erma samSoblodan nobelis premiis laureati aleqsandre solJenicini gaaZeva (oRond, am dros mas jer kidev ar hqonda nobelis premia miRebuli). erTi SexedviT, gasakviri araferia, sabWoTa reJimma antisab-WoTa mwerali stalinis kritikisaTvis daapatimra da yazaxeTSi gadaasaxla, magram, hoi sakvirvelebav, wleb-is Semdeg Catarebulma gamokiTxvam aCvena, rom yvelaze nakiTxma erma solJenicinis gadasaxleba marTebulad miiCnia. sainteresoa: 1. ras kiTxulobdnen rusebi? da 2. ras iazrebdnen rusebi? ra esmoda wakiTxuli teqsti-dan yvelaze nakiTx ers? bevri araferi da amaze faqte-bi metyveleben. sxva yvelafers rom Tavi davaneboT, am veeberTela ruseTs sul raRac oTxi nobelianti hyavda da misi mosaxleebi mSobliur literaturaSi solJeni-cinis Txzulebebze ukeTesis wakiTxvis verc survils gamoxatavdnen da verc waikiTxavdnen. isev guram doCa-naSvils mivubrundeT. vasiko keJeraZe sruliad marTe-bulad aRniSnavs, rom wakiTxuls gaazreba sWirdeba da

nariani „organizmi“ da TviTkmari Rirebuleba. aseT SemTxvevaSi mkiTxvelisaTvis yvelaze did siamovnebad teqstis mravalgvari interpretirebis SesaZlebloba gadaiqceva.

mxatvruli literaturis kiTxviT viRebT mza cx-ovrebiseul gamocdilebas. yoveli axali personaJi nawarmoebSi Tavisi piradi cxovrebiT Semodis da raRa-caze migviTiTebs, raRacas gvaswavlis (rogori Rrmani arian am mxriv dostoevskis romanebis personaJebi, romelTa yvelaze umniSvnelo personaJzec ki calke romanis daweraa SesaZlebeli). magaliTad, rodesac kiTxulob antikur tragediebs, personaJebTan erTad dgebi seriozuli dilemebisa Tu arCevanis winaSe. aki ambobs hegeli, rom tragediaSi unda ikveTebodes ori dapirispirebuli mxare da orive marTali unda iyos ara mxolod sakuTar TavTan, azrTan Tu fiqrTan, aramed realobasTan mimarTebiTac. aristotele ki gveubneba, rom mTeli tragedia agebulia mTavari personaJis Sec-domaze. da, ai, dadga is mravalmniSvnelovani momenti, roca Sen, rogorc mkiTxvelma unda gadawyvito, romel-ma dauSva es Secdoma, kreonma Tu antigonem? fiqri, fiqri da ase dausruleblad...

bunebrivia, wakiTxuls gaazreba sWirdeba. mxolod wakiTxva maTTvis aris saintereso, vinc nawarmoebs ambis mimarT interesiT kiTxulobs, sxva SemTxvevaSi ki, rogorc merab mamardaSvili ityoda, „mogvecema filosofiur fiqrSi Cavardnis wami“ (am SemTxvevaSi, wakiTxul wignTan dakavSirebiT), romelic aucile-

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sazogadoeba mozardis pirispir

me mozardi var, me nergi var, romelsac sWirdeba niadagi. es niadagi ki xarT Tqven _ ojaxi, skola da sazogadoeba. es triada ra sazrdosac mawvdis me im Ri-rebulebebis mixedviT vizrdebi, vviTardebi nel-nela damoukidebel individad, miyalibdeba sakuTari Sexed-ulebebi. gifiqriaT Tu ara imaze, Tu rogor macliT fexqveS niadags, rodesac mxolod zedapiruli msjelo-biT SemoifarglebiT da rCebiT mxolod uSedego dema-gogebad. demagogebad, romelTa sityvasac saTanado qmedeba ar mosdevs da romlebic ver iazrebT, rom `dRevandeli sityva xvalindeli dRis xidia~. Cemsa da Tqven Soris Catexili urTierTobebis xidia aRsadgeni. xidis erT mxares me da Cemnairi mozardebi varT, me-ore mxares _ Tqven. Tqveni xma Cvenamde ver aRwevs da Cveni ki - Tqvenamde. bunebrivia is, rom sxvadasxva epo-

sofo petriaSvili

ilias saxelmwifo universiteti

amitom is mzad aris nebismier garemosa Tu viTarebaSi ifiqros wakiTxul wignze.

galaktioni wers: „aris mkiTxveli mSvenier wignisda aris mxolod gadamkiTxveli...is furclavs, niSnavs, adarebs, CiCqnis,magram vinaa aq gamkiTxveli?“ra Tqma unda, wignis gadakiTxva gacilebiT ufro

martivia, vidre wakiTxva da gaazreba. ra mdgomareobaa am mxriv saqarTveloSi? amaze verafers vityvi, radgan me, rogorc ubralod mxatvrul literaturaze Seyva-rebuli cxrameti wlis axalgazrda, „ganmkiTxvelad“ ver vivargeb... mxolod erTis Tqma SemiZlia: wigniere-bis donis aseTi swrafi tempiT vardnis SemTxvevaSi, rei bredberi yvelaze did winaswarmetyvelad iqceva, misi romani, „451º farenhaitiT“ ki, _ yvelaze did winas-warmetyvelebad...

da bolos, warmoidgineT, ramdenad didi da serio-zuli unda iyos problema, rom ubralo publicisturi werilis saTaurad galaktionis aseTi leqsis ori aseTi striqoni gamoitano.

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da ra _ meorexarisxovani. mivyvebiT cxovrebis erTf-erovan rutinul wessa da sxva TvaliT rom dagvanaxa Cveni Tavi, albaT SevicodebdiT, gavkicxavdiT da ga-vakritikebdiT. mivuTiTebdiT, ra da rogor gaekeTe-bina, rogorc gvCvevia `sxvis saqmeSi xom yvela brZeni varT!“, magram saqme saqmeze rom midgeba, `sxvisi Wiri Robis Cxirad~ gviqcevia, sxvis cxovrebaSi mankierebebs aRmovaCenT Tu ara, gamovamzeurebT ise, TiTqosda yve-laze ucodvelni viyoT, TiTqos gagvikvirda an gvew-yina sxvisi beCavi saqcieli, gulis siRrmeSi, SesaZloa, TanagrZnobac gvqondes, magram iqamde misasvleli man-Zili imdenad didia, rom misi gavlac ki ar SegviZlia xeirianad. Cven TviTonac ver vWvretT Cvens sulSi ra xdeba da ar vusmenT sakuTar `mes“. samagierod, guli-syuriT vusmenT da did mniSvnelobas vaniWebT sityvebs `xalxis azri“. gvaviwydeba, rom am `xalxis“ Semadgeneli nawili varT da Cveni subieqturi mosazrebac Tamamad unda davafiqsiroT. davafiqsiroT da davicvaT saku-Tari uflebebi.

gasagebia, rom Znelia miiRo gansxvavebulad moaz-rovne adamiani, magram martivia ubralod pativiscema gamovxatoT da ar gavriyoT is, bolosdabolos, ar ar-sebobs mosazreba, romelSic simarTlis natamali araa da ar unda vuarvyoT, mxolod imitom, rom CvenTvis arastandartulia. TiTqos am standartebis sazomi Cve-ni dawesebuli ar iyos da kacobriobas adami da evadan ase modgamdes. standartebi da uazro CarCoebi, roml-sac TviT adamianebi vuwesebT Cvens cxovrebas da vcdi-

qis Svilebs sxvadasxva Sexedulebebi da cxovrebiseu-li mrwamsi gvaqvs, magram rogor gvinda viswrafodeT ganviTarebisaken maSin, rodesac ar vcdilobT saerTo enis gamonaxvas?! rodesac ar gvinda miviRoT erTmane-Tis gansxvavebuli mosazrebebi, vimsjeloT da azrTa sxvadasxvaobisas WeSmariteba vpovoT, amis magivrad jiqur yvelas Cveni `simarTle“ gvgonia ualterna-tivo da mis iqeT sxva danarCenis diskriminacias vew-eviT. gaufasurebulia emociuri damokidebuleba Cven Soris. magaliTad: xSir SemTxvevaSi mSoblebis mTavar sazrunavs mozardis materialuri uzrunvelyofa war-moadgens da am dros yuradRebis miRma rCeba mSoblebis aRmzrdelobiTi movaleoba - Svilis sulieri ganvi-Tareba. meore mxriv skola, sadac ganaTlebis sistemis arasworma eqsperimentebma moswavlesa da maswavlebels Soris urTierToba gaamwvava, ramac Sedegad mogvca is, rom maswavlebels dRes moswavlis TvalSi dakarguli aqvs sulieri aRmzrdelis funqcia.

da bolos, sazogadoeba, sadac ara mxolod skola da ojaxi moiazreba, aramed is sociumi, romelTanac pirdapiri an iribi Sexeba gvaqvs. didi mniSvneloba aqvs imas, Tu ra saxis informacias vRebulobT maTgan, rogor moqmedebs da ra magaliTis momcemia maTi qmede-bebi CvenTvis. mec xom sazogadoebis nawili var da im SemTxvevaSi vigrZnob Tavs mis srulyofil wevrad, Tu Cemi da maTi Rirebulebebi harmoniuli iqneba.

yvelaze metad ki dRes RirebulebaTa swori gada-faseba gvWirdeba. ver vxvdebiT, ra unda iyos mTavari

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irina arCvaZe

ilias saxelmwifo universiteti

qarTuli Teatris sicocxle

Teatri is cocxali organizmia, romelic aq da axla, moqmedebis procesSi arsebobs.

arsebobs mTeli rigi SegrZnebebiTa da emociebiT. Teatri es aris cocxali xelovneba, romelic pirda-

pir kavSirSia mayurebelTan. is aramxolod wamieri dadgma, aramed istoriaa. da ra viciT Teatrze dRes?ra xdeba qarTul TeatrSi da ra problemebis winaSe

dgas is?omebi iwyeba da sruldeba. mTavrobebi modian da

midian. icvlebian adamianebic da icvleba epoqa. am yvelaf-

ris fonze viTardeba kultura da xelovneba. meoce saukunis qarTuli Teatris istoria, kote

marjaniSvilisa da sandro axmetelis uzado wvlili Cvens kulturaSi is monapovaria, rasac albaT yvelaze metad unda vufrTxildebodeT.

lobT yvelam erTi dinebis mimarTulebiT ganvagrZoT svla, winsvla da ganviTareba ar mosdevs. droa raRac SevcvaloT da es cvlileba personalurad daviwyoT me, Sen... axali Taobis valia winaze metad izrunos ganvi-Tarebaze, marTlac sruli WeSmaritebaa is, rom Svili unda sjobdes mamas, gana amaSi cudi ra aris?! xSiria gamonaTqvemebi axalgazrdebis mimarT `Cveni Taoba sul sxva iyo...“ diax, batonebo, es asec unda iyos!

is, rac Cven Soris Catexil xids aRadgens, aris ufro meti emociuri kavSiri erTmaneTTan, erTmane-Tis mosmena, Tanadgoma da meti uSualoba. swored es gaaferadebs Cvens yoveldRiurobas da Cvens momavals.

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maTi Seqmnili Teatri, romelic erT-erTi yvelaze Rirebuli kulturis brendia Cvens qveyanaSi.

swored es istoria aZlevs Zalas Cvens Teatrs, rom dRemde iarsebobs da ganagrZos TamaSi.

Tumca dRes arsebuli realoba qarTul Teatrisa sakmaod rTuli da mravalwaxnagaa.

erTi periodi problemad imasac ki asaxlebdnen, rom piesebi ar iwereboda da es marTlac sagrZnobi iyo. nacionaluri dramaturgia moikoWlebda. Semdeg aRmoC-nda, rom problema Tanamedrove aparatura, interneti da inovaciebia, romlebmac Cvens kulturul sivrceSi Teatri Caanacvla da mayurebeli waarTva.

ra Tqma unda, imdeni saSualeba gamoigones vizua-luri aRqmis, romelTac Caanacvles Teatris idea, ma-gram realurad es SeuZlebelia.

Teatri erTaderTi mimdinareobaa xelovnebaSi, romelic moiTxovs sunTqvas, Sexebas, dialogs, qmede-bis momentSi.

SeuZlebelia, erTi da igive emociis miReba, maSin roca speqtakls eswrebi, scenasTan dgaxar da mis mt-vers sunTqav da maSin, roca am speqtaklis ubralo Canawerze uyureb.

Tumca, es problema aramarto saqarTvelos, aramed mTel msoflios udgas.

Teatri aRar aris moTxovnadi. ai, saqarTveloSi ki, amas sxva uamravi maxasiaTe-

belic emateba, iseTi, rogoric ekonomikuri mdgomare-obaa.

dRes qarTul Teatrebs ar aqvT SesaZlebloba, rom msaxiobebi uzurnvelyon, izrunon speqtaklebis sazR-vargareT gatanasa da maT piarze.

es yovelive araiSviaTad Tavad msaxiobebisa da Te-atris TanamSromlebis daJinebuli brZolis Sedegad xdeba.

qveyanas sWirdeba kultura, romelic istorias in-axavs.

arsebuli mdgomareoba klavs Teatrs. amas garda, TeatrSi moRvawe uamravi msaxiobia,

romelsac araprofesionaluri midgoma aqvs sakuTari profesiisadmi. es kidev calke problemaa da swored qarTuli TeatrisTvisaa damaxasiaTebeli.

msaxiobs unda SeeZlos TviTganviTareba da sakuTar Tavze bevrs unda muSaobdes, miT ufro, roca saqme Te-atrs exeba. konkurencia aq Zalze uSeRavaToa.

rTulia, visaubroT problemebze Teatris SigniT, roca mis garSemo Tavad is Zalian cotas ainteresebs. roca igi mecenatebmac miatoves...

Tanamedrove qarTuli Teatri mainc cdilobs eqs-perimentebis Catarebas, Tumca mxolod da mxolod vi-zualurad, radgan ideurad axals arafers ambobs.

es maSin, roca gasul saukuneSi qarTuli Teatri revoluciur Teatrad iTvleboda da swored misi saSu-alebiT xdeboda gabrZoleba da gaprotesteba im reJi-mis, romelic individs ebrZoda.

dRes TeatrSi arsebuli mwvave krizisis miuxeda-vad, uniWieresi msaxiobebisa da reJisorebis wyalobiT,

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mainc idgmeba speqtaklebi, saintereso piesebi Tumca axals mainc arafers vambobT.

TiTqos erT adgilze gaiyina qarTuli Teatri da aRar viTardeba. es sazogado problemaa, romlis aR-mofxvris gzebic yvelam erTad unda moviZioT, Tu ar gvsurs rom Teatri sabolood miviwyebul Senebad iqc-es, romelsac daunaneblad avuvliT gverds.

ekonomikuri problemebis garda, aucilebelia in-teresis gazrda sazogadoebaSi Teatris mimarT.

saWiroa bavSvebisa da mozardebis daintereseba Te-atriT, daswreba speqtaklebze, rac maT interess Teat-ris mimarT gaaCens da gaaRrmavebs.

Teatri is sulieri sazrdo da xiluli istoriaa, rac kidev erTi niSniT gamogvarCevs msoflioSi.

gana bevrma icis, rom 1978 wels swored qarTveli reJisori, robert sturua aRiares Seqspiris piesebis saukeTeso damdgmelad Tavad ingliselebma? da rom rusTavelis Teatris dasi erT-erTi saukeTeso msof-lioSi?! samwuxarod, ara!

es mxolod erTeulebma ician, ufro metic, axali Taoba TiTqmis ar icnobs qarTuli Teatris istorias.

Tumca, qarTuli Teatris momavali, swored axali Taobis xelSia da maT unda Seqmnan axali Teatris axali istoria Tavisi siaxleebiTa da inovaciebiT.

madona menTeSaSvili, `sinTezi~, tilo,Tbilisis saxelmwifo samxatvro akademia

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uolt uitmani

o, kapitano, Cemo kapitano!

o, kapitano, Cemo kapitano! Cveni saSineli mgzavroba damTavrda.

xomaldma gauZlo uamrav gansacdels, survili axda da dardi ganqarvda.

porti axlosaa, zarTa xma moismis, xalxi ki zeimobs Cven mier mogebuls,

TandaTan misdeven gemis tans Tvalebi, xedaven gems, mtkices da gabeduls.

magram oh, guli! guli! guli!gembanze sisxlis kvali. sadac asvenia Cemi dacemulikapitnis sxeuli _ mkvdari. o, kapitano! Cemo kapitano! aRsdeg da usmine za-

ekaterine baramiZe

ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti

rebs!aRsdeqi SenTvis gaSlili droSisTvis, bukisTvis,

SenTvis rom mRers. aRsdeqi SenTvisve dawnul gvirgvinTaTvis maRla,

haerSi rom frens. es Sen geZaxian da SenTvis xaroben, es gulni dRes

SenTvis Zgers!gesmis, kapitano? wmindao mamao, rom es mklavebia Seni sasTumali.. albaT sizmaria, rom aq, am gembanzeSeni sxeuli civia da mkvdari.

Cemo kapitano, Sen aRar mpasuxob, bage gaqvs civi da mkrTli,

veRar grZnob Sexebas, pulsic aRara gaqvs, ar Zal-giZs gaaxilo Tvali.

Cven Ruza CavuSviT! davbrundiT! saxlSi varT! mgza-vroba damTavrda...

Cveni gamarjveba, Soridan, xalxisTvis wagebuls ar hgavda..

zeimobs napiri, rekaven zarebida me var dardisgan mTvrali, radgan aq, gembanze sul axlos mizanTanwevxar Sen _ civi da mkvdari !

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siCumeSi, fiqrisas

siCumeSi, fiqrisas vubrundebi, Cems poemebs, vwoni da didxans vyoymanob. yvelaze ufro saSiSi saxiT warimarTeba win moCve-

neba, rogorc saSineli silamaze, anda asaki, an kidev

Zala... Tu rogor dganan antikuri xanis poetTa cecxlisTvala landebi da TiTebs iSveren marad ukvdavi odebisken. mrisxane xma ki Semzaravad CamZaxis yurSida mekiTxeba: ras vqmni ukeTess, nuTu mgonia arsebobs iseTi Tema, goneba rom vers-

gzis gaTelavs?!es xom omia, brZola iRbliT an mis gareSe, SesaniSnavi jariskacebis Semoqmedi.

_ ho, es asea! vpasuxob me!Cemi ambebi mogviTxroben iRbalze, rwmenaze, ukandaxevasa da meryev gmirebze... (jer kidev fiqrebi mboWaven, vai Tu ver Sevwvde simaRles)sikvdils da sicocxles, sxeuls da eul suls cxov-

reba mdelod aqvT... me moval! galobis galobiT brZolebzeda maRla, zenitSi aviyvan mebrZolebs!

jon kleri

me var!

me var, sxva kidev ra var _ arvis uwyis da anaRvlebs, me megobrebma damtoves, gonebidanac wamSales, sakuTar varams am mxrebiT sul martod marto vatareb, Wmunva xan mipyrobs, xan mtovebs _ mosvenebasac ar maZlevs _ hgavs siyvarulis aCrdilebs, yrma kacis guls rom awamebs, kvlavac mqrqal orTqlad varsebob, sanam zeca ar mSTanTqavs me.

garemoculvar sicarielis moTqma _ godebiT, zRva mis talRebze damatarebs ZiliT moTenTils, arsad ar ismis Cqami sicocxlis, siamovnebis, tivtivebs mxolod nafleTebi Cemi ocnebis. uZvirfasesnic _ gulTan yvelaze axlos vinc myavdnen, amjerad CemTvis yvelaze ufro ucxoni gaxdnen.

giorgi vaxtangaSvili

ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti

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veswrafvi adgils, sadac arasdros yofila vinme, qals ucinia, anda Tvalze mosvlia cremli, iq waval natvriT, rom mxolod Cemi uflis gzas mivyve, da Cvili bavSvis tkbil, uSfoTvel Zils mivecemi. sawolis nacvlad mwvane molis davrCe amara, Tavs zemoT zecam Sekras Tavis lurji kamara.

ra aris cxovreba?

raa cxovreba? _ qviSis saaTi medini miwyiv, dilis mzisagan gafantuli qulebi nislis, is usasrulo zmanebaa, tanjva rom mosdevs, misi grZlivoba? _ wamis pauza da gafiqreba. bedniereba? _ mxolod buStia Seqmnili orTqlze duRilTan erTad uceb rom Cndeba da miileva.

imedzec mkiTxavT? _ is grigalia, diliT rom daqris, Tavisi SarmiT cvrian gazonze balaxs rom tanT xdis, sanam gaqreba yvavilebs firuzs da zurmuxts aclis. ablabudaa malviT gabmuli eklebze mayvlis, samalavidan iolad awvdens samsxverplos Sxams is.

raa sikvdili? _ mis saxelSi rom Zrwola binadrobs, nuTu mis sazris amqveynad jerac vervin miagno? _ natvraa Zilis, tanjvisgan dasamalisa. sad dgas simSvidis navsayudeli aba vis axsovs?saerTod arsad _ garda zecisa da samarisa.

maS, raa yofna? farul sazriss rom daveZebT amdens?sulac ar aris sanatreli, amodroeba, dabadebidan, rac ram Sexvdeba Cvens sulel Tvalebs, sul yovelive gviCvenebs mis amaoebas. Tumc mokvdavebma gasagebad cxovrebis fasis, unda gavuZloT yvela gamocdas CvenTvis movlenils, bednierebas, momniWebels yofisTvis azris, ver davafasebT amowurvamde Cveni cxovrebis.

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saadi Sirazeli

(mecamete saukunis sparseli poeti)

* * *gulo, am qveynad sami juris mokeTe viciT, samad samia, ar sWirdeba fici da mtkici. puris mokeTe ganiSore puris natexiT, enis mokeTes ualerse, Cveula Rlicins. sulis moZmes ki xeli unda CavWidoT mtkiced, sulis wil suli unda mivceT, vinc CvenTvis iwvis.

fragmentebi `golesTanidan~

bevri didkaci wavida, drom bevri gadaiyola, maTi nasaxic ar darCa, maTi sicocxle iyo ra.

giorgi xulordava

ivane javaxiSvilis saxelobis Tbilisis saxelmwifo universiteti

miwas rom dafles cxedrebi, didi moTqmiT da vedrebiT, miwam gamoxra Zvlianad, sul erTmaneTze miyora. anuSirvanis saxelicocxlobs, sikeTis mnaxveli, anuSirvani, batono?iyo da ara iyo ra. sikeTe hqeni, mavano!sikvdilmac rom ver gananos. aq kaciSvili ar rCeba, uwevT erTurTis miyola.

* * *mindvris qariviT miqris Jami, miwyiv medini, yvela simware, sixalise ukve midena, mtarvals egona, mogviRebda bolos wamebiT, tanjva mas SerCa, Cagrulebs ki ara imdenad.

* * *vaglax! im fiqriT gailia Zvirfasi wlebi, asruldeboda yvela natvra, yvela zmaneba, imedi axda, magram axla raRa drosia, roca sicocxle ufskrulisken mieqaneba.

* * *diads arasdros ar uwodebs arc erTi brZenimas, vinc diadTa saxels bilwavs uRirsi eniT.

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* * *oi, mtarvalo, xalxs rom bevrjer daec Tavzari, sanamde unda gaaxuro Seni bazari. bolos da bolos es qveyanac dagrCeba oxrad, Seni sikvdili sjobs aTasTa Civils da oxvras.

* * *ar gvmarTebs lxena mosisxle mtris sikvdilis gamo, radgan sicocxle ar gvaqvs qveynad Cvenc samudamo.

fragmenti `busTanidan~

hei, Sen, visac Cems saflavTan mogiwevs gavla, xams wmindanebis moigono ridi da krZalva. saadi miwad qcevis gamo ar swuxs, ufalo, sicocxleSiac miwis mtveri iyo ubralo. casa da miwas akiTxavda, rogorc niavi, miwas miendo morCilebiT, gana siamiT. gaivlis dro da roca sxeuls Savmiwa daxravs, mimoatarebs qari mis ferfls aRma da daRma. dae, yvaodes sibrZnis baRi, baRi aisis, o, nuTu masSi bulbulis xma aRar gaismis. sakvirvelia, miiZinos bulbulma ise, rom mis saflavze ar ayvavdnen vardebi myisve.

omar xaiami

Cvens aq mosvlamde bevrma wyalma xom Caiara, mbrunav Carxisgan bevrs miego, albaT, iara, miwaze frTxilad gaiare, es lamazmanisTvalis gugaa, mTlad ubralo miwa ki ara.

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vinc ki movida, quds dRemudam WerSi isroda, aba, qeifi, alersi da sma da misnoba, erT dResac jami dacales da dadumda yvela, im Zils miecnen, rasac hqvia maradisoba.

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ase amboben, samoTxe da misi huriasjobso yvelafers, me ki mainc Rvino mwyuria, naRdi aiRe da nisias SeeSvi, Zmao, bukis JRaruni Soridanac saamuria.

anvari

Seni danaxva am guls jerac adevs xundebadda siyvaruliT dRevandlamde glovas undeba, ver mileula veRarafriT gulis saxmilida es uSreti cremlTa denac ver Zabundeba.

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Seni xilvisgan zRaprad darCa mTeli qoneba, Senma Tvalebma gaaxeles saRi goneba. sawuTro SeniT sakuTar Tavs gaunapirda, mzes Seni CrdiliT qveyanaze ar edgomeba.

erT Rames mTvarem moixila Seni Rawvi daSuriT TvalTagan sisxlis cremli wamoawvimada roca Rawvebs misi wveTi CamoeRvara, maSin gamoCnda Seni Rawvic, nazi aswilad.

Sens ZiebaSi gailia ramdeni Rame, bevri amo dRec, Sens bageebs rac mivekare, waxvel da axla dRecismare amas vCurCuleb:SenTan Sexvedris ganTiadic daRamdes barem.

jefri Caseris `katerberiuli zRaprebi~

sami axalgazrda mamakaci, sikvdili da oqros tomara

sami axalgazrda mamakaci sastumroSi ijda, Rvinos Seeqceoda da mxiarulobda. moulodnelad maT garedan xma SemoesmaT. gaixedes fanjaraSi da dainaxes ramden-ime adamiani, romlebsac kubo mihqondaT.

vin aris mkvdari? _ ikiTxes maT. inJinerma uTxra maT gardacvlilis saxeli, romel-

ic maTi megobari aRmoCnda, aseve axalgazrda mamakaci. isini gaocebulebi darCnen da yurebs ar ujerebdnen. magram inJinerma uTxra, `diax, es simarTlea. Tqveni me-gobari gardaicvala. kvdeba axalgazrdac da moxucic, bevri iRupeba. sikvdils yoveldRiurad hyavs Tavisi msxverpli am sofelSi. TiTqmis yvela adamiani mkvdar-

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ia. me vfiqrob, sikvdili am sofelSi binadrobs~. sami axalgazrda megobari Rvinos svamda, Tumca maT

naTlad ver gaegoT, ra Tqva inJinerma. isini fiqrobd-nen, marTla cxovrobda Tu ara sikvdili im adgilas da brazobdnen, rom man marTla Seiwira maTi megobari. `wavideT da movklaT sikvdili, gavakeToT es, sanam daRamdeba~ _ Tqves maT.

`frTxilad iyaviT, Tu Tqven SexvdebiT sikvdils, is Tqven mogklavT~, _ uTxra maT inJinerma.

`Cven ar gveSinia, wavalT da movZebniT sikvdils. Cven unda viyoT Zmebi da unda davicvaT erTmaneTi, roca vipoviT sikvdils, Cven movklavT mas~, _ upasuxa erT-erTma.

am sityvebis Semdeg maT datoves sastumro da gaud-gnen gzas. male maT erTi moxuci SemoxvdaT.

`iciT, sad SeiZleba vipovoT sikvili?~ _ hkiTxes moxucs.

`diax, ar aris rTuli misi moZebna. xedavT im tyes? wadiT iq da mas Zveli muxis qveS ipoviT~ _ upasuxa mox-ucma.

axalgazrdebma madloba gadauxades moxucs da tyisken gaswies. male maT Zalian Zveli muxis xe dai-naxes. rodesac masTan mividnen, dainaxes oqros fu-liT savse tomara. axalgazrdebs Zalian gaexardaT da saerTod gadaaviwydaT sikvdili. isini mxolod oqroze fiqrodnen.

`kargi, axla Cven Zalian mdidrebi varT. modi, wavi-RoT es oqro saxlSi da sam nawilad gavyoT. wavediT,

swrafad!~ _ Tqva erT-erTma. `moicadeT, momismineT. Cven ver waviRebT am oqros

fuls axla, dRisiT. Cven gzaze xalxi Segvxvdeba da gvkiTxaven, ra migaqvT? visia es oqro? sad miiReT am-deni oqro?’da Tu Cven vetyviT, rom es oqro tyeSi vipoveT, isini ar dagvijereben. ara, Cemo megobrebo, Cven ar SegviZlia axla wasvla. unda davicadoT, sanam daRamdeba. roca dabneldeba da xalxi daiZinebs, Cven SevZlebT waviRoT is saxlSi da gavyoT~ _ Tqva meorem.

`marTali xar, Cven unda movicadoT, sanam daRamde-ba, magram manamde didi droa da male mogvSivdeba. modi erT-erTi wavides qalaqSi, moitanos Rvino da raime saWmeli~ _ Tqva mesamem.

yvelaze axalgazrda wavida qalaqSi, danarCeni ori muxis qveS oqrosTan erTad darCa.

axla Tqven xedavT rogori megobrebi iyvnen es ax-algazrda mamakacebi. rodesac muxasTan darCenili ori megobari elodeboda mesames, erT-erTma Tqva, `Sexede, me ar minda am fulis samad gayofa, Sen ginda? ar Segvi-Zlia orad gavyoT? mxolod me da Sen?~

`ratomac ara, magram rogor gavyoT?~ _ ikiTxa meo-rem.

`oh, es Zalian advilia, sulelo! ori ufro Zlieria, vidre erTi. rodesac is dabrundeba, Cven SegviZlia movklaT is, sul esaa. mTeli fuli Cven dagvrCeba~.

da raze fiqrobda maTi megobari am dros? ra Tqma unda, fulze. is fiqrobda, rogor darCenoda ufro meti fuli. `Tu Cven gavyofT fuls sam nawilad, ar

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iqneba kargi! me msurs, rom yvela Cemi iyos~ _ eubneboda is Tavis Tavs. Zalian bevrs fiqrobda da bolos aseTi idea mouvida TavSi. unda movwamlo isini~-Tqva man.

is icnobda erT kacs, romelic virTxebis sawamlavs hyidda. wavida im kacTan da iyida cotaodeni sawamlavi. Semdeg SeiZina puri, xorci da sami boTli Rvino.

rodesac man qalaqi datova, erT adgilas gaCerda, sadac mas veravin xedavda, amoiRo sawamlavi da orive Rvinis boTlSi Cayara. Semdeg aCqarebuli nabijiT gae-Sura Tavisi megobrebisken. mas surda, Zalian bevri fuli hqonoda.

rodesac man muxamde miaRwia, danarCeni ori mas dan-iT daxvda da mokles is. maT Zalian uxarodaT, radgan mTeli oqro maTi iyo. gaxsnes boTlebi da Rvino sul dalies. male isinic daiRupnen.

ase ipova samma axalgazrda mamakacma sikvdili.

emili bronte

siyvaruli da megobroba

daedareba megobrobas _ wmindad Seracxulsvardi veluri _ siyvarulis gansaxovneba, ros mewamuli Caanacvlebs erT dros ferad suls, azrad aravis ar mouva maTi sworeba.

vardi tkbilia gazafxulzec, zafxulSic... magrammova zamTari, surnelebis brmad Semwirveli, vinc velurobas simarTlisas miakravs damRas, qmedeba misi aRmoCndeba gasakvirveli.

brazi ereva vardisfer da sulelur gvirgvins, dekembers Tavzec SeuZlia Tmis Seferxeba;Tumc gadamwyveti brZolis Semdeg ikiTxav, vin-vis, mixvdebi, susxi namdvil grZnobas ver Seexeba.

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cviva foTlebi, cviva

iRupebian moSorebiT xisgan foTlebi, grZelia Rame, umokldebaT dRe sasaubrod, modian CemTan saTiTaod xmeli ocnebiTfoTlebi Cumi Semodgomis da me vxmaurob.

viRimi, radgan aq odesRac vardni yvaodnen, mova Tovli da am adgilebs TeTrad SeRebavs;me avmRerdebi... Tumc sastiki aris raodenRamis RviZilis mSral dReebTan uxmo Sexeba.

zafxulis mTvaris Suqi

zafxulis mTvare, Suqi mTvarisarbilia, nazi da WeSmariti, aq yvelaferi SuaRamisas sunTqavs da drosac ara aqvs ridi.

magram cis sawyis TavSesafarebsyvelaze metad xrian xeebida ugzavnian totebs am RamesZirs nasesxebi sicocxleebiT.

mwvane balaxs da talRebs yvavilismSvenier formebs aZlevs buneba, aq am veluri garemos wilisaTqmels Tavisas qarebs uyveba

wamodi, iqneb, aRar iqrolos qarma

wamodi, iqneb, aRarc iqrolos, rogorc axla qris qari saCvenoda varskvlavebmac aRar anaTon, aseTi Suqi aRar gvaCvenon. jer oqtombramde droa uleviCven sisxlis zRvebi gagvinapirebs, Sen SenSi, me ki CemSi srulebiT dasamarebas grZnobis vapirebT.

darCeba grZnobis saxeze wilida anabeWdi mas rom emgvana. dagvaviwydeba, ramdenad tkbiliyofiT sargeblobs mTeli qveyana. da daatarebs yvelafers irgvlivyvela mzadaa, igrZnos ra-risTvis, rom daanarcxon, irCeven sxvisTvisiseT samsaxurs _ honorarisTvis.

ar SegviZlia, gavuSvaT Sansixelidan omis _ rkinis wesebiT, ambiciisas Cven vicavT kanons, natkepni gzebiT ar vimwyemsebiT. sxeulebidan viwuravT sisxlebs. cremlsadens vaxSobT bevri cremlis RvriTda mainc, qarma aRar iqrolosiqneba, axla Tuki CvenTvis qris

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da arasodes anaTon aseam varskvlavebmac grZnobiT imaveaRar ibrwyinon im brwyinvalebiT, riTac agrerig axla brwyinaven. dgas oqtomberi karTan morigiviT Wavli _ suliT mTlad gaJRenTilimtrul rigebidan aq xma moismissisxli sicocxlis aw dawretili.

atare Seni mTeli arsebiTsevda sicocxlis _ axla Seniarac Cemi iyo, me ki vatareb Sensas, sxva gza Tu ar damrCenia.

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aleqsandre puSkini

ZiZas

Cemo gadia, veRar vxvdebiT erTad daisebsmZime dReebis dagwolia mxrebze lodebi, uRran tyeebis siRrmeebSi dgaxar da isevdardebisagan daRlili me melodebi.

da maSin, roca Sens sarkmelTan Rupav saaTebs, sinaTlis sxivi Camojdeba awowil xeze, Sens damWknar xelebs wamierad rom gaanaTebs, dardebis fardas Semoiqsov Semcivnul mxrebze.

davSoriSordiT, magram vici, rom ar gamqralagrZnobaTa wyeba Cem winaSe rac ram gqonia, wuxili isev wineburad Sens guls mWvalavs da Soreul Sav gzas daadgebi kvlavac mgonia.

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tusaRi

vzivar sakanSi, vumzer gisosebs:ZaliT maZRari erTi arwivimowyenilia, mZimed iqnevs frTebs, kenkavs saWmels da marTla ar wivis. kenkavs da fantavs, gahyurebs sarkmels, erTad gvibiZgebs SanTiT goneba, axal ideas `gafrenas~ arqmevs, ise iquxebs, ca gegoneba! vigemoT, Zmao, Tavisufleba! gavfrindeT, RrubelT miRma mTebia, iq, Tu lurjma zRvam isev ineba, qari, napiri isev melian...

lamazmani

sanimuSo, mSvenieri qalbatoniis samyaros, mgznebarebis gvirgvinia, damSviddeba, moridebiT, wynari toniTdagatyvevebs, dagamunjebs _ gviania. qals sul ar hyavs megobari an metoqemis garSemo ukunia sul mTlad irgvlivsilamaze yvelas gulis sims atokebsbrwyinvaleba Tavis gzaze martod ivlis. pirmcinaro lamazmano, aCqardebi, paemanze wasvla ukve dagvianda,

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rac ar unda gamawamo, geficebi, saocnebo Sen xar Cemi, ganZi anda... uecari Sexvedrebis andamati, RvTiur Zalis mag TvalebiT gakveseba, gamaCerebs, damamonebs, Tundac _ metigagiJebis mwveli cecxli guls medeba.

k...

maxsovs, gixile TviT saocreba, roca Semogxvdi sadRac, quCaze, mal gaqri, rogorc landi, ocneba, mSveniereba da silamaze.

vwuxvar, vewame usasod qmnili, siCume yviris, ver gadavrCebi!Seni nazi xma dardad STenilisizmrad ki mkrTali saxis nakvTebi.

drom gadarecxa wvimiT yoveli, mimoabnia ocnebaT rigi... Sens ciur saxes, Sens xmas moveli, minda, rom isev Sevicno igi.

gamiqra RmerTi da STagoneba, cremli, cxovreba, TviT siyvaruli, tyveobaSia Cemi goneba, da iweleba bolo dRe kruli.

gamoiRviZe, dro aris, sulo!mudam Tan damdevs Seni xateba, Cemo malimal gamqralo gulo, mSvenierebis ciurnaTeba...

kvlav aRdga RmerTi da STagoneba, cremlic, cxovrebac, TviT siyvarulic, guli Zgers ise, rom gegonebagaqra tkivili, vaeba, ruli...

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sarCevi

poezia

giorgi esebua ...................................................................................4

giorgi caciaSvili ........................................................................ 11

daCi beriZe ..................................................................................... 15

naTia mWedliSvili ........................................................................ 17

papuna fircxalaiSvili ................................................................. 21

oliko maTikoSvili ...................................................................... 25

irakli WikaiZe ................................................................................ 27

konstantine iamaniZe ..................................................................... 30

mirza burZeniZe ............................................................................. 36

Tamar babuciZe ............................................................................... 39

vitali kilasonia .......................................................................... 43

kaxa wignaZe ..................................................................................... 45

beqa bostoRanaSvili ..................................................................... 50

proza

maia burdiaSvili .......................................................................... 53

nana gegeWkori ................................................................................ 60

meri zaqaSvili ............................................................................... 64

qeTi gomarTeli ............................................................................. 70

daTia badalaSvili ........................................................................ 78

maia abulaZe ................................................................................... 81

giorgi logua ................................................................................ 91

Tekla eremeiSvili ........................................................................ 97

levan gelaSvili .......................................................................... 104

nikoloz totoRaSvili ............................................................... 113

cotne avsajaniSvili ................................................................... 119

Tamar cukoSvili ......................................................................... 123

Smagi beruaSvili ........................................................................ 131

natali abesaZe .............................................................................. 138

qristi CakvetaZe ......................................................................... 143

nino gogniZe ............................................................................. 148

publicistika

Tekla lazi .................................................................................. 152

giorgi kaxiSvili ......................................................................... 158

sofo petriaSvili ...................................................................... 165

irina arCvaZe ................................................................................ 169

Targmanebi

ekaterine baramiZe ....................................................................... 174

giorgi vaxtangaSvili .................................................................. 177

giorgi xulordava ...................................................................... 180

manana gomarTeli ......................................................................... 185

nino javaxiSvili .......................................................................... 189

sofiko devdariani ...................................................................... 194